Presence

Today was yet another day of another good day!!!




The day has a refreshing start!!




And amazingly ... there isn't much work in office for me to do!! I am still getting a hang of my work. Can't say i am perfect ... and there will be times which i am pretty critical over my low performance .... over that silly mistakes... over my forgetfulness over what i learn yet just days ago. But i keep telling myself that it'll be better. That i am not working there by chance ... and i will be a salt and light one day. Despite the reminders of the horrible times i had in my NS days... i know that God is always faithful to me. I can't rely on the past to bring me to future. Truly every step is a step of faith. I believe that every walk i take with Him will lead me higher...



Just had prayer meeting wif the 143 / 116 gang. It was quite awkward i feel at the start ... and my fingers was seriously numb and tired. Never felt that stretched before ... since i don't usually play guitar for such a long time these days. But nevertheless.. by His strength i am still able to play a good song ... i am still able to draw down the presence of God together with Wen and everyone else. And i am glad that many people through pm had such a powerful encounter with God. It's amazing.



For me myself as a guitarist... i guess i don't have the privilege to enjoy God so intimately yet. Though it is not true to say that i will not able to get an encounter with God.... but as I serve as a guitarist, it dawned on me that whatever gifts that i had .... its for others that i serve. Not for myself.... and maybe that is why i am not able to enjoy that much as my fellow friends... as much as to receive a sweet impartation from God. In another sense, as i played during the meeting ... i think i was brought into remembrance of how the HS approached those who are meek .. who are willing to put all aside to follow him. To those who say " for me to live is Christ ... for me to die is gain". Its deep ... but yet i do know that God is on His part always waiting ... always waiting for that communion.



The presence of God is such to amazing to describe. I want to come to that place again... where his river will flow out so deeply in my life. Not just once or twice. But every single day. Every single day. In my heart .... i am so dissatisfied about one truth. That is that if signs and wonders and grow so strong among some people ...... among the heroes of faith in the past .... why not now??? What is holding back the HS ??? If only the doors are really open on our members. ... i know things will really be different. That is my desired breakthrough for my life and church.



If you can use anything Lord, you can use me. Having said all this, i am thankful that you brought me back to the walk by your grace and mercy. As i go thru AFV, i know that my time here is little. And i know that the continous war that rages all around the world is not that of the natural.. but in the spirit. I will continue to fight o God ... to overcome the strongholds of the darkness. Holy spirit guard my heart and soul. Amen.

Excellence

Food for thought by Mr. Robb Thompson

“Do you see a man who excels in his work? He will stand before kings; he will not stand before unknown men.” Proverbs 22:29 (NKJV)

Stand before kings? Hard to believe, you might say, but it has happened in my life. I have had the privilege of standing before many great men and women, including kings, queens, and presidents of different nations. The verse above says, “Do you see a man who excels? He will stand before kings; he will not stand before unknown men.”

Your pursuit of excellence awakens the remarkable process of transformation. You may say, “Dr. Thompson, not me. You don’t know me, I am just an ordinary Joe.”

Please listen carefully: If God can take a man who was on drugs, an alcoholic by the age of fourteen, embezzled stereo equipment, institutionalized at a mental hospital, and cause him to stand before some of the greatest men and women on the face of the earth, then He can certainly do it for you.

But . . . with every great achievement there comes a great price to be paid. As you pursue excellence, which is the continual pursuit of improvement, God takes you--an ordinary person--and does extraordinary things through your life. Now, the question is, do you believe it?

DAILY CONFESSION

Father, I thank You that I excel in my work and I will stand before kings and not unknown men.

Man of details

Bank 101: Be a man of details. Because details determine destiny.


Again it was a tiring day. But you know wad, i am amazed that i did not fall asleep in work or something. I kinda expect myself to be soooo sleepy (since i had a pretty long unrested but fun weekend) that i will doze off halfway during work. Thank God for the God-given strength to complete my work task... and somehow i think i got a hang of the work i struggled to get it right last week. As my superiors reviewed my work ... there was still tons of silly mistakes here and there.... (most if not all of which are done last week) so .. in a way i was kind of discouraged.


I realise that though my work is in a way .... pretty small scale and to a certain extent pretty dead.. i know that every detail of my work is important. A small error like not inserting a "Mr" infront of a name in a letter is unacceptable in my line of work. And somehow ... i know that if i am going to undertake something 'huge' in the future... i got to pay attention to the details i handle now. No matter how big or small it.


just as how God is detailed in making every single cell of us.... and every atom that makes up the universe. A tiny miscalculation and bam... no more Jason .... no more earth... no more pretty nice oreo cheesecakes.


Anyway i am happy that we r going to have our first cell-group initiated prayer meeting. Its been a long time since we gather together to pray for cell group... the church and even for ourselves. I really want to have fun ... and at the same time receive a greater impartation from this pm....


this is all so going to be cool. :)

Chalet and Out

Ahhhhhhhhhhh i am shagged.





jus went for service -> chalet -> morning service -> Food game (shi zhi lu kou) -> Steamboat buffet!




Spent alot !!! an amount never thought possible in my recent months .... not until God provided me with the opportunity to spend this much with my friends. Great is our God indeed!!!



I am falling sick i think. But i pretty enjoyed the fellowship. Sometimes when i get too tired... i just daze and smile ..... but at least the last 2 days... i still had the energy to interact and run around (in the game). Sadly no much appetite to enjoy the food. Me and jarrett there just wanna sleep. Zz


Gonna do QT soon. And yea i got to do QT (alone) at the East coast (small jetty) near the beach. It was a pretty rewarding experience! Though there wasn't a bam wow bam revelation.... but my heart was filled with thankfulness over all his goodness that was poured down on me this week. Pouring out my appreciation out at the breezy jetty was certainly unique!


Maybe if time permits ... i will post pics! took many pix!



I needa rest early. Till de next time....

1st Day

What a day!







Been tired again. Can't imagine .. 1st day of work and i feel pretty worn already. Probably not used to waking up early to work. Really thank God for this job.

1) It's near my house (2 NEL stops away!)
2) I have 2 friendly mentors ^^
3) It brings me better income! No more eating of grass (soon! need to get paycheck 1st).



Basically, i deal with capital repayment for Housing Loans. Sounds pretty simple, but the work process is pretty tedious and sophisticated. Maybe its because i am not used to the Bank Lingos... it's all pretty technical. I think at the end of the day, i am still a little messed up from all the different work processed i need to do. One bad thing about the job is probably because of its repetitive nature. But well i can't expect much from an office administrative job. Unless i do telemarketing or management training ... or something something else.


But one thing for sure... i want to bask myself in this office... and be able to absorb everything like a sponge. Kinda hard for a guy who has STM and i had to resort to calling my mentor "shifu" since i forgot her name again and again :) .


Well after all is said and done, it's an interesting environment. It has a pretty weird stereotype that guys will hate such jobs because its mundane less hands-on. Well that is true to a certain extent i guess. Frankly, it's boring. The up side is that i get to learn about housing loans and alittle about the back-end admin support for a bank. HSBC is a pretty cool place. It has reminiscence of my work back in NSSC in a way. :) sure brings little memories back then. ah wadeva.


Tomorrow is dressed down day! got to dressed down... down down down down down .... ^^


Be a salt and light Jason.

E-mail

got an interesting mail from Chun li. Check it out.





Rules from God


1. Wake Up !!
Decide to have a good day.
"Today is the day the Lord hath made;
let us rejoice and be glad in it."
Psalms 118:24


2. Dress Up !!
The best way to dress up is to put on a smile.
A smile is an inexpensive way to improve your looks.
"The Lord does not look at the things man looks at.
Man looks at outward appearance;
but the Lord looks at the heart."
I Samuel 16:7 !

3. Shut Up!!
Say nice things and learn to listen.
God gave us two ears and one mouth, so He must have meant
for us to do twice as much listening as talking.
"He who guards his lips guards his soul."
Proverbs 13:3


4. Stand Up!!...
For what you believe in.
Stand for something or you will fall for anything..
"Let us not be weary in doing good; for at the proper time,
we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.
Therefore, as we have opportunity, let us do good..."
Galatians 6:9-10

5. Look Up !!...
To the Lord.
"I can do everything through Christ who strengthens me."
Philippians 4:13


6. Reach Up !!...
For something higher.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
and lean not unto your own understanding.
In all your ways, acknowledge Him,
and He will direct your path."
Proverbs 3:5-6


7. Lift Up !!...
Your Prayers.
"Do not worry about anything;
instead PRAY ABOUT
EVERYTHING."
Philippians 4:6



this prob makes each day counts..

Gym work.

I just came back from the Expo gym.... ahh and i just got a revelation today...



I need to hit the gym more. or at least work out my muscles more. Me knowing me knows that i will procastinate.. sadly so ... but still i wanna get back those muscles .... ahhh and get back in shape.



Hope tomorrow will be a better day. After emerge 07 ... it's like i am crawling through life these days. Been moody ..... and idle.... and just sad. Oh how long must i remain like this? sigh.



shalln't think about those sad sad stuffs. His joy shall be my strength.

Emerge!

Wad a word to say. Emerge!!





I just returned from Expo. Tired. But i felt good. No it's not just a feeling. I am just happy. Filled but still hungry. So very hungry. And i still have a a lot of digesting to do!



Pastor Kong raised many important issues that talks about many Christian's lifestyles .... and attitude. I have received a lot in my head ... but in the spirit .. i have not taken in as much. And i know the true assimilation of this knowledge comes when we live out the word.



Since this is a private blog .... with actually little or no one actually visiting here ... i have more freedom of pouring my thoughts w/o being affected by people's opinions. These few weeks .... i am really doing my best to live a life ... that is away from the opinions from people ..... only opening my ears to the words that matters. Words from leaders i respect. Words from people i am under. And ultimately words from God. Its hard.... but this brings my focus to the things that really matter. And you know .... today i feel kinda hard to communicate with cg again. Tiredness may be part of the reason. But i really feel separated from these people. It's not like i hate my cg mates .... but i just couldn't get along very well with people around me now. But yet i know that beyond feelings or such thoughts ... i need to obey God. Love people as you love yourself. Love people fervently. And as i said in my prayer ... i will obey.




I hope to be able to blog some testimonies of my lifestyle with Christ. How much God has blessed me ... and how i can share these blessings with people. Indeed, i will proclaim the word through my life attitudes as Jesus did .... with the trumpet that is now on my hand.

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As i worship God the last few days in emerge ... there are times i broke down b4 God. There are times where my heart is in a furry and i can't sense God at all. There are times when i see Wen liang or some crowd looking at me and grew a little neighbor-conscious. It's distracting. And somehow i got some feeling thru-out the last 2 times i sat with Wenliang that he doesn't like me... -_- oh well.. As i see these things now .... i shared with turtle on a cab that i do get affected by the conditions of our cg too .... speaking from the experience of someone that has lost all faith in my cg members and friends ... i know the feeling of detachment ... the discouragement ... the disappointment in living in an environment like this. As i ponder about all these things .... i realise that it's really like what Pastor says. If it's all going to be, it's all about to me. I can't relate to young people ... or in fact people ... as well as before ... but with the HS ... i can change one soul at a time. I can try to do something. It's simple. It's either you change them or they change you. That's the power that lies in the bonds we hold. I'm living in fear frankly ... that i will fall away from God ... that the path ahead will throw me off.... But i know that's why we really need God this time. If David can rise up above Goliathe and slay the giant with what God uses in his hands .... I can certainly do the same. And even more because we are living in the times of New Testament where the HS is freely given to us.



There are many things that strike me. One thing i know is that during this emerge .... the words i receive doesn't seem to be like revelations. But in fact its more like God telling me this is my word... do it... and i'll show you more. It doesn't strike my heart as before .... but its like deposited in a seed form. That's why Pastor said so many times recently... God is searching ... he is searching for one man ... one woman who is willing to stand in the gap. Willing to take up the cross. Willing to exchange his/her life with His. Willing to go to the ends of the earth for Him. Just willing.



God i'm willing. I know my heart is dry. My mind is filled with many past disappointments. My body is weak. But God i want to be more like you. So use me as only you can.