Gosh

This time of the year it's all about wrapping gifts and appreciating members..

So tired wrapping presents. Thank God for the help of bb that I am able to complete alot of the task.

Recently been feeling weird in my heart. I got to reject these thots and feelings cos it's negative!

Sigh but I really could use some rest. I really feel like going on a getaway. To be alone. Just feeling too much right now with school and work. Its not that bad when I think about it. But I feel so breathless. It's like one thing to do after another...

:) still I remain thankful. Everything is according to Your plan

Ng, sent via iphone �
[Godliness with contentment is great gain]

Thanksgiving night

I have just attended City Harvest thanksgiving night. My first impression... Every one is LIKE A GIANT. I dunno why but I feel I'm in the atmosphere of giant slayers.. And ita no wonder- I'm in the midst of man and woman who have battle scars all over them. Arrows shot straight at their heart leaves them tougher.. More resilient.. Hence the ginormous aura of a champion.

I feel seriously dwarfed. :( but hey .. I have my own battle scars. I once heard of a leader that only trained man or woman who have fell and have risen to be future leaders.. I don't understand what's so great abt falling and rising up again.. can't a pure and willing heart do the trick.

I still don't understand .. But I guess I'm still learning myself how God used different people to do different things. And how God can make me a part of His jigsaw puzzle consortium.

I looked at teary eyed leaders. and I wonder what's all their story. Today I heard stories of modern heroes of faith from the book if Acts- well chc's own version. They are really amazing. A heart of gold. The love of Christ shone in their every face.

God I want to be a man like that. Imperfect servant I may be. Sins and foolish things I commit.. But still I will humble myself and serve. I want to impact people in my simple ways. Buying that breakfast. Walking up to them to offer help. Listen to the complains and dissolving their unhappiness. An refilling their cup w edification and a golden smile.

It's gg to be a commitment. Not easy. But thru Your grace. I forgot and I remembered.I'm not ashamed of the gospel of God. It's your power and love that saved my soul. And my family and friends shall be
Saved. Amen

Ng, sent via iphone �
[Godliness with contentment is great gain]

Awesome grp

Well :) I have been leading Cg for abt a year plus... There are happy moments and also definitely discouraging times.

Still I constantly ask myself if I should be in cell group ministry.. I have no special talents. No fancy speech. No interesting humor. I make foolish mistakes. Too happy go lucky a person . I can be led carnally by my flesh.

Despite all these struggles in my thoughts.. I am glad I thought about all these. It all points down to this... God spoke to me through fri's elder he's sermon. Are you willing to serve. Sure
You don't exactly fit the bill. Others have much to say about you. But are you willing to serve? You may do things that breaks all the norms that Cgl will nt do. But are you still willing o serve?

Am I still willing to serve? What if I am not helping them? And they pin their hopes on e wrong leadership?

Still... I don't really get it.

At the end it's by your grace right?
Then give me the overflow. I want to be the best Cgl there is.

Ng, sent via iphone �
[Godliness with contentment is great gain]

Silly.

Sometimes I feel I really lack wisdom in my life.

I sometimes fail to look deep into the depth of issues... Fail to consider peoples feelings.. And ... Yea do things that are not right even tho I know it.

Why can't I get wiser ? Why do I assume everyone is ok if I simply do things with a nice gesture. I came to realize that i have been so foolish all this while.

God help me to grow more in this area. Maximize my manhood. Amen

Ng, sent via iphone �
[Godliness with contentment is great gain]

Get thee behind me

U spirit of old man!

I'm a new man! Period! Stop messing w my head!

Ng, sent via iphone
[Godliness with contentment is great gain]

Simple melody

You put a smile in my face
There's something sweet in all that you say
There are moments when I wonder..
That i can hold you hand for a second longer..

You are.. The one I love
You make me big.. And u make me grew.
You show me love.. When I feel low..
You are the sweetest thing to me.. :)

Oh the sweetest thing to me..

Ng, sent via iphone
[Godliness with contentment is great gain]

Malacca

went for Malacca trip with the church zone pple - AZ2 :)

it was quite fun.... getting to socialise with other people and having to be able to know more about them. And kudos really to the planners who make this trip possible. Yesterday i got to see the another part of the world which i don't normally see. and i capture in on camera!

I am so amazed by the topics the zone people talked about. it makes me feel that i am some mountain tortoise like that. indeed a great friend told me before that we need to learn to pick up things from the world to 'update' ourselves so that we can build on conversations with people. I have been trying to listen to 933 and news 938 when i work to know more abt the outside world. cos usually i don't really care. haha i have a habit that i picked up from my grandma - she always say mind your own business la (in half hokkienese = Hokkien + canto + chinese). so yea i usually lived a i mind my own business attitude.

As surely as we studies abt Globalisation in countries and cities out there.. i realise it happened in our lives too. The universe is expanding infinitely. The world is ever changing - to be more and more colourful. so it is interesting to see more of the world.

i hope i can travel far places to taste different culture. see what others do. and learn to appreciate what other culture appreciates in their lives.

Our lives are never about ourselves. It's about building pieces of a picture with others. If life is a canvas.. our friends hold our watercolours... and We paint it all together to form that beautiful picture called - life.

:) ahhh ... so much to say.. i got to run for svc! may svc 4 grow and be united! amen

SMILE

By uncle Kracker

You're better then the best
I'm lucky just to linger in your light
Cooler then the flip side of my pillow, that's right
Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where you send me,
Lets me know that it's ok, yeah it's ok
And the moments where my good times start to fade

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

Even when you're gone
Somehow you come along
Just like a flower poking the sidewalk crack and just like that
You steal away the rain and just like that

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

Don't know how I lived without you
Cuz everytime that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eyes
You make me smile
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

Tired

Tired.. But it's exciting to walk with you.

Indeed the best moments.. And life stories are birthed from crisis.

I may nt really be in a crisis recently .. gg through a rough patch where my self-esteem is tested. my confidence as a leader revealed.. and my self-worth tainted by my failures relived ... I just know something big is happening in my life. I have went through my unique struggles. hypothetically everybody has. And I rejoice in it :) if u are reading rejoice with me.. as i rejoice in yours too :D ... . I shall be such a awesome man of God. by the grace of God.

May I continue to be a giver and provider in all areas of my life. A Servant leader.

a Jesus man!

like u know spiderman sounds so cool!

lets be a Jesusman!

plays* theme song*

Jesus man! dum dum dum

He walks the street and patrols the night.

He makes villian smile and climb on for a ride.

He changes people one by one.

and hey.. you could be a ...

Jesus man! .. dum dum dum dum.

I'm really tired. Shall nap. nono sleep.

Life in Technicolor

This is a song written by coldplay. catchy. simple. pumps u up w joy..



awesome

Appreciated

My dear wrote a very long post for me :)




i just read it ... and it make me feel so appreciated!!!!



I am really tired now.. so i cant express out much how i feel. really need good rest. good sleep. and good time with God too. Been missing my long worships :(


Tmr i shall spend time with you God. a date with you :)




Thank you Jesus for giving me Xiuwen my dear friend and dear partner in crime Justice! Well every God-given woman in life i must say have their unique gifts and amazing attributes. And its a treasure ... real treasure when a man finds a woman that completes him. That the verse 2 becomes one makes sense.... God i cant say i can be sure of the future. But God right now from where we are ... and what i have holding onto in my hands... God it is really a precious jewel. Thank you for giving me a lady that speaks volume of great things about me.... But the most important thing is she understands my heart. and loves me for who i am. That is the door opener. Thank you Jesus for this great woman in my life.





And baobei. Thank you for being you :) you have many gifts and fruits. but above all you always teach me how to be a better man by the way you live.



Baobei thank you for ya love! :) love you alot!

library day

here i am ... back here again writing on my post



i have nothing particularly much to say...



every day... every week... there will be many issues on my mind


things to do. datelines to meet. lives to change.


its exciting to the core.


but today i just spent a simple day with a dear friend.


not thinking of anything much. not doing anything much.


study for her. movies for me :)


a wonderful simple treat for both of us - to be able to spend time w each other.



Really hope could have ore days like this.

for now thankfulness is the key to contentment.


as i type this she is trying to peep and cover my screen...


naughtiness is her forte.


i love it :)

How we can keep our Heart right

9  The fear of the Lordis clean, enduring forever; The judgments of the Lordare true and righteous altogether. 10 More to be desired are they than gold, Yea, than much fine gold; Sweeter also than honey and the honeycomb. 11 Moreover by them Your servant is warned, And in keeping them there is great reward. 12 Who can understand his errors? Cleanse me from secret faults. 13 Keep back Your servant also from presumptuous sins;Let them not have dominion over me. Then I shall be blameless, And I shall be innocent of great transgression. 14 Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart Be acceptable in Your sight, O Lord, my strength and my Redeemer.

Ps 19.

Guard my heart oh God. 

Ng, sent via iphone 

[Godliness with contentment is great gain]

Relationships

There are many motives into relationships. Just thinking abt it this morning..

Shall be continued in the evening.. :)


its in the morning!


well i just have a chat with dear last night.... and received a prayer of blessing for madeline. my dajie! woohoo!


She talk about the importance of communication and also being focus on what we have to do right now... seeing we are both students and taking up multiple responsibilities.


Speaking of which ... i really apppreciate her telling me to be ready that we wont probably have much time talking ... seeing each other.. or going out together. This actually saddens me... and im sure her as well.


But in all these things .. i can choose to be sad and complain. it isn't fair. there isn't enough time all the time. some others have 12 hours to spend every week with their loved ones... but i only have just 1 or 2 hours every week.


Looking back... looking at Sun and Ps Kong.. can u imagine their sacrifice over the last few years... how many moments... long moments that are like that for both of them?



In a relationship... any relationship. there is always a taker and giver. the 'taker' is motivated by the flesh.. and it always screams .. I WANT this .. and I WANT that in my relationship. It is self-serving ... and it has a huge appetite for attention and need. Mr. Taker has a very high expectation on his partner and will make his partner - die die live up to it.


Mr. Giver is different. He is patient. He is kind. He is not proud or boastful. He seeks to understands first, than to demand. He always expects the least, and gives the best. He knows that as he gives... that's the way God will reward him back in other areas. Because He knows he can never outgive God. especially in relationship.



Selfish motives - like getting into a rln.. to fill a security. to fill a particular thirst-quenching need... often drains the partner. It is a love-buster.


But Selfless motive - is saying i really am thankful for what i have. i am contented. and i will do and work out what is best for the partner ... and for the glory of God.



I realise it more and more when i hang out with her. This dear person in my life that i am not determine to let go. She carries this virtue.. that comes from many many heartaches and pains.. and eventually she grew and became a wonderful lovely lady.



I love her because she carries virtues that touched every man's heart. Most importantly... she loves me back too. for who i am.


Im thankful :)


Thank God.

Ng, sent via iphone �
[Godliness with contentment is great gain]

A new chapter

a New chapter opens :) 

I am thankful for what i have.

Sure alot of things happened.

But it happened all for the glory of God

'Cos at the end... our pursuit in relationships should bring us closer into Christlikeness. 

and everyday becomes meaningful.

taking one step at a time .. walking hand in hand

 

Regards,

Jason Ng .. s0nix

 

[God doesn't give us overcoming life, he gives life as we overcome... ]

Back here

I am back here blogging.


It's been awhile since i wrote.


hmmm i am not sure how long i will keep writing.


but writing in this blog has made me realise pretty cool things about myself.


This place is where i became honest with myself. where i share silly things. i whine and complain. and a place i poured my sorrows out.





ok i shall start blogging again :)

and i shall say one thing.






I am so happy to be alive! wahahaha!


There are just so much things to do.

my exam results are out. i can't wait not to check my results. but i can't do that can i ?


i tell you what i cant wait. i cant wait to get my DSLR!


i cant wait to do so visit old folks home.


i cant wait....


yea. but that is the excited little man in me.



for now.. shall spend time introspecting myself. live in a bigger dream. aspire.


life is more than just drinking a sweet flavoured cup of tea. minding ya own business.

there is a world to see. a song to be written!


oh yes! :) im gg back to my guitar.

vanilla twilight

:) very nice song! listening to it now as i study