Pastoral-ship

I had the priviledge to seat down together with the other cgls and Pastor Chee Kiang for a heart to heart talk on Tuesday! it was quite different atmosphere cos we are all seated in a small room ... pack together ard the table infront of Pastor! so it's literally meeting Him face to face to talk! The great thing is .. admist his busy schedule .. he still makes time for us... and he wants us to really get back to know Jesus more. because many time we serve and serve.. but we forgot Who we are serving... or Why we were here in the 1st place..


He posed mind provoking questions to us too... like did God created Sin ? The bible states God created all things... and all things as we know means all things. If that is the case.. that that means Sin is also in God's mind... and therefore... God could have 'made' sin .. (or not?)

It's interesting food for thot. Some of us said some funnny things... like God created Adam.. and Adam is told to multiply and fill the earth with earthlings. so actually.... it's just a matter of time someone stumble on the tree and eat its fruits! and also the serpants will also reproduce and have more... so more serpants will be around to deceive men... so either way.. we die! haha funny ans hor..

admist all this my take : was that God did not created sin. Sin is act and a consequence. In a short and sweet note: Sin to me is just the refusal to put God in your life as your God and friend. Something else takes that place in your heart and you feel you don't need God. Even tho sometimes you may acknowledge God is good .. or there may be a God .. but you just accept God as the centre of your life. That act... brings abt Sin into the earth (consequence). and all of us have (sin) in our lives. We become selfish and God-less. That consequence in short is seperation. This means God created sin? i would think it as God gave 'choice'. That you can choose every single people in your life. whether to accept them.. deny them .. have marriage with that person... choice.


Interesting talk right. but sometimes in these meetings.. can really feel tired. so honestly it can talke a toll on your motivation. but looking on the bright side.. you see a very humorous side of pastor. you see the very fun side of the cgls there. and you see how different people talk about their life exp with God. how they seek God during their tough times.


in tough or good.. God is good.



anyway i really hope to have a strong relationship with people this year. sometimes when you look around.. you just want to have a close friend next to you. i have sunshine. :) but in a spiritual family... i do want to see a close friend. i do.


God pls make a way! let this be a journey then when we look back... we'll not regret.

Life is turning up

feel quite tired this week! :) but i feel really happy! by the grace of God... we met 9 overseas students coming over to our church.. and they are all doctors- to - be who wanted to live their life to make a difference. [Malaysian fellowship]. I am amazed by their faith! check out their website!

and now im back at citibank! it's like im running a circle .. and now im back again! but still want to thank God for the job. it's really a simple job so far.. with a better pay than my prev job as a telemarketer... less scoldings.. more chances to interact with people [cos i can email!] ... have higher chance to meet dear^^ ... and it allows me to go school earlier! so much good things! PTL!

anyway i enjoy fellowshippin w frens tis week! met pat , yuan jun and gao peng 4 pit stop! it's been a good relaxing time! not really relaxing ... but more of fun and simple chill out activity.. that involves team work.. plannings and deliberate attempt to stay 'alive' in the game! it was fun! a break from the normal L4d every week experience..

Then i met my JC mates to support one of his friend's committee DnD event. it was quite badly responded event.. very little pple came.. quite lame performance .. cos the magician is very very egoistic! i caught my fren dozing off half wayy thru e show. but i guess we dun mind coming down tog to help out another person's event!

i am also happy to talk to some of the long-lost members in our cg! like my and nhut! haha.. this week so much fellowship. ok time to go play abit of monster hunt! den sleep

Vision..

Great Leadership comes with a price.



There's more work to be done...



But the works flows from You!



Ultimately .. it's about You!



When no one's there .. You were there.



When i work in despair.. You were there.



When people needs to know You more.. You were there (with us)




I've been riding on her annointing for a long time... (and the church)




i've got to get my own mana and feed my sheeps..




Now : It takes 6 times more firepower to obtain a new ground than to stay at a old ground.




Help me o Lord to be the Man. No more running wild.

Refreshing~

This week was indeed a refreshing week! :)



1st i ate shokudo,. yums! So long never eat there.... so refreshing! . . .

2nd Elaine's Back!!! i feel stress but yet i feel i wanna talk to her more... but she's really busy! i realise after she's back.. it's like everyone's different. we are more relax and happy. wow... it's like the good o days in our family fellowship again..

3rd Rev Dr. A.R. Bernard was here! I mean i am chewing on so much green pasture... i really need time to digest the great word. Most impt .. i needa get my own rhema every week


4th Overnight Prayer Meeting [OPM] with Ps Chee Kiang was great! He talked about how sometimes we loose track of Jesus in our lives when we are caught up with the ministry.. the people.. the struggle... the pain... that the reality of God is missing.


Actually to talk on that... i just chatted with one member on the issue of feeling the presence of God. many people on stage in the past few weeks have been talking about God... being so near to us. but why sometimes does He seem so far ?


to think abt this now... it's a funny feeling. cos i remembered asking my spiritual mom in my 1st cg .. What is the presence of God ? why can a person weep and laugh under this ?? she tell me it's not always just a feeling... it is also a knowledge of the goodness of God. it's also abt experiencing something extraodinary in life that after considering all aspects of the situation... - you can only conclude it's God that makes it work!


For me .. i only got the head knowledge. i am a guy that likes to think. to ponder. and i always think that nature in itself is a real proof of the very loving and detailed God that we serve. It's like the bible say.. (Luke 12:23-27)

"Life is more than food, and the body is more than clothing. Consider the
ravens, for they neither sow nor reap, which have neither storehouse nor barn;
and God feeds them. Of how much more value are you than the birds? And which of
you by worrying can add one cubit to his stature? If you then are not able to do
the least, why are you anxious for the rest? Consider the lilies, how they grow:
they neither toil nor spin; and yet I say to you, even Solomon in all his glory
was not arrayed like one of these."

But yet the emotional experience... and the blessings in my situation. it wasn't so immediate. but the greatest need of mine was met. it was loneliness. And that was God's no1. in his to-do list he has worked on. That was probably what i needed the most at that time.... It's awesome! PTL! :)


After he dealt with my heart.. i could see better. and i could trust and could reason better. that God is not just a beautiful creator.. He is true to His word! If he bring comforts to the broken-hearted.... and it was a strong form of assurance that i kept in my heart. He was slowly restoring me for a greater purpose

So pretty much like what Ps A.R. Bernard has shared.. God's revelational experience is not just a something we can talk abt and forget abt it. It's present in our everyday lives! Christ is very much integrated.. interwoven into fragments of our life.. sometimes it's hard not to see. It's only difficult to exp God when we have set our idols in our life. When we are so attracted to something that we lose touch with something that's precious. something that gives meaning to our lives...


Life is more than just play.. study... or e motions of eat , sleep and work. It has a deeper meaning than that... there's got to be something more in life.

Amazed

how your words have called me back to my first love...



and helped me understand the purpose of 1st works..


thanks for Your reminder... Thank you abba Father.

*new* look

Change new blogskin! yes fresh new look :) neater and cooler!

but still has unfinshed.... sigh changing blogskin for me is really a big pain(t) job. i need a new com!



played L4D with the bros like (so many so many so many) times with the bros. the fulfillment of killing zombies and working as a team to slay the evil forces has reached a whole new level of fun! but certain times it feels like strangling your team-mates.. i guess this is how you grow in teamwork and relationship.



more than that... played table tennis few weeks back. sigh wanna do more sports... but school is starting so soon. exams coming out soon. it's really scary.



but i know more things are waiting for me to be done. gotta go all out.



anyway i hope my little brother in my cg can think things thru and consider well his directions. don't make decision of a lifetime by impulse. cos a family is not formed thru sweet good times. it's formed by sticking together and making it thru tog as one. :)


alrighto

a short hurray - - -

this week has been a pleasant week. i've finally got my pay.. :) so no more living on simple yucky food. hehehe


Thank God

Hakuna Matata

I've sign up for my new modules this week. school's going to start real soon! in another 2 more weeks... in 7 July class will start! sigh our holiday's quite short =/ ..... but this year i chose interesting modules! Corporate Finance ( heard its a killer ), Investment Management, Sociology and Psychology course, Marketing. Seems all soo interesting! hehe



Sigh i feel i need to draw back to God. i miss morning Prayer meetings! >:O got to discipline myself to wake up early to pray!



ok enuff rabble babble..

Roadshow

I am going for roadshow again at clementi!



hope the weather is kind

God is Good

All the time!


:) ole!

Random Spills

i like fellowshipping with cg. Thank God for the growth. Thank God for the job. Thank God for the sweet lady supporting me. Thank God for the W116 times. There God that yesterday our cg has about 7 new friends for outing. it's a start. Thank God that my struggles that i have conquered. Thank God for the blessings you gave to my friends. Thank God for the covering and annoiting of my church leaders... leaders who paid the price so that i can enjoy. Thank God!


Tmr going to start 2nd day in as Manulife's Telemarketer. Hope i can make 3 deals tomorrow! :)

Good O' Days

great times. great moments.

HELLLLLLLLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOOOOO

helllo im backy back back.





i really hate studying now. dunno why. truthfully i dun feel passionate abt exams. yea yea all of us dun. if i think positive abt it ... its a good way to lose weight! but den again why am i gaining so much layers of 'blubber' under my tummy skin. its a paradox!



anyway i just have to keep on keeping on.



seriously been thinking abt alot of things abt myself lately. when it was mother's day this year .. i was feeling down again. but after a good let-out... i thank God im still here with a blessed family and friends. its silly sometimes... i have a tendency to run away from life. run away from what i have to face. but where can u run to in life from yourself? indeed if i dun have the strength of God.. i dun think i could be where i am today. seeing the beautiful people i meet everyday. appreciating life like the sweet scent of the sea. :) i love sea.



i just had a long chat with a ex-colleague of mine. feel quite sad that he's not happy at work and is giving up on a friend he knew so long. many things came to my mind as i chat... i think its true that we tend to give up on what life throws at you. : or you just don't wanna care abt it anymore. when the job you do sucks. when u have to face a demanding boss... when ya friends betray ya trust. when ya parents abandon ya. when the people u love do something u hate the most... we have all reasons to be angry abt it.. yea.. but yet i cant help thinking if im the person that wrong. the very 1st thing i will really want is someone to forgive me. i'll be serious enough... to change and remember (to my best) not to do something wrong again. i will hope the person will forgive. the funny thing is in life is it's so difficult to forgive. but it's easy to neglect people's feelings. it's easy to take things for granted. it's easy to say thoughtless things to people. it's easy to mind our own business. it's easy to criticise every 'speck of fault' we see. yet it's hard to forgive.


scandalon. is probably the best word to describe the place of unforgiveness. it's hard. but those who can do it can live with peace. and with less bitterness. because our heart grieves in a trap state of unforgiveness. that's why its more joyous to forgive. your heart can only be filled with the fullness measure of joy when you forgive..




Lord i forgive my mom. restore to me the peace once again. amen!

POA and Faith

Our lecturer mentioned about this in the early lessons on Principle of Accounts..


If the business transactions are on credit terms with cash payments made later, Would you :

1) record the transactions only when cash change hands ?

2) Or record both : i.e. first the credit transactions and then the cash settlements later whn they occur ?


Which will it be ?




The answer is 2!



For better information an for planning and control : The Realisation Concept identifies a transaction as 'realised' when it gives legal rights to the receipt or payment of money or other asset which can be assessed with reasonable certainty.



So when a sale is made a trade debtor (account receivable) is created. When a purchase is made : a trade creditor (account payeble) is created.


Accounts are all about records and records. In studying this subject .. apart from losing some hair .. i realise that it's pretty link to the issue of Faith.


Many times its hard to come to believe until we have something we can see in our hands. The practical .. the logical side of our mind will reason... and think if it can be done. This is also a part of fatih that some people actually tend to forget (including me). Faith ain't blind... but it considers the circumstances 'how improbable or how impossible' and its an assurance that God has taken care of it. Even if we don't receive the cold hard cash... we know that when we do a credit transaction... be it an online transfer of money... or when we tap our EZ-link card when we take public transport.. a transaction of the unseen is made. This is really much like faith. You cant see it.. but something is being taken care in the unseen. Money transaction are taken care of electronically. Our lives are taken care of in the spirit when we put our trust in God. That's why in Jer 29:11 : In the hardness of times.. Jeremiah proclaimed to the people all things will work for the good of those who love God!



Faith is the assurance of things hoped for. The confidence that is put in us when we feel hopeless. It takes us to God's realm .. and tells us it's all been done. God has given us the legal right as christians that we'll inherit the promise of God. If we walk with him.. there is a security like no other. We'll be blessed.

Exams!!

Exams coming in just a week !!! :O



haven take exams in awhile. im not feeling confident. But Faith is a substance of things hoped for, evidence of things unseen! And i will succeed!

Come on Jason

Faith is a substance of things hoped for

After a talk with Elaine... i feel at peace. i am no superhuman. just alittle thick-skulled at times. i cant get myself to arise. i wont get away from the negative things that spur in my mind. it's horrible.


when many times i ask God, " Why? why this mountain ?" .. a funny feeling hit me and say ... You know it better than i do.


I am sorry God. Now's not the time to say disheartening things like why ?? .. or i cant do it anymore. I pray that i will be much much stronger this time. with a bigger mindset. i am a christian. i am blessed to succeed. i am blessed to bless people around me. amen.

too big to fill

im filling a big pair of boots.




my feet feels naked at times.




but i'll perservere ...




tired.

down under

im feeling the blues..


sigh.

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but He who is in me is Greater than He who is in the world.

Twit

now I twitter too :D

Rattlesation

It's time for rattlesation!


I type this while my baby is sleeping.. and because her daddy's laptop is more comfortable and reliable to use than my little grampy com at home! (wols! man)



hmm... have many things to share.. many things i kept in my heart.. sometimes sunshine reprimanded me for not telling her... (ironic for the fact that i kept telling her to share her worries with me..), so i shall share some here. find typing it out is the best way to let out...



i've been quite depress for a while after Elaine left actually. I've felt back the old feelings of incompetency.. of lousiness... of loneliness... of shame... yea.. you know the list.. some of us share bits of pessimism from time to time. but ya i can only let this 'emotions' run for awhile... after that i've got to get my game up and keep running again.



as i slowly take up the responsibility of cell group leading... i began to feel a shift of weights.. leading cell group is really something of a whole new ... different dimension.... it's a whole different ground. Leading in a operational based group (usher) has taught me to react to different situations .. and i have to take ownership, work as a team, and find the best solution to cater to the situation. pretty much like situational awareness in army. im still not really good i that i feel. nevertheless, i find serving under such unforseen circumstances especially exciting and enjoyable in church! :) most importantly i met great frens there...


As i switch to cell group ministry.. i know it's goin to be something really different. the most challenging part would really be being a good minister and a good shephard. to gather and lead sheeps. speaking of which.. everytime i think abt leadership and helpership in church .. i remember the 1st call God gave me: that if you love me. feed my sheeps. if you love me, tend to my sheeps. if you love me.. feed them. After which, i began my exciting ministry in serving God! :)



The fun part of CG ministry to me :) ? it's to see lives grow. i wanna see that their lives changed. and right now i thank God im getting 'adjusted' to taking care of w116.. i still find it hard sometimes to click ... and it gets me down sometimes because im not as effective 'talker' as some people... or i don't have very much of the same 'interest' as some of my friends which i slowly realise.. but i believe passion can be brewed (like a tea). Xiuwen showed me that when she talk to Philips (a very interesting acquintance we always meet in church) in a very patient manner and kind manner. i think it can be slowly acquired.. at least that's how it'll work for me. i dun get very interested in 'new topics' like suddenly. takes time.. takes realisation ... takes erm... omph!




being a people person. a leader. is really a choice. whether ya willing to care for pple. that's leadership 101.



sigh i miss Elaine ... pls faster come back :(