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helllo im backy back back.





i really hate studying now. dunno why. truthfully i dun feel passionate abt exams. yea yea all of us dun. if i think positive abt it ... its a good way to lose weight! but den again why am i gaining so much layers of 'blubber' under my tummy skin. its a paradox!



anyway i just have to keep on keeping on.



seriously been thinking abt alot of things abt myself lately. when it was mother's day this year .. i was feeling down again. but after a good let-out... i thank God im still here with a blessed family and friends. its silly sometimes... i have a tendency to run away from life. run away from what i have to face. but where can u run to in life from yourself? indeed if i dun have the strength of God.. i dun think i could be where i am today. seeing the beautiful people i meet everyday. appreciating life like the sweet scent of the sea. :) i love sea.



i just had a long chat with a ex-colleague of mine. feel quite sad that he's not happy at work and is giving up on a friend he knew so long. many things came to my mind as i chat... i think its true that we tend to give up on what life throws at you. : or you just don't wanna care abt it anymore. when the job you do sucks. when u have to face a demanding boss... when ya friends betray ya trust. when ya parents abandon ya. when the people u love do something u hate the most... we have all reasons to be angry abt it.. yea.. but yet i cant help thinking if im the person that wrong. the very 1st thing i will really want is someone to forgive me. i'll be serious enough... to change and remember (to my best) not to do something wrong again. i will hope the person will forgive. the funny thing is in life is it's so difficult to forgive. but it's easy to neglect people's feelings. it's easy to take things for granted. it's easy to say thoughtless things to people. it's easy to mind our own business. it's easy to criticise every 'speck of fault' we see. yet it's hard to forgive.


scandalon. is probably the best word to describe the place of unforgiveness. it's hard. but those who can do it can live with peace. and with less bitterness. because our heart grieves in a trap state of unforgiveness. that's why its more joyous to forgive. your heart can only be filled with the fullness measure of joy when you forgive..




Lord i forgive my mom. restore to me the peace once again. amen!