im feeling alittle lousy right now...
this post shall not be a post where i beat myself up..
you know... i have heard about my real mom. my actual mom. my dad says she is crazy.... she once wanted to throw me out of a window when i was a baby.... from the way my dad tells it... she left us and ran away. she couldnt stand it.
i cannot understand this... and i am not so sure if i ever will. how a mom leaves his child behind ?
but what makes me wonder is...... was my mom sane. did she snapped because of something that happened..
and for me... will i follow after her footsteps? will i one day snapped like she did ? i dont know but its like a lingering thing in me...
sigh. i hope i am not crazy.
but i shall just remmeber this verse. ps91. those who dwell in the secret place of the Most High shall abide under the shadows of the almighty. I will say of Him ... He is my refuge. and my strength. In Him i will trust.
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