haha..
due to the lack of time ... i shall make this speedy quick.
I AM SO TIRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEDDDDDDD
ok there. im better.
Yesterday was one stressful day!!!! Being Stage 1 for the 1st time was an awesome experience. And i really wanna thank God for giving me the strength, capacity and wisdom in yesterday's service. Alan said i had a slight improvement on my comms handling and overall, i passed as a Stage usher in JW! Yays! Well to me a slight improvement is better than nothing. And honestly speaking, part of me struggled alot during service. And there's another part of me that says 'everythings gonna be alright!'. In a sense, it was really a struggle in my flesh and spirit because i was relying alot on my preperations the day b4 instead of by the HS.
I mean if u read my previous entry, i screwed up pretty badly in my last position as Stage2. And when serving as a stage usher, i cannot afford to screw up. So this is really a test on how well u can flow with the spirit. :) Well i do also know that some leaders rely on experiences and their own intelligent assessment to serve in ministry. That is good because God gave us brains - therefore he expects us to think smart and act smart. But i do believe in something mightier than human might - that is the Holy Spirit! With Him you can never go wrong. I remembered being thrown to do internal traffic on my 1st JW service last year ... and i really am amazed how the HS worked through me to resolve every problem i face! :)
So now i am goin to say this to myself! Gampatte. A small success is an encouragement. But i shall not be complacent and over-confident. The next service ... i shall be smarter, wiser, and more spiritually equipped. Amen!
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Sunday, February 17, 2008
Discontentment
Been quite down today. But hey =) i am a Christian! I will not let my sadness drown my day. :)
I told one of my cgms that some time this week that no matter how down we are ... there is always something nice that God place in our hearts to appreciate (or to be thankful for). And i am truly blessed to know of people that challenges me to renew my mind. Most of the time indirectly (and unknowingly they did that!). Their passion for people. Their passion to make things happen really inspires me greatly.
And well to talk abit about today. Well its really not a good day. I think the reason is because of my poor quality of QT in my last few days. And I really really think so. And its not the time-span i had that matters ... but its the quality of time i spend with God. I felt quite ashamed now to say all this. Even as a leader now handling lives at my hand, i should know better. And i don't like screwing around with people's lives.
And well what exactly happen today is that for my duty as an usher ( Stage 2 duty) : I failed in a couple of primary objectives.
1) My timing for my pulpit cup was outrageously out-of-standard. H1 commed me many many times .... but well i think i was alittle complacent (and therefore slow to judge the time needed to prepare the cup) . Hence, i come out to place the pulpit cup at the wrong timing.
2) My 1st row have 3 empty seats ( which i though was filled at first!! I was informed by Stage1 that there was BVs sitting there What i could have done is probably to check with the BVs if they want to sit there to fill the 3 empty seats. I commed H1 and H1 was very displeased with it.
3) I have empty seats all round Alpha. Though these seats are not under my primary care ... but as a Stage 2, i felt it could really be better.
4) I cant hear the com-set well. I probably need to rely on HS more.
Man =( i am really sad about my performance today. Can tell that H1 and H2 are really disappointed by my sharp drop in standard. I might be ban from doing Stage 2 for some time. :(
But you know what, i am a teeny weeny bit of happy today. Because out of all this mess, i think i could say i had a rude wake-up call. It certainly scares me in a way when i think about how i could handle big positions like this again. But i am glad that ultimately, its God that i serve. And despite all my shortcomings, he still loves me. I might be imperfect but he is perfect. I may lack but he is full. I may be weak but He is strong.
And yea i will not remain weak. I will grow sharper. Smarter. And less complacent. Every failure is a learning opportunity i say! And i shall never make the mistake twice! Amen!
Talked to JJ just now. Man he's the man full of actions. Even he was an usher under me.. i always think of him as a good inspirational co-worker in Christ. He teaches me alot when i chat. And if as he shared that he wants to leave usher and focus on CG... i tried to talk to him about my revelation early this year and need to serve. and then i realise something's not right with what i say .... And after much chatting, he said , " Jason what you say is alittle different from what Xiu wen and Cheryl (both CGLs in CK zone) shared. They want me to pursue my dream and focus on my vision." While all the time i blabbered having a greater heart (capacity) to serve God.
As i talked , i began to realise that i may be outdated myself. I could not use yesterday's revelation to impact the men and women of God. I need a fresh new revelation myself!!! I began to quiet down, and told him that i support him... but i would need some time to talk to my leaders. And i need to pray about it myself. Because i know that if God has really called him to move to this new ground, i can't possibly rebute with it. All i need to know where my new ground lies. I won't walk like how Lot walked away from Abraham. I wanna be the next Abraham-walker. I wanna walk by faith and not by sight!
Apart from all this, i quite enjoy the fellowship today with the usher leaders. Though i am quite not in the mood to fellowship ... but haha at least i think people will suffer less from all my lame jokes. :D
Anyways, lets work towards the goal! That is 1 million bottles of pineapple tarts, Bak Kwa and Soya Beans! Just Kiddin!
But yea lets work towards our heavenly Goal. To bring the kingdom of God into the hearts of people, looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith. :)
Thanks for reading ^^
I told one of my cgms that some time this week that no matter how down we are ... there is always something nice that God place in our hearts to appreciate (or to be thankful for). And i am truly blessed to know of people that challenges me to renew my mind. Most of the time indirectly (and unknowingly they did that!). Their passion for people. Their passion to make things happen really inspires me greatly.
And well to talk abit about today. Well its really not a good day. I think the reason is because of my poor quality of QT in my last few days. And I really really think so. And its not the time-span i had that matters ... but its the quality of time i spend with God. I felt quite ashamed now to say all this. Even as a leader now handling lives at my hand, i should know better. And i don't like screwing around with people's lives.
And well what exactly happen today is that for my duty as an usher ( Stage 2 duty) : I failed in a couple of primary objectives.
1) My timing for my pulpit cup was outrageously out-of-standard. H1 commed me many many times .... but well i think i was alittle complacent (and therefore slow to judge the time needed to prepare the cup) . Hence, i come out to place the pulpit cup at the wrong timing.
2) My 1st row have 3 empty seats ( which i though was filled at first!! I was informed by Stage1 that there was BVs sitting there What i could have done is probably to check with the BVs if they want to sit there to fill the 3 empty seats. I commed H1 and H1 was very displeased with it.
3) I have empty seats all round Alpha. Though these seats are not under my primary care ... but as a Stage 2, i felt it could really be better.
4) I cant hear the com-set well. I probably need to rely on HS more.
Man =( i am really sad about my performance today. Can tell that H1 and H2 are really disappointed by my sharp drop in standard. I might be ban from doing Stage 2 for some time. :(
But you know what, i am a teeny weeny bit of happy today. Because out of all this mess, i think i could say i had a rude wake-up call. It certainly scares me in a way when i think about how i could handle big positions like this again. But i am glad that ultimately, its God that i serve. And despite all my shortcomings, he still loves me. I might be imperfect but he is perfect. I may lack but he is full. I may be weak but He is strong.
And yea i will not remain weak. I will grow sharper. Smarter. And less complacent. Every failure is a learning opportunity i say! And i shall never make the mistake twice! Amen!
Talked to JJ just now. Man he's the man full of actions. Even he was an usher under me.. i always think of him as a good inspirational co-worker in Christ. He teaches me alot when i chat. And if as he shared that he wants to leave usher and focus on CG... i tried to talk to him about my revelation early this year and need to serve. and then i realise something's not right with what i say .... And after much chatting, he said , " Jason what you say is alittle different from what Xiu wen and Cheryl (both CGLs in CK zone) shared. They want me to pursue my dream and focus on my vision." While all the time i blabbered having a greater heart (capacity) to serve God.
As i talked , i began to realise that i may be outdated myself. I could not use yesterday's revelation to impact the men and women of God. I need a fresh new revelation myself!!! I began to quiet down, and told him that i support him... but i would need some time to talk to my leaders. And i need to pray about it myself. Because i know that if God has really called him to move to this new ground, i can't possibly rebute with it. All i need to know where my new ground lies. I won't walk like how Lot walked away from Abraham. I wanna be the next Abraham-walker. I wanna walk by faith and not by sight!
Apart from all this, i quite enjoy the fellowship today with the usher leaders. Though i am quite not in the mood to fellowship ... but haha at least i think people will suffer less from all my lame jokes. :D
Anyways, lets work towards the goal! That is 1 million bottles of pineapple tarts, Bak Kwa and Soya Beans! Just Kiddin!
But yea lets work towards our heavenly Goal. To bring the kingdom of God into the hearts of people, looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith. :)
Thanks for reading ^^
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Tree
A good Tree bears good fruits. A Bad tree bear bad fruits. And this year ... i wanna bear many many big juicy good fruits :)
very random message. But its very revelant to my heart. What fruits you bear... depends on the soil u grow. And that's your heart. And many times our heart fickles. My heart certainly does. This year i have been given new souls to take care of in usher. And some seeds to scatter as a connect group leader. And as a child in my family ... possibly a breadwinner for my parents and granny. Many responsibilities. Sounds kinda scary. But i know as long as i stay connected to to river of life .... and watch over the conditions of my soil ..... i should be able to see the harvest.
There must be a reason Jesus says ... the Harvest is plentify. there must be. So the promise will be there. and i will continue to work towards it.
very random message. But its very revelant to my heart. What fruits you bear... depends on the soil u grow. And that's your heart. And many times our heart fickles. My heart certainly does. This year i have been given new souls to take care of in usher. And some seeds to scatter as a connect group leader. And as a child in my family ... possibly a breadwinner for my parents and granny. Many responsibilities. Sounds kinda scary. But i know as long as i stay connected to to river of life .... and watch over the conditions of my soil ..... i should be able to see the harvest.
There must be a reason Jesus says ... the Harvest is plentify. there must be. So the promise will be there. and i will continue to work towards it.
Man
Its time for de man to talk again!!
Last week was a bam bam bam week man.
Well generally ... i think it was quite interesting. But more importantly.. after hearing one of Ps Kong's message on Manhood. Man i am inspired man! The message is really so critical .. and it speaks to our home church... and to our society on how man has been so much neglecting our duties.
Sometimes we really gotta take ownership and start leading more .. Doing more for the kingdom of God. Dad (church)'s talk about making things happen keeps floating in my mind these days. I kept thinking about what he says about the mediocre wait for things happen. But the Man makes things happen.
It's time to make things happen.
Last week was a bam bam bam week man.
Well generally ... i think it was quite interesting. But more importantly.. after hearing one of Ps Kong's message on Manhood. Man i am inspired man! The message is really so critical .. and it speaks to our home church... and to our society on how man has been so much neglecting our duties.
Sometimes we really gotta take ownership and start leading more .. Doing more for the kingdom of God. Dad (church)'s talk about making things happen keeps floating in my mind these days. I kept thinking about what he says about the mediocre wait for things happen. But the Man makes things happen.
It's time to make things happen.
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