Pastoral-ship

I had the priviledge to seat down together with the other cgls and Pastor Chee Kiang for a heart to heart talk on Tuesday! it was quite different atmosphere cos we are all seated in a small room ... pack together ard the table infront of Pastor! so it's literally meeting Him face to face to talk! The great thing is .. admist his busy schedule .. he still makes time for us... and he wants us to really get back to know Jesus more. because many time we serve and serve.. but we forgot Who we are serving... or Why we were here in the 1st place..


He posed mind provoking questions to us too... like did God created Sin ? The bible states God created all things... and all things as we know means all things. If that is the case.. that that means Sin is also in God's mind... and therefore... God could have 'made' sin .. (or not?)

It's interesting food for thot. Some of us said some funnny things... like God created Adam.. and Adam is told to multiply and fill the earth with earthlings. so actually.... it's just a matter of time someone stumble on the tree and eat its fruits! and also the serpants will also reproduce and have more... so more serpants will be around to deceive men... so either way.. we die! haha funny ans hor..

admist all this my take : was that God did not created sin. Sin is act and a consequence. In a short and sweet note: Sin to me is just the refusal to put God in your life as your God and friend. Something else takes that place in your heart and you feel you don't need God. Even tho sometimes you may acknowledge God is good .. or there may be a God .. but you just accept God as the centre of your life. That act... brings abt Sin into the earth (consequence). and all of us have (sin) in our lives. We become selfish and God-less. That consequence in short is seperation. This means God created sin? i would think it as God gave 'choice'. That you can choose every single people in your life. whether to accept them.. deny them .. have marriage with that person... choice.


Interesting talk right. but sometimes in these meetings.. can really feel tired. so honestly it can talke a toll on your motivation. but looking on the bright side.. you see a very humorous side of pastor. you see the very fun side of the cgls there. and you see how different people talk about their life exp with God. how they seek God during their tough times.


in tough or good.. God is good.



anyway i really hope to have a strong relationship with people this year. sometimes when you look around.. you just want to have a close friend next to you. i have sunshine. :) but in a spiritual family... i do want to see a close friend. i do.


God pls make a way! let this be a journey then when we look back... we'll not regret.

Life is turning up

feel quite tired this week! :) but i feel really happy! by the grace of God... we met 9 overseas students coming over to our church.. and they are all doctors- to - be who wanted to live their life to make a difference. [Malaysian fellowship]. I am amazed by their faith! check out their website!

and now im back at citibank! it's like im running a circle .. and now im back again! but still want to thank God for the job. it's really a simple job so far.. with a better pay than my prev job as a telemarketer... less scoldings.. more chances to interact with people [cos i can email!] ... have higher chance to meet dear^^ ... and it allows me to go school earlier! so much good things! PTL!

anyway i enjoy fellowshippin w frens tis week! met pat , yuan jun and gao peng 4 pit stop! it's been a good relaxing time! not really relaxing ... but more of fun and simple chill out activity.. that involves team work.. plannings and deliberate attempt to stay 'alive' in the game! it was fun! a break from the normal L4d every week experience..

Then i met my JC mates to support one of his friend's committee DnD event. it was quite badly responded event.. very little pple came.. quite lame performance .. cos the magician is very very egoistic! i caught my fren dozing off half wayy thru e show. but i guess we dun mind coming down tog to help out another person's event!

i am also happy to talk to some of the long-lost members in our cg! like my and nhut! haha.. this week so much fellowship. ok time to go play abit of monster hunt! den sleep

Vision..

Great Leadership comes with a price.



There's more work to be done...



But the works flows from You!



Ultimately .. it's about You!



When no one's there .. You were there.



When i work in despair.. You were there.



When people needs to know You more.. You were there (with us)




I've been riding on her annointing for a long time... (and the church)




i've got to get my own mana and feed my sheeps..




Now : It takes 6 times more firepower to obtain a new ground than to stay at a old ground.




Help me o Lord to be the Man. No more running wild.

Refreshing~

This week was indeed a refreshing week! :)



1st i ate shokudo,. yums! So long never eat there.... so refreshing! . . .

2nd Elaine's Back!!! i feel stress but yet i feel i wanna talk to her more... but she's really busy! i realise after she's back.. it's like everyone's different. we are more relax and happy. wow... it's like the good o days in our family fellowship again..

3rd Rev Dr. A.R. Bernard was here! I mean i am chewing on so much green pasture... i really need time to digest the great word. Most impt .. i needa get my own rhema every week


4th Overnight Prayer Meeting [OPM] with Ps Chee Kiang was great! He talked about how sometimes we loose track of Jesus in our lives when we are caught up with the ministry.. the people.. the struggle... the pain... that the reality of God is missing.


Actually to talk on that... i just chatted with one member on the issue of feeling the presence of God. many people on stage in the past few weeks have been talking about God... being so near to us. but why sometimes does He seem so far ?


to think abt this now... it's a funny feeling. cos i remembered asking my spiritual mom in my 1st cg .. What is the presence of God ? why can a person weep and laugh under this ?? she tell me it's not always just a feeling... it is also a knowledge of the goodness of God. it's also abt experiencing something extraodinary in life that after considering all aspects of the situation... - you can only conclude it's God that makes it work!


For me .. i only got the head knowledge. i am a guy that likes to think. to ponder. and i always think that nature in itself is a real proof of the very loving and detailed God that we serve. It's like the bible say.. (Luke 12:23-27)

"Life is more than food, and the body is more than clothing. Consider the
ravens, for they neither sow nor reap, which have neither storehouse nor barn;
and God feeds them. Of how much more value are you than the birds? And which of
you by worrying can add one cubit to his stature? If you then are not able to do
the least, why are you anxious for the rest? Consider the lilies, how they grow:
they neither toil nor spin; and yet I say to you, even Solomon in all his glory
was not arrayed like one of these."

But yet the emotional experience... and the blessings in my situation. it wasn't so immediate. but the greatest need of mine was met. it was loneliness. And that was God's no1. in his to-do list he has worked on. That was probably what i needed the most at that time.... It's awesome! PTL! :)


After he dealt with my heart.. i could see better. and i could trust and could reason better. that God is not just a beautiful creator.. He is true to His word! If he bring comforts to the broken-hearted.... and it was a strong form of assurance that i kept in my heart. He was slowly restoring me for a greater purpose

So pretty much like what Ps A.R. Bernard has shared.. God's revelational experience is not just a something we can talk abt and forget abt it. It's present in our everyday lives! Christ is very much integrated.. interwoven into fragments of our life.. sometimes it's hard not to see. It's only difficult to exp God when we have set our idols in our life. When we are so attracted to something that we lose touch with something that's precious. something that gives meaning to our lives...


Life is more than just play.. study... or e motions of eat , sleep and work. It has a deeper meaning than that... there's got to be something more in life.

Amazed

how your words have called me back to my first love...



and helped me understand the purpose of 1st works..


thanks for Your reminder... Thank you abba Father.