Night ... the absence of light. Sounds nice rite? But it doesn't really make sense ..
ZzZ
I feel that time passes very slowly today. The workload i am getting in NSSC is never-ending. After clearing a stack of paperwork, i'll just get another good load of it. It keeps on coming and coming. I won't be surprise if my stack of paperwork reaches the ceiling. Then maybe, i can try to make the leaning tower of erm ....... Papersa ? Whatever it is, it just seems like everyone in their unit is defering their NS reservice - In Camp Training [ICT]. Maybe it is a staged conspiracy to bomb the NSSC to death with the humungous workload.
Haiz.
Pat and me met up with Chong and turtle at JE. I bought a nice card for my friend and frankly speaking, i feel that all the Mommys like to bomb out their babies during March and April. There is like about at least 15 people i know who has birthday around that period. Think about my wallet. Think about my bank. At the end of this weeks, i might have to start living on water and bread.
But still its nice to bless as it shows you have the ability to bless people around you. That itself is a blessing. Right Pat ? :)
Turtle took her iniative to help us make a box. Pat taught me alittle on how to cut nicely and he assisted me in making the box. I would say with their help and also Chong's, we've made a very very nice looking box. I am really awed when i see the final product. Its a sweet looking box with Teddy bears and heart shape all around. It turns out very much better than what i expected. Thanks again guys. You rock ! :)
Tragically, muddle-head o' me forgot to bring back the stars and other accessories that is going to be put inside the box. That might mean we have to delay another 1 week to present her present. Sigh. I will try my best to get it back later today.
Prayer meeting was great as expected. Even though i am tired and have a swollen little leg, i felt really good to be there and pray. Though most of us there were kinda tired, the praise and worship was still a blast. We praise and worship for about close to an hour. And we spend the next hour praying for our church and for the members. Though i don't feel especially lifted or special this time, i feel kinda free from the tiredness and all the stress accumulated today. I was kinda low on words today because of my tiredness. After the prayer meeting, i feel very much better. My leg hurt lesser though i am still very tired -___- . I din inform my Grandma about the later prayer meeting and she was kinda mad when i reach home. But still by His grace, everything went on well :)
Whew..
The night is young but my body is ermmm ....... also young! Anyway i am tired!!!
So i shall cut my blabla short . . . . . . . . . . ........
=_=
Saturday, April 30, 2005
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
Office Routine.
This week's going kinda smooth so far for me. I just suddenly find time past very slowly in the office. Everyday goes on with almost the same mild intensity. The moment i step into the office, i will just feel that i left my brain back at home. Then i will see a big file full of papers. Just reminds me of school days where you get files after files of papers. With 2 years like this, i doubt i won't emerge free from Papyrophobia. [fear of paper] That amazing stack of paper actually belongs to my senior Jon. The scariness of it all is that i will soon inherit all his duties and face that Goliath everyday.
Better learn from David how to slay these Goliathes effectively
I still remembered how much a torture it is to be alone, handling all the deferments in my division. It is pretty horendous, judging by the number of unexpected things you'll get. Work isn't really a torture as a clerk. Its a drag.
Well i am still happy that i have more time than others, who have to stay in.
I just got a hunger for something exciting to take place. Pretty weird feeling. sighz.
Sorry if i don't come online or message you guys often . This life needs alittle uplifting.
I hope those people feeling dry and sad will soon pass through their valley :)
Better learn from David how to slay these Goliathes effectively
I still remembered how much a torture it is to be alone, handling all the deferments in my division. It is pretty horendous, judging by the number of unexpected things you'll get. Work isn't really a torture as a clerk. Its a drag.
Well i am still happy that i have more time than others, who have to stay in.
I just got a hunger for something exciting to take place. Pretty weird feeling. sighz.
Sorry if i don't come online or message you guys often . This life needs alittle uplifting.
I hope those people feeling dry and sad will soon pass through their valley :)
Sunday, April 24, 2005
Sneak Peak of 158
[Pictures update]
- Greatness in Us.
- Benny Hinn's Awesome Message.
[Link update!]
Sneak Peak, Project 158
[Flashback - 24/5]
Yesterday i went for NTU's Bioengineering seminar. Its at Goodwill Park hotel, next to Far East Plaza. The place is beautiful. Reminds me of a fairytale castle. I couldn't believe my eyes when i walk up the semi-steep road to the carpeted entrance of the hotel. I walk on in and found myself in a room surrounded with ushers-in-black, bleaming their teeths in a
fashion. After collecting my stuff, i hop to the nearest seat. The place was kinda packed already. I just sat there quietly, browsing throught the magazines and booklets they gave me. I was pretty captivated by the INSTEP - overseas exchange programme. Its one of my dreams to go overseas to study alittle. Though i lost this dream somehow in my last 2 years, i suddenly felt on fire to go for it.
We sat through the presentation by the NTU bioengineering heads, Biosensors and Philip representatives respectively. The talk was pretty enriching. They forecasted the expansion of bioengineering in the coming years and the growing demand for it. I learnt that Philips is the 2nd leading company in the area of healthcare service , as what the guy said. [ never knew that] I also learnt about the different job scopes in Biosensors, and the different invention they can have in Biosensors. Everything sounds so interesting. Well, i got alittle feeling that if i'm really pursuing this course, i have to get myself into either one of those big companies. I have not got my acknowledgement letter than i am accepted in Bioengineering. But one of the guys told me that there is a 99.9 % chance of entering the course if i am invited for the seminar. That's pretty amazing.
Somehow, i felt alittle disorientated. Everything seems well planeed but i somehow wonder if the course is really for me. I initially wanted to go Pharmacy. Its alittle too late to wonder about this now. I can only buckle up for my next rollercoaster ride.
I met up with my cg later and i have reclaim the title as the Longkang warrior. Yup, we had bowling. It seems there is a strong magnetic field in both sides of the gutter that makes this all possible. Anyway, i was too tired to bother. I just watch the happy dudes and dudees bowl ans pose with their bowling balls.
Tiring day men. Running around to find a new Hp plan is a tedious job.
There goes my weekend.
- Greatness in Us.
- Benny Hinn's Awesome Message.
[Link update!]
Sneak Peak, Project 158
[Flashback - 24/5]
Yesterday i went for NTU's Bioengineering seminar. Its at Goodwill Park hotel, next to Far East Plaza. The place is beautiful. Reminds me of a fairytale castle. I couldn't believe my eyes when i walk up the semi-steep road to the carpeted entrance of the hotel. I walk on in and found myself in a room surrounded with ushers-in-black, bleaming their teeths in a
fashion. After collecting my stuff, i hop to the nearest seat. The place was kinda packed already. I just sat there quietly, browsing throught the magazines and booklets they gave me. I was pretty captivated by the INSTEP - overseas exchange programme. Its one of my dreams to go overseas to study alittle. Though i lost this dream somehow in my last 2 years, i suddenly felt on fire to go for it.We sat through the presentation by the NTU bioengineering heads, Biosensors and Philip representatives respectively. The talk was pretty enriching. They forecasted the expansion of bioengineering in the coming years and the growing demand for it. I learnt that Philips is the 2nd leading company in the area of healthcare service , as what the guy said. [ never knew that] I also learnt about the different job scopes in Biosensors, and the different invention they can have in Biosensors. Everything sounds so interesting. Well, i got alittle feeling that if i'm really pursuing this course, i have to get myself into either one of those big companies. I have not got my acknowledgement letter than i am accepted in Bioengineering. But one of the guys told me that there is a 99.9 % chance of entering the course if i am invited for the seminar. That's pretty amazing.
Somehow, i felt alittle disorientated. Everything seems well planeed but i somehow wonder if the course is really for me. I initially wanted to go Pharmacy. Its alittle too late to wonder about this now. I can only buckle up for my next rollercoaster ride.
I met up with my cg later and i have reclaim the title as the Longkang warrior. Yup, we had bowling. It seems there is a strong magnetic field in both sides of the gutter that makes this all possible. Anyway, i was too tired to bother. I just watch the happy dudes and dudees bowl ans pose with their bowling balls.
Tiring day men. Running around to find a new Hp plan is a tedious job.
There goes my weekend.
Saturday, April 23, 2005
When the Answer comes.
Its amazing when you walk on. Just amazing..
In case you haven't read my previous entry, i was walking a lonely trail ... right deep in the dark valley. Its a very lonely walk. Its a very sad walk. Its just hard to explain and express..
I've learn in a real powerful way the meaning of walking on. Its exhilarating. When you found the key that unlocks your problem. It just blows you up with love and joy.
What about walking on? I'm sure to all christians, you'll know this poise and cogent verse.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil ...
Psalms 23:4
This is the walk i'm talking about. The "Keep-On-Walking principle"
Throughout the week, i am burdened with worries. These thoughts are self-replicating thoughts. Like for example:
You will never live up to "Mom's" expectations. Everyone is moving on. You are just moving too slowly and or not moving at all.
or
Nobody in this damn world will ever understand you. Nobody. They'll just carry on and leave you behind.
or
Nobody ever appreciates you. Look at all you've done. What are this to them? They'll just accept and forget.
or
You are just a chip of an old block. You'll never be the head but always the tail. You will always be the shadow of others.
These are just some. Can you imagine being tortured by this thoughts. Maybe you will. Maybe you never will. That's why i say in my previous entry that i am so drown, i'm suffocating.
It might be just my mind playing tricks on me. Meany me bullying me. I never understand who i am. I am always living to learn myself. That's what i've understand in the recent years.
I ask myself why am i behaving so much like my friends. I take on their personality. Where is my own? I realise that it's because there is never a true mentor in my life. No one to guide me straight from the start. I take on no image.
I feel that kids take on the image of their moms and dads. When i see the kids around me, i know that they have something to take on with them as they grow. Their attitude. Their character. Their love. I simply have none of that.
I cant believe how open i am today. It just all comes back together as i blog, i remember this things of my shady past. I used to be a very minus person. Negative. Problem-centred. I can put up a smile right infront of you but i just can't show the bitterness in me to you.
That's why its hard. That's why i know no one in this world will ever understand the things running in me.
This is my past. But if you don't know, your past can catch up with you some times. Even if you live a new life in Christ. It's just one of the many obstacles you'll face. And for that, you might be too caught up again of the things in the past. You just can't let go.
That's me for ya. That's me this week.
I remembered "mom" said that as you grow from glory to glory, you'll meet new challenges. Janet also told me this before too. That when you have a breakthrough in your christian walk, you'll meet new obstacles. Most of the time, it'll happen almost right away. The devil is not going to let things go so smoothly. I guess it might be applicable here. If you ever hear from a Christian that says - "When you walk with God, you'll never meet another problem ...." He is lying straight at your face. A Christian's walk is never an easy walk. Its a tough one. It sometimes take alot from you. And from there i start worrying.
Am i strong enough to carry on? Is this the path for my life?
And it seems so. Yes it is. Just Keep on walking....
When you feel you are alone in the deep valley, remember to walk on. I've known of people who simply give up during this walk. I must say i did felt like this. Not just once, but many times. You can imagine how much i've been through. But still I walk on. Keep on walking.
For this week, i understand alittle more when i act by faith. I understand alittle of what it is meant by the sacrifice of praise. Even if you don't feel so drown and tired in your life, you can just come before God. And offer him that sacrifice. When you honour him, he'll honour you.
When i know that Pastor Tan is preaching, at the back of my mind ... it's telling me : Oh no its him. I like pastor Kong better. He is more funny and more spiritual as he is our Senior pastor.
What a bias thought aint it?
Then i heard about the sermon .... -> seedtime and harvest <- Automatically the tape im my mind just ran >> men i heard this before. Hope it'll be good.
The thing is ....
I never know his message is the very answer i need. I don't know what those messages mean to you but it means alot to me.
The sermon showed me some keys i've never see or heard before. I was enlighten more and more as he speaks. He talks about creation and about some things we or maybe I have never pondered before.
But the best thing was the verses and message that impacted me. Its like the Rhema word. The word of God that speaks directly to you
1) Gal 6:7 - Do not be deceived, God is not mocked; for whatever a man sows, that he will also reap.
Sounds harsh ? Look at the way pastor put it .... A man's harvest in life depends on the seeds he sow.
Again it just hit me. All along the thoughts that i've sowed is pushing me off the cliff. They are doing more harm than i realise. I have to understand that this thoughts doesn't really belong to me. I am not what this thoughts say to me.
2) Gen 1:26-29.
God created men to be restorers. We are given dominion over creation as what the bible says. Since the fall of man when sin entered humanity, we lost our original purpose as restorers. As we walk with God, he restores us. Above that, we need to be fruitful and multiply the seeds he first put in us.
And then it hit me again.
Those seeds i sow in other people's life is not just a blessing to others. Things i have done for others are not going to be forgotten and thrown away. They are going to bear fruit. I have to keep on believing in them When they bloom and blossom, they are not just going to be blessed. They are going to be a blessing to others. From there, you will find the hundred-fold reward.
3) Be seed conscious, not need conscious.
Before that, pastor said that we have to sow our best seeds. Sow generously. Sow in faith.
Every area of our life needs a seed to be sowed.
These words hit me mightily. As you reflect upon your life, you need to examine the aspects that you have to change. Then sow into it. Its going to take a step of trust. That's faith. Its going to take alot of time and effort. That's generosity. Its going to take commitment and wise planning. That's our best seeds. When the seeds bloom into the differnt flowers in your life. You can finally smile and admire the pretty flowers. Then you'll understand the goodness of seedtime and harvest.
4) There's a time for everything.
Don't be dishearted. Don't worry. God will never lead you to a place where his Grace cannot keep you.
.... But God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will also make the way of escape, that you may be able to bear it
1 cor 10:13
God is our provider. He lets things happen not to pull you down, but to make you ever stronger. A victor's heart is not one that cannot accept challenges. Its one that knows how to overcome it.
And finally a lovely verse at the end that touches my heart and sets me free...
Those who sow in tears shall reap in joy.
Psalms 126:5
I've learn alot. When you keep on walking with God, you'll know it someday.
I pray that we'll will find our right path in life.
In case you haven't read my previous entry, i was walking a lonely trail ... right deep in the dark valley. Its a very lonely walk. Its a very sad walk. Its just hard to explain and express..
I've learn in a real powerful way the meaning of walking on. Its exhilarating. When you found the key that unlocks your problem. It just blows you up with love and joy.
What about walking on? I'm sure to all christians, you'll know this poise and cogent verse.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil ...
Psalms 23:4
This is the walk i'm talking about. The "Keep-On-Walking principle"
Throughout the week, i am burdened with worries. These thoughts are self-replicating thoughts. Like for example:
You will never live up to "Mom's" expectations. Everyone is moving on. You are just moving too slowly and or not moving at all.
or
Nobody in this damn world will ever understand you. Nobody. They'll just carry on and leave you behind.
or
Nobody ever appreciates you. Look at all you've done. What are this to them? They'll just accept and forget.
or
You are just a chip of an old block. You'll never be the head but always the tail. You will always be the shadow of others.
These are just some. Can you imagine being tortured by this thoughts. Maybe you will. Maybe you never will. That's why i say in my previous entry that i am so drown, i'm suffocating.
It might be just my mind playing tricks on me. Meany me bullying me. I never understand who i am. I am always living to learn myself. That's what i've understand in the recent years.
I ask myself why am i behaving so much like my friends. I take on their personality. Where is my own? I realise that it's because there is never a true mentor in my life. No one to guide me straight from the start. I take on no image.
I feel that kids take on the image of their moms and dads. When i see the kids around me, i know that they have something to take on with them as they grow. Their attitude. Their character. Their love. I simply have none of that.
I cant believe how open i am today. It just all comes back together as i blog, i remember this things of my shady past. I used to be a very minus person. Negative. Problem-centred. I can put up a smile right infront of you but i just can't show the bitterness in me to you.
That's why its hard. That's why i know no one in this world will ever understand the things running in me.
This is my past. But if you don't know, your past can catch up with you some times. Even if you live a new life in Christ. It's just one of the many obstacles you'll face. And for that, you might be too caught up again of the things in the past. You just can't let go.
That's me for ya. That's me this week.
I remembered "mom" said that as you grow from glory to glory, you'll meet new challenges. Janet also told me this before too. That when you have a breakthrough in your christian walk, you'll meet new obstacles. Most of the time, it'll happen almost right away. The devil is not going to let things go so smoothly. I guess it might be applicable here. If you ever hear from a Christian that says - "When you walk with God, you'll never meet another problem ...." He is lying straight at your face. A Christian's walk is never an easy walk. Its a tough one. It sometimes take alot from you. And from there i start worrying.
Am i strong enough to carry on? Is this the path for my life?
And it seems so. Yes it is. Just Keep on walking....
When you feel you are alone in the deep valley, remember to walk on. I've known of people who simply give up during this walk. I must say i did felt like this. Not just once, but many times. You can imagine how much i've been through. But still I walk on. Keep on walking.
For this week, i understand alittle more when i act by faith. I understand alittle of what it is meant by the sacrifice of praise. Even if you don't feel so drown and tired in your life, you can just come before God. And offer him that sacrifice. When you honour him, he'll honour you.
When i know that Pastor Tan is preaching, at the back of my mind ... it's telling me : Oh no its him. I like pastor Kong better. He is more funny and more spiritual as he is our Senior pastor.
What a bias thought aint it?
Then i heard about the sermon .... -> seedtime and harvest <- Automatically the tape im my mind just ran >> men i heard this before. Hope it'll be good.
The thing is ....
I never know his message is the very answer i need. I don't know what those messages mean to you but it means alot to me.
The sermon showed me some keys i've never see or heard before. I was enlighten more and more as he speaks. He talks about creation and about some things we or maybe I have never pondered before.
But the best thing was the verses and message that impacted me. Its like the Rhema word. The word of God that speaks directly to you
1) Gal 6:7 - Do not be deceived, God is not mocked; for whatever a man sows, that he will also reap.
Sounds harsh ? Look at the way pastor put it .... A man's harvest in life depends on the seeds he sow.
Again it just hit me. All along the thoughts that i've sowed is pushing me off the cliff. They are doing more harm than i realise. I have to understand that this thoughts doesn't really belong to me. I am not what this thoughts say to me.
2) Gen 1:26-29.
God created men to be restorers. We are given dominion over creation as what the bible says. Since the fall of man when sin entered humanity, we lost our original purpose as restorers. As we walk with God, he restores us. Above that, we need to be fruitful and multiply the seeds he first put in us.
And then it hit me again.
Those seeds i sow in other people's life is not just a blessing to others. Things i have done for others are not going to be forgotten and thrown away. They are going to bear fruit. I have to keep on believing in them When they bloom and blossom, they are not just going to be blessed. They are going to be a blessing to others. From there, you will find the hundred-fold reward.
3) Be seed conscious, not need conscious.
Before that, pastor said that we have to sow our best seeds. Sow generously. Sow in faith.
Every area of our life needs a seed to be sowed.
These words hit me mightily. As you reflect upon your life, you need to examine the aspects that you have to change. Then sow into it. Its going to take a step of trust. That's faith. Its going to take alot of time and effort. That's generosity. Its going to take commitment and wise planning. That's our best seeds. When the seeds bloom into the differnt flowers in your life. You can finally smile and admire the pretty flowers. Then you'll understand the goodness of seedtime and harvest.
4) There's a time for everything.
Don't be dishearted. Don't worry. God will never lead you to a place where his Grace cannot keep you.
.... But God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will also make the way of escape, that you may be able to bear it
1 cor 10:13
God is our provider. He lets things happen not to pull you down, but to make you ever stronger. A victor's heart is not one that cannot accept challenges. Its one that knows how to overcome it.
And finally a lovely verse at the end that touches my heart and sets me free...
Those who sow in tears shall reap in joy.
Psalms 126:5
I've learn alot. When you keep on walking with God, you'll know it someday.
I pray that we'll will find our right path in life.
Friday, April 22, 2005
Evermore I Praise Ya.
What a day.
Since its late i'll just keep it short.
Today's a nice day. Though things don't flow as smoothly as i wish it would be
Thanks to Pat, i am able to leave early and join my gang in Church. :) He is a helpful dude!
I rushed off to buy waffles for me and Emily, only to find that eventually Emily doesn't want her waffles.
Went off to church, only to find a big crowd in the lobby.
Went down, found Chong and the rest. Was alittle tired at that point after a day's stare at the com.
Gave Emily her waffles. Thankfully she accept it. Everything went on with a smile.
We were told to sit accordingly to where we sat last night. Have to shift back to original position.
I have to sit on the floor since there isn't enough seats.
Eventually, i don't know what happen ... but i end up sitting on a chair with the rest of the gang.
The praise and worship was awesome ... But,
Somehow i felt alittle dry. I'm not sure what is the root cause but its pretty disturbing throughout the service.
After the service, my legs hurt and my hand is swelling a little. This is what you get for Arthritis. Nothing new.
I was hit by a series of bad negative thoughts on my way back. I was so drowned at the end. Its suffocating.
I was rather surprise at my mood swings today. Its so unstable. Its also troubling.
After reading blogs and learning from some bloggers online, i seem to feel less lonely. There are people are there in the same boat as me.
I pray that my breakthrough will come soon ...
Since its late i'll just keep it short.
Today's a nice day. Though things don't flow as smoothly as i wish it would be
Thanks to Pat, i am able to leave early and join my gang in Church. :) He is a helpful dude!
I rushed off to buy waffles for me and Emily, only to find that eventually Emily doesn't want her waffles.
Went off to church, only to find a big crowd in the lobby.
Went down, found Chong and the rest. Was alittle tired at that point after a day's stare at the com.
Gave Emily her waffles. Thankfully she accept it. Everything went on with a smile.
We were told to sit accordingly to where we sat last night. Have to shift back to original position.
I have to sit on the floor since there isn't enough seats.
Eventually, i don't know what happen ... but i end up sitting on a chair with the rest of the gang.
The praise and worship was awesome ... But,
Somehow i felt alittle dry. I'm not sure what is the root cause but its pretty disturbing throughout the service.
After the service, my legs hurt and my hand is swelling a little. This is what you get for Arthritis. Nothing new.
I was hit by a series of bad negative thoughts on my way back. I was so drowned at the end. Its suffocating.
I was rather surprise at my mood swings today. Its so unstable. Its also troubling.
After reading blogs and learning from some bloggers online, i seem to feel less lonely. There are people are there in the same boat as me.
I pray that my breakthrough will come soon ...
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
LIVE Recording.
This is really an exciting experience.
Our first and only rehersal was just last night and i was really impacted by the atmosphere. Its very like our very own concert. A dark-dimmed room. Mini spotlights to the front. Shades of purple, pink and blue lights decorated the crowd on the floor. Doesn't look at all like a regular church service. Nope it isn't. Its our night. Our show for God.
Chong, me, fun and pandy met elaine and pok met in the auditorium. In my view, we got the best seats. The seats at the floor is closest to the stage but the view can be obstructed if there are tall guys infronta you. We sat at the terrace block - S3, 2 rows from the front. That was like awesome men. I am really thankful that the girls are able to book such good seats. Everything just starts off well.
Since this is a rehersal, there are no follow-throughs between songs. The pastor joked that for once we'll be like an Anglican church. I didn't know Anglican churches have this practise of standing and sitting, standing and sitting throughout the service. All i know is that my bladder felt kinda tight throught the first part of the rehersal. Toilet was kinda like my 2nd salvation that day. ha..
Well i can't wait for today's recording. The cool thing is i am off today. No more office-blabla to worry. :) I woke up at around 7.30 and i found out my com is still unstable. Its so loaded with spywares that i can do no nothing with my com. So irritatin !#@$@*@~#!!!! Well the war between me and spyware has finally ended. My entry here speaks the proof of my triumphant victory. :)
I woke up today and ran through Look To You DVD. My christian friends said it isn't very nice. But i say i say that u have to fall in love in God's music before you love the songs. After fiddling with my com for awhile, i just blasted the DVD. And i tell you [x3] tat i was so moved. With my morning creaky half-awaken voice , i sang together with my blastiny twin JBL speakers . Bam bam bam .... And there and there, i've my own mini concert in my room. With that slight ignorance that half my house are still asleep, i continued on and every song just pounded me in my head. My heart sings. I began not only to fall in love with the songs, but i began to really feel the lyrics. Feel myself speaking out my thoughts. And that's a real great experience.
[note i wasn't really literally blasting and shaking the house with that wreckage of noice. Its those feelings you get when your heart is so filled with the song and the song is like magnified in your thoughts. Anyway i am also wearing headphones. Either way it feels great]
I also for the first time look through the whole behind the scenes. This is what it says at the start.
" this weekend has got a significant part in writing history. From here on, don't depend on your gifts. You've done the gifting now ... now let it go and you hang on to God, for all that you've got. And now let the measure of the spirit of God and write what needs to be written....
You've gotta let go of the gifts because there are times we relied too much on the gifts and get comfort in it and we've actually got to get back out of the dead water because you know that if he doesn't come through, you gonna drown .... there's what you need to be for this weekend ...."
-Darlene Zschech
A message from Ps Darlene to the Hillsong United Crew. I just like it. I can just replace the word gifts with anything i want. Don't depend on yout worries? sounds weird. But if i tweak it alittle ....... don't linger on your worries. Don't focus on your surroundings. Let it be a time between you and God alone. And then release that hunger. That makes all the time worthwhile.
One Generation shall praise your works to another, and shall declare your mighty acts. I will meditate on the glorious splendor of your Majesty. And on Your wonderous works. Men shall speak the mights of Your awesome acts, and i will delare your greatness. They shall utter the memory of your great goodness and shall sing of your righteousness.
Psalms 145:4-7
I will not sacrifice that which costs me nothing.
Thx for the correction turtle. Good to see ya back.
Our first and only rehersal was just last night and i was really impacted by the atmosphere. Its very like our very own concert. A dark-dimmed room. Mini spotlights to the front. Shades of purple, pink and blue lights decorated the crowd on the floor. Doesn't look at all like a regular church service. Nope it isn't. Its our night. Our show for God.
Chong, me, fun and pandy met elaine and pok met in the auditorium. In my view, we got the best seats. The seats at the floor is closest to the stage but the view can be obstructed if there are tall guys infronta you. We sat at the terrace block - S3, 2 rows from the front. That was like awesome men. I am really thankful that the girls are able to book such good seats. Everything just starts off well.
Since this is a rehersal, there are no follow-throughs between songs. The pastor joked that for once we'll be like an Anglican church. I didn't know Anglican churches have this practise of standing and sitting, standing and sitting throughout the service. All i know is that my bladder felt kinda tight throught the first part of the rehersal. Toilet was kinda like my 2nd salvation that day. ha..
Well i can't wait for today's recording. The cool thing is i am off today. No more office-blabla to worry. :) I woke up at around 7.30 and i found out my com is still unstable. Its so loaded with spywares that i can do no nothing with my com. So irritatin !#@$@*@~#!!!! Well the war between me and spyware has finally ended. My entry here speaks the proof of my triumphant victory. :)
I woke up today and ran through Look To You DVD. My christian friends said it isn't very nice. But i say i say that u have to fall in love in God's music before you love the songs. After fiddling with my com for awhile, i just blasted the DVD. And i tell you [x3] tat i was so moved. With my morning creaky half-awaken voice , i sang together with my blastiny twin JBL speakers . Bam bam bam .... And there and there, i've my own mini concert in my room. With that slight ignorance that half my house are still asleep, i continued on and every song just pounded me in my head. My heart sings. I began not only to fall in love with the songs, but i began to really feel the lyrics. Feel myself speaking out my thoughts. And that's a real great experience.
[note i wasn't really literally blasting and shaking the house with that wreckage of noice. Its those feelings you get when your heart is so filled with the song and the song is like magnified in your thoughts. Anyway i am also wearing headphones. Either way it feels great]
I also for the first time look through the whole behind the scenes. This is what it says at the start.
" this weekend has got a significant part in writing history. From here on, don't depend on your gifts. You've done the gifting now ... now let it go and you hang on to God, for all that you've got. And now let the measure of the spirit of God and write what needs to be written....
You've gotta let go of the gifts because there are times we relied too much on the gifts and get comfort in it and we've actually got to get back out of the dead water because you know that if he doesn't come through, you gonna drown .... there's what you need to be for this weekend ...."
-Darlene Zschech
A message from Ps Darlene to the Hillsong United Crew. I just like it. I can just replace the word gifts with anything i want. Don't depend on yout worries? sounds weird. But if i tweak it alittle ....... don't linger on your worries. Don't focus on your surroundings. Let it be a time between you and God alone. And then release that hunger. That makes all the time worthwhile.
One Generation shall praise your works to another, and shall declare your mighty acts. I will meditate on the glorious splendor of your Majesty. And on Your wonderous works. Men shall speak the mights of Your awesome acts, and i will delare your greatness. They shall utter the memory of your great goodness and shall sing of your righteousness.
Psalms 145:4-7
I will not sacrifice that which costs me nothing.
Thx for the correction turtle. Good to see ya back.
Monday, April 18, 2005
Time, the essence of life.
Time is something unreplaceable.
We all know that.
I'm just beginning to feel alittle tight. I feel like that's always so much things to do. The sickening part is I do not like to leave unresovled tangling ... untouched. There are certain areas which i have to learn to start controlling. Time management should be a child's play. It's sad to say i'm always a bad manager of it. This is why precious consideration is taken in the past few days in observing the time i took to do things. Its so funny how slow i can do certain things and how fast i can finish up some others.
The greatest commodity is what you trade time for.
- Robb Thompson
Now that's something to consider...
That's just some little thoughts of today.
And ya, i finally got an mp3 player. Old model from Creative. ^^
We all know that.
I'm just beginning to feel alittle tight. I feel like that's always so much things to do. The sickening part is I do not like to leave unresovled tangling ... untouched. There are certain areas which i have to learn to start controlling. Time management should be a child's play. It's sad to say i'm always a bad manager of it. This is why precious consideration is taken in the past few days in observing the time i took to do things. Its so funny how slow i can do certain things and how fast i can finish up some others.
The greatest commodity is what you trade time for.
- Robb Thompson
Now that's something to consider...
That's just some little thoughts of today.
And ya, i finally got an mp3 player. Old model from Creative. ^^
Sunday, April 17, 2005
Thursday, April 14, 2005
The Hunt.
The hunt was so hastily organise. Thankfully Pandy informed and reminded my poor leaking memory of the important upcoming date. We have to hunt for gifts and after much discussion through sms-es, we've found that meeting at 7pm at Orchard will be good.
How wrong was I. I reach home at 1830. Due to my dumb dumb dilly- dalliesm, i left the house at 6.50. It was like have to zoom to Orchard within 10 mins la. What an impossible mission. Slightly disappointed at myself for not managing my time well, i rushed in the best way i could [thru MRT, no money for 240 ]. Guess what time i Got there? 1930!! Its like 1/2 an hr's late. Plus Pandy decided to be early that day and she waited for 45 mins. Men that was sure a killer for her. Its quite unforuntate that its a girl waiting for a guy now. Men i am really guilty and embarass. So much so for me being a puntual boy that i am so determine to set. Really sad.
Pandy was kinda downcasted. She is one person that doesn't show anger. She show it in a very cute way, by whinning and groaning and making funny sounds. ha it really lifted my spirit even though that shouldn't be the case. I should be guilty guilty guilty all over me. Guilty in my face. Gulty in my hands. Guilty everywhere. I am spared from the punishment by her cute whinning. Ha. That's Pandy for you! :)
We stroll to the Charles & Keith @ Wisma Atria to look for the shoes my mom is talking about. Pandy seemed to have found the right design and type. There are 3 colors there - Green, white and black. We pondered for awhile, with her making "grrr" and "yargh!!" noises everywhere we go. It must have occur to the shoppers that i am bring an gorilla around. haa i was deeply amused. :P
As we walk on, i lear that Pandy haven't ate while i am carrying a full stomach. She just had some excessive running activity that makes her kinda tired. And then she has waited for the a dumb slowpoke for 45 minutes. Men that's taking alot from a panda. A female panda. That's why she is sometimes a person i look up to. Other such circumstances, i would have fallen unto the ground and collapse with a (X_X ) look. But her fighting spirit and joy over circumstances is just amazing. Not something to be taken advantage of. But something to learn and change. Very nice leh! I am so proud to have such a good cell group member.
We went circling around basement 1 of Takashimaya.
As you can see, the yellow dot is the starting point of our hunt. As we walk through from the underpass link from Orchard MRT, we went to afew shops, like Mango, U.R.S. , Zara [very ex but nice lady stuffs here] and evetually end up back at the blue point. The red lines are the tracks we took. So as you can see the hunt at Taka is kinda short. Throughout the whole journey, i can only remember Pandy saying she wants to strangle me... punch me .... ..... ... [dotz]
Know of any Panda more violent than the one with me ? ha
We then went to Heeren. We found alot of stuffs there. But we can't really decide what to get. There is many necklaces, belts and shoes all around. That's why i feel very blessed to be a guy. Sometimes being spoilt for choice can be more of a headache than a blessing. We bounce from one shop to another and eventualy found a shop call Flowers in the Attic. As Pandy stroll to one side of the shop, i found an interesting nice looking scarf-like band. It comes in 3 colours - blue, beach and grey. Blue seems pretty unfitting for Mom's attire. Grey looks dull. So we settle for beach, which seems to match alot of her attire. The band can be worn around the waist as a belt and the cool thing is, we can attach accessories to it. So its pretty customisable and all we have to do is pick a nice accessory to go with it. I shall not say much on what we pick but i think that set of band and accessory makes it a very interesting and nice looking belt.
A real relief when we finally got something for Mom.
On top of that, we went back to Charles & Keith to buy her the pair of shoes. The total sum is kinda scary. haa i hope i do get back the money. That sum of money can last me for about a month. -___-.
We walk home, alittle tired but happy that we achieve our goals in the Hunt. Pandy shared with me about the character of a noisy person. That being noisy on the outside might not mean that she is a open person. In other words, a person can be only showing a side of him/her. There can be a lonely, sad or an unkown side that is not presented. As she said that, it just reminds me of how is it like in the past. There are just no one that will truly bother to understand how you really feel or think. You are all on your own.
What a terrible thought and feeling. I am glad that's all in the past. The past is never meant to be the present. Its meant to teach and be used to learn more of the future. That's something all of us has to grapple with and make light of.
The night ain't young anymore. I gotta hit the bed. :D too lazy to type any more.
Its sure an interesting night.
How wrong was I. I reach home at 1830. Due to my dumb dumb dilly- dalliesm, i left the house at 6.50. It was like have to zoom to Orchard within 10 mins la. What an impossible mission. Slightly disappointed at myself for not managing my time well, i rushed in the best way i could [thru MRT, no money for 240 ]. Guess what time i Got there? 1930!! Its like 1/2 an hr's late. Plus Pandy decided to be early that day and she waited for 45 mins. Men that was sure a killer for her. Its quite unforuntate that its a girl waiting for a guy now. Men i am really guilty and embarass. So much so for me being a puntual boy that i am so determine to set. Really sad.
Pandy was kinda downcasted. She is one person that doesn't show anger. She show it in a very cute way, by whinning and groaning and making funny sounds. ha it really lifted my spirit even though that shouldn't be the case. I should be guilty guilty guilty all over me. Guilty in my face. Gulty in my hands. Guilty everywhere. I am spared from the punishment by her cute whinning. Ha. That's Pandy for you! :)
We stroll to the Charles & Keith @ Wisma Atria to look for the shoes my mom is talking about. Pandy seemed to have found the right design and type. There are 3 colors there - Green, white and black. We pondered for awhile, with her making "grrr" and "yargh!!" noises everywhere we go. It must have occur to the shoppers that i am bring an gorilla around. haa i was deeply amused. :P
As we walk on, i lear that Pandy haven't ate while i am carrying a full stomach. She just had some excessive running activity that makes her kinda tired. And then she has waited for the a dumb slowpoke for 45 minutes. Men that's taking alot from a panda. A female panda. That's why she is sometimes a person i look up to. Other such circumstances, i would have fallen unto the ground and collapse with a (X_X ) look. But her fighting spirit and joy over circumstances is just amazing. Not something to be taken advantage of. But something to learn and change. Very nice leh! I am so proud to have such a good cell group member.
We went circling around basement 1 of Takashimaya.
As you can see, the yellow dot is the starting point of our hunt. As we walk through from the underpass link from Orchard MRT, we went to afew shops, like Mango, U.R.S. , Zara [very ex but nice lady stuffs here] and evetually end up back at the blue point. The red lines are the tracks we took. So as you can see the hunt at Taka is kinda short. Throughout the whole journey, i can only remember Pandy saying she wants to strangle me... punch me .... ..... ... [dotz]
Know of any Panda more violent than the one with me ? ha
We then went to Heeren. We found alot of stuffs there. But we can't really decide what to get. There is many necklaces, belts and shoes all around. That's why i feel very blessed to be a guy. Sometimes being spoilt for choice can be more of a headache than a blessing. We bounce from one shop to another and eventualy found a shop call Flowers in the Attic. As Pandy stroll to one side of the shop, i found an interesting nice looking scarf-like band. It comes in 3 colours - blue, beach and grey. Blue seems pretty unfitting for Mom's attire. Grey looks dull. So we settle for beach, which seems to match alot of her attire. The band can be worn around the waist as a belt and the cool thing is, we can attach accessories to it. So its pretty customisable and all we have to do is pick a nice accessory to go with it. I shall not say much on what we pick but i think that set of band and accessory makes it a very interesting and nice looking belt.
A real relief when we finally got something for Mom.
On top of that, we went back to Charles & Keith to buy her the pair of shoes. The total sum is kinda scary. haa i hope i do get back the money. That sum of money can last me for about a month. -___-.
We walk home, alittle tired but happy that we achieve our goals in the Hunt. Pandy shared with me about the character of a noisy person. That being noisy on the outside might not mean that she is a open person. In other words, a person can be only showing a side of him/her. There can be a lonely, sad or an unkown side that is not presented. As she said that, it just reminds me of how is it like in the past. There are just no one that will truly bother to understand how you really feel or think. You are all on your own.
What a terrible thought and feeling. I am glad that's all in the past. The past is never meant to be the present. Its meant to teach and be used to learn more of the future. That's something all of us has to grapple with and make light of.
The night ain't young anymore. I gotta hit the bed. :D too lazy to type any more.
Its sure an interesting night.
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
Wanted in Zouk ?
Found this in Alvin's site. Reminds me of the long conversation we had about pubs and clubbing
Till now i've never set foot before in a club. As i chatted with Gamer Girl, she reminded me about the jits and ti's of clubbing that i've heard about. When she told me she spent 300 bucks to be a member and get a bottle or two of drinks for the whole year .. i was like "O_O!!!"
Rich lady!
I need that kinda money to get my Mp3 player. I've been saving for this utility which i have been dreaming to get since last year. Dreamt that Creative and Apple will fight till their pants drop. And we the consumer will be the ultimate winners! ^^.. Nice fantasy rite?
yea.
Today's our NSAD games day and the cool thing is we got 1/2 day off from work. At least we'll get a fresh new environment for awhile instead of staring into endless piles of work. The not so cool thing is the work is still there. Its not like the Angels will descend from heaven and tells the deferment department : " Let there be no more work. " and *poof* there is no more work. Things like this are not worth fantasizing.
Prem, me and Pat took a cab to the Ayer Rajar camp. I soon learn that the camp is loaded with engineers, tanks and many army vehicles. Vavavoom. We all change to our sexy little PT attire. Reminds me about Sexy no Butsu [Naruto's famous skill]. As we proceed to a mysterious room, we saw kennedy, peter and Elijah. They were chatting with one another and i jsut sat there and stone like a proffesional Stoner. :)
The video presentation was pretty good. Very nicely animated! I can't remember what other things were presented because i was half dozing off in the air-conditioned room. I know Peter got Extra Mile award. [applause -__-] and i must say he is quite talented. Jon told me he designs the letter template for us to key in and print letters with ease. At least now i know who to bug when i need help ^^. And ya i also learn about the NSAD motto - *erm ok will fill in this later* ha
And finally the Games..
There are 4 teams : Crystal, Jade, Pearl and Diamond. This names are come out from the ladies in the organizing committee i presume. Looks like they have been dreaming alot too :P [ha!]. Guess what we played ?
Dog and bone remaked. Its called Chicken and egg. I know Dogs chase bones. I never knew Chickens chase eggs.
Tug of War. The true powers of Sai Kang Warriors are showcased here. We've got Scotty too Hotty so there is no need to fear. [rite!]
Building block. I supposed this is the balloon blowing / running with balloon stuck in our back game. Our team's supreme technique is to stick our butt out to stop the balloon from dropping. Unbeatible technique i tell you.
The last game i forgot the name. So i shall anyhow name it. Its call kick the soccer ball. Ha simple name to explain the game. Bring the ball through a series of obstacles and return back with the ball intact. Its a telematch - type of game.
We performed pretty average and got forfeited in the last game because we din know its a 8-man team game. Not a 5 man-team game. But even with that, we arrive at 2nd place!!! -___-
The day ended with 2 dudes being sent off to the sick bay. I guess they might have cheer too much.
That's all for the day :)
Monday, April 11, 2005
The price uploading a pic.
My mentor. Jon. Don't You feel like kissing him?
Teaching RX how to use photobucket to upload this pic has caused me a penalty of extra duty.
I won't want to comment much but i am just not happy when the madam likes to catch me but always close her eyes when others are doing it. I know that doesn't excuse me for my act. Oh well, just more sai kang work for me . that's all
Prem said the people downstairs are unhappy with me because i did not reply them when they greet me. I was like ... when did that happen ? He said they speak bad things about me and i just feel kinda sad and irritated. If there is a probelm rectify it. I don't see a need to talk and slander behind people's back. I intended to talk about it to them since i don't want my stay here in NSSC to be such a troubling unhappy one ... But sometimes, i really feel like i am a zombie at work there. I just simply lose all interest when i step into the office.
Whatever the case, there are nice people there of course and my seniors take good care of me. I am just thankful that things there aren't so bad. Just hope my 701 days to ORD will come soon -___-
Sunday, April 10, 2005
Apprentice.
The show tightens to the 12th /15th episodes of the employee selection variety show. There are now 6 people left. 2 are just fired and got their you-know-what kicked.
This basically makes me wonder who can be the next apprentice. Surely the contestants are getting tired over the long repeated business plans and dealing with arch-colleagues or watching their opponent's every movement. That's business as we all know. The best way to rise up can only be throught hard and smart work. To endure the weariness and keep up with the pace of the game, not losing focus on task, not losing focus on critical judements makes this game pretty demanding. That's the impression that i am getting.
I also can't help wondering if this is another WWE presentation with all the violence remove, all the wittiness dumped in, mixed with the Posh outlook of Trump's luxurious properties and cool quotes. In short, a staged reality programme. Some of us might have read about the fakiness of reality programmes. Choosing to believe that totally will just put me off from a great deal of lessons that i've picked up. Especially from this show. Food for thought again :)
Its sad that Maria and Wess got kicked but it is like so obvious their you-kno-what is going to be kicked pretty hard. Being a first time Apprentice-watcher, i was alittle surprise that both are kick at the same time. Maria got kicked when she shun the idea of teamwork and choose to overide the Project Manager's command forcefully. She seems alittle emotional and unstable. Probably from the weariness. Who knows? Very obviously, she is in the brink of breaking down many times in the show. Wess [very surprisingly to me] being the project manager of this task, let her have her way. Why am i surprised. Cos if you watch the first episode, you will hear him say a pretty offensive comment. He said something like " up with the boys and down with the girls." something like that. Maybe worst. This comment drove a scornful look from one of the ladies in the other team. Giving an image that guys are stronger and better than girls [ i am not agreeing with that], he actually allowed her to shut him off straight in his face and back off. It just give me the impression that he talks too much. He could have save the team if he chose earlier to manage his team well and tame the raging female bull charging at him.
Andy being young and seemingly lack of experience, has make a slight plus impression on Mr Trump. He feels that the team talk to much and listens too little. And that is exactly how i feel. He is the one maintaing the lowest profile [ probably to save the mental energy for the last battle to be the best] but has manged to use this .. to help him see the error of the team. Of course this move makes Mr Trump feel more uncomfortable because he has not see enough of him in action. He needs to know he has competent employees and that can only be done when he sees the work or attitude of his workers. So we shall see how this goes for Team Mosiac. Apex won and Jen gets to steal all the glory. Navana [ i know i know wrong spelling] feels sad and angry because she's the one behind the good catalogue idea. Ross being the task manager of the winning team, has earn himself an excemption from being fired if he is in the board room the next time.
So much for drama. I also realise that to be in anywhere in this world, a very strong quality as a employee or worker is to have a strong enduring heart. It need not be a metal heart. Strong and lasting are probably the "qualities" of metal. But as a person, one needs more of a big heart that is flexible, strong and truthful. A hard metal might be too inflexivle to bent. Get what i mean?
This is why i feel that ............. as people grow and make life choices, they will inevitably receive the fruits of their decision. One of them is the kind of heart they'll get. When we are place in the battlefield one day [ figuratively speaking ] , I will ask myself : Are you going to break down, run or fight on smartly? When that day comes, is your mind, body and soul prepared to make the breakthrough. Or is it just going to breakdown? If you meet a setback, are you strong and willing enough to make it a comeback?
That's all for my little rambling. :)
Cheers
This basically makes me wonder who can be the next apprentice. Surely the contestants are getting tired over the long repeated business plans and dealing with arch-colleagues or watching their opponent's every movement. That's business as we all know. The best way to rise up can only be throught hard and smart work. To endure the weariness and keep up with the pace of the game, not losing focus on task, not losing focus on critical judements makes this game pretty demanding. That's the impression that i am getting.
I also can't help wondering if this is another WWE presentation with all the violence remove, all the wittiness dumped in, mixed with the Posh outlook of Trump's luxurious properties and cool quotes. In short, a staged reality programme. Some of us might have read about the fakiness of reality programmes. Choosing to believe that totally will just put me off from a great deal of lessons that i've picked up. Especially from this show. Food for thought again :)
Its sad that Maria and Wess got kicked but it is like so obvious their you-kno-what is going to be kicked pretty hard. Being a first time Apprentice-watcher, i was alittle surprise that both are kick at the same time. Maria got kicked when she shun the idea of teamwork and choose to overide the Project Manager's command forcefully. She seems alittle emotional and unstable. Probably from the weariness. Who knows? Very obviously, she is in the brink of breaking down many times in the show. Wess [very surprisingly to me] being the project manager of this task, let her have her way. Why am i surprised. Cos if you watch the first episode, you will hear him say a pretty offensive comment. He said something like " up with the boys and down with the girls." something like that. Maybe worst. This comment drove a scornful look from one of the ladies in the other team. Giving an image that guys are stronger and better than girls [ i am not agreeing with that], he actually allowed her to shut him off straight in his face and back off. It just give me the impression that he talks too much. He could have save the team if he chose earlier to manage his team well and tame the raging female bull charging at him.
Andy being young and seemingly lack of experience, has make a slight plus impression on Mr Trump. He feels that the team talk to much and listens too little. And that is exactly how i feel. He is the one maintaing the lowest profile [ probably to save the mental energy for the last battle to be the best] but has manged to use this .. to help him see the error of the team. Of course this move makes Mr Trump feel more uncomfortable because he has not see enough of him in action. He needs to know he has competent employees and that can only be done when he sees the work or attitude of his workers. So we shall see how this goes for Team Mosiac. Apex won and Jen gets to steal all the glory. Navana [ i know i know wrong spelling] feels sad and angry because she's the one behind the good catalogue idea. Ross being the task manager of the winning team, has earn himself an excemption from being fired if he is in the board room the next time.
So much for drama. I also realise that to be in anywhere in this world, a very strong quality as a employee or worker is to have a strong enduring heart. It need not be a metal heart. Strong and lasting are probably the "qualities" of metal. But as a person, one needs more of a big heart that is flexible, strong and truthful. A hard metal might be too inflexivle to bent. Get what i mean?
This is why i feel that ............. as people grow and make life choices, they will inevitably receive the fruits of their decision. One of them is the kind of heart they'll get. When we are place in the battlefield one day [ figuratively speaking ] , I will ask myself : Are you going to break down, run or fight on smartly? When that day comes, is your mind, body and soul prepared to make the breakthrough. Or is it just going to breakdown? If you meet a setback, are you strong and willing enough to make it a comeback?
That's all for my little rambling. :)
Cheers
The Greatness in us.
Well this topic should be about today. I Just wanna touch alittle about what happen yesterday evening.
I was chatting with Mom on MSN.
I was quite amazed for one because i thought the same thing is going to happen again. After looking back at our conversation, i realise that we both learn some things. I've been hit by a revelation which has no direct relation to the heaty conversation we had. It was like ... "Wow!"
Really. I remembered very clearly about Pastor Ulf saying about seeing in God's perspective. You'll become so amazed. Your mouth will just naturally pop open and give a big - WOW!?
With that, i was suddenly so moved and i just shared immediately the revelation i had. God magnifies thoughts. I won't go into details but i can say there is something to learn every day when you walk with God and constantly reflect upon your life. Your life will slowly but surely change. Something that makes me realise that i have become so different from what i used to be, used to think. And so believe that following the crowd will make me accepted by the world one day. Our conversation ended well and i felt so touched in my heart. The probable consequence of releasing the imprisoned feelings and thoughts.
Today, Xiu wen [ Da big panda] got baptised. I was refresh with the memory of baptism. What's the significance of it? I remembered Mom told me that it is basically a declaration to the world of our new life as a Christian. That there is a true heart to serve God even after you have been in church for awhile as a baby Christian. To leave our sinful past behind and move on. I call it the ceromonial Salvation. It looks pretty like a ceremony to me. The feeling of baptism as i've heard from Mom and Panda is that it brings an unexplained joy in you. You start smiling for no reason. Maybe it is Holy smiling.
Gee i've got to test it out.
Lets see Panda in action ..
w143 - Minified us.
An Hawaiian Pastor visited us today. And certainly, everything started with a big ALoha.
Can you hear him sasy Aloha!?
The pastor told us something which reminds me of Pastor Kong's sermon about Big People. The message is about Greatness. It rings very well and confirms many thoughts in my mind.
Here are some Food for thoughts.
1) Greatness is made by the opportunities we take and the actions we make.
2) The Good is often the enemy of the Great
3) Its just too easy to settle down for a good life. That's why we remain in our comfort zone
4) Greatness is an attitude in life. When we are willing to pay the price of what it takes to be great and whatever Greatness would bring.
5) Greatness is not an accident. Its not a roll of dice or flash of cards. Its a simple undeterred choice.
This are all characteristics or random points which anyone can argue about. I would say it speaks well in a person's life. To an absolute pessimist, Greatness is nothing more than an illusion or self-deluded concept. They will think : " Being Great is not for me, ... for how many great people are actually out there? Look at the world today! " they will say. What are the good old leaders doing? Are their decisions perfect? What good has ever happen to Great people in great places? What's the point of Greatness to a world that struggles to deal with our the depths of seemingly unresolved unsolvable problems?
I would say something as an general opinion of my own. Greatness is indeed an attitude. Its a choice. An approach. It is something that others cannot truly justify. Its something no ruler can measure. Because greatness is inherent. That is an unlimited potential in those who choose to release it. With this intrinsic property, it probably means that no one else can much comment about it. Don't mistake me. It can still be commended. Just like Pope John Paul 2. He died receiving thankfulness, admiration and sadness too, from the people. He has done so much and earns a neat title of being classified - Great. But surely you have heard sad cases of fighters who have brave and risk in war but died with a small note that doesn't receive much recognition of being - Great. Do you see something here? The title - Great, can be so beautifully described. Its like a bottle filled with the tastiest drink on Earth. It has amazingly beautiful decos and labels that delivers its attractiveness. The words on the labels emphasises the goodnes of the product. These words starts to stir up beautiful scenes in our mind. It continues to draw crowds. Who pays attention to the black liquid inside the bottle?
What's the similarity between both of them? They are both Great. Even if one fails to receive as much recognition as other. The wonderful thing about Greatness is that you do not have to be recognised to be someone great. If we always think about how others would think and feel in order to make us great, then we are just plainly living under expectations. Expectations of the world. And very surely, it changes now and then. This answers one very simple argument about Greatness. Greatness is inherent. Everyone can be great when the choice is made.
So why be great?
We can always be good. We can always enjoy our present stay. We can laugh and kick buckets when the time arrives. There will no need to put ourselves with so much trouble and end up in a sorry state. But would that be a happy life? Above the part about Greatness being a choice, its an attitude! I would call it the characteristic approach. Its a mentality of a overcomer. If you tell me that you have a peaceful life which reigns 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, 30 days a month and all throughout your life, you got to be kidding me. Everyone has obstacles to overcome and hurdlers to clear. One of the attribute of an overcome is the Big People mentality. The Greatness mentality that Pope carries around with him to carry out his duty in stamping out Communism and standing up for the oppressed. You can surely see that Great people possess strong values, principles and a fighting spirit that distinctively makes them great. This qualities are all inherited once a person makes an underterred decision to take on the path of greatness. Greatness doesn't make one fautless. It makes him strong. It makes him smart. It makes him a person of calibre that everyone can rely on. And that is greatness.
Greater is he who is in me than in this world. Step up or shape out.
I was chatting with Mom on MSN.
I was quite amazed for one because i thought the same thing is going to happen again. After looking back at our conversation, i realise that we both learn some things. I've been hit by a revelation which has no direct relation to the heaty conversation we had. It was like ... "Wow!"
Really. I remembered very clearly about Pastor Ulf saying about seeing in God's perspective. You'll become so amazed. Your mouth will just naturally pop open and give a big - WOW!?
With that, i was suddenly so moved and i just shared immediately the revelation i had. God magnifies thoughts. I won't go into details but i can say there is something to learn every day when you walk with God and constantly reflect upon your life. Your life will slowly but surely change. Something that makes me realise that i have become so different from what i used to be, used to think. And so believe that following the crowd will make me accepted by the world one day. Our conversation ended well and i felt so touched in my heart. The probable consequence of releasing the imprisoned feelings and thoughts.
Today, Xiu wen [ Da big panda] got baptised. I was refresh with the memory of baptism. What's the significance of it? I remembered Mom told me that it is basically a declaration to the world of our new life as a Christian. That there is a true heart to serve God even after you have been in church for awhile as a baby Christian. To leave our sinful past behind and move on. I call it the ceromonial Salvation. It looks pretty like a ceremony to me. The feeling of baptism as i've heard from Mom and Panda is that it brings an unexplained joy in you. You start smiling for no reason. Maybe it is Holy smiling.
Gee i've got to test it out.
Lets see Panda in action ..
w143 - Minified us.
An Hawaiian Pastor visited us today. And certainly, everything started with a big ALoha.
Can you hear him sasy Aloha!?
The pastor told us something which reminds me of Pastor Kong's sermon about Big People. The message is about Greatness. It rings very well and confirms many thoughts in my mind.
Here are some Food for thoughts.
1) Greatness is made by the opportunities we take and the actions we make.
2) The Good is often the enemy of the Great
3) Its just too easy to settle down for a good life. That's why we remain in our comfort zone
4) Greatness is an attitude in life. When we are willing to pay the price of what it takes to be great and whatever Greatness would bring.
5) Greatness is not an accident. Its not a roll of dice or flash of cards. Its a simple undeterred choice.
This are all characteristics or random points which anyone can argue about. I would say it speaks well in a person's life. To an absolute pessimist, Greatness is nothing more than an illusion or self-deluded concept. They will think : " Being Great is not for me, ... for how many great people are actually out there? Look at the world today! " they will say. What are the good old leaders doing? Are their decisions perfect? What good has ever happen to Great people in great places? What's the point of Greatness to a world that struggles to deal with our the depths of seemingly unresolved unsolvable problems?
I would say something as an general opinion of my own. Greatness is indeed an attitude. Its a choice. An approach. It is something that others cannot truly justify. Its something no ruler can measure. Because greatness is inherent. That is an unlimited potential in those who choose to release it. With this intrinsic property, it probably means that no one else can much comment about it. Don't mistake me. It can still be commended. Just like Pope John Paul 2. He died receiving thankfulness, admiration and sadness too, from the people. He has done so much and earns a neat title of being classified - Great. But surely you have heard sad cases of fighters who have brave and risk in war but died with a small note that doesn't receive much recognition of being - Great. Do you see something here? The title - Great, can be so beautifully described. Its like a bottle filled with the tastiest drink on Earth. It has amazingly beautiful decos and labels that delivers its attractiveness. The words on the labels emphasises the goodnes of the product. These words starts to stir up beautiful scenes in our mind. It continues to draw crowds. Who pays attention to the black liquid inside the bottle?
What's the similarity between both of them? They are both Great. Even if one fails to receive as much recognition as other. The wonderful thing about Greatness is that you do not have to be recognised to be someone great. If we always think about how others would think and feel in order to make us great, then we are just plainly living under expectations. Expectations of the world. And very surely, it changes now and then. This answers one very simple argument about Greatness. Greatness is inherent. Everyone can be great when the choice is made.
So why be great?
We can always be good. We can always enjoy our present stay. We can laugh and kick buckets when the time arrives. There will no need to put ourselves with so much trouble and end up in a sorry state. But would that be a happy life? Above the part about Greatness being a choice, its an attitude! I would call it the characteristic approach. Its a mentality of a overcomer. If you tell me that you have a peaceful life which reigns 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, 30 days a month and all throughout your life, you got to be kidding me. Everyone has obstacles to overcome and hurdlers to clear. One of the attribute of an overcome is the Big People mentality. The Greatness mentality that Pope carries around with him to carry out his duty in stamping out Communism and standing up for the oppressed. You can surely see that Great people possess strong values, principles and a fighting spirit that distinctively makes them great. This qualities are all inherited once a person makes an underterred decision to take on the path of greatness. Greatness doesn't make one fautless. It makes him strong. It makes him smart. It makes him a person of calibre that everyone can rely on. And that is greatness.
Greater is he who is in me than in this world. Step up or shape out.
Thursday, April 07, 2005
Job seeking Photos
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Funny blog. Getting tired of normal routine passport size photo ?
Get something like this .. :)
Next generation terrorist looking for jobs.. :P
Ha
Funny blog. Getting tired of normal routine passport size photo ?
Get something like this .. :)
Next generation terrorist looking for jobs.. :P
Ha
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
Friend at NUH
Is it common to end yourself up in a hospital? How many of us actually stayed in a hospital before? Hmm i wonder.
I got a news earlier today about 1 of my friend. First he said he cannot enlist this friday. I was like "wah so late le u still haven enlist?" Then he followed it byy saying that he is now in NUH. His stomach burst.
What a news.
I asked him which ward is he in and told him i'll be visiting him after work. I was thinking how big the issue can this be. If there is a hole in the stomach, it means the digestive jucies in the stomach will leak to the other organs nearby ... so his life can be in danger. But somehow his sms lack that seriousness. He told me he can't believe he is so unlucky. So i decided not to prod him with more questions, knowing that he loves to worry and asking more makes him worry more.
I met up with Miss Zhen after work at Buona Vista MRT. We took a shuttle bus to NUH and began searching for the ward and a shop that we can buy goodies for my friend. We bought 2 packests of biscuit and 1 big bottle of green tea. Then we went to meet my friend.
He was all smiles when he met us. He doesn't really look sick. Though maybe not as jumpy as his usual self, he seems pretty normal to us. We greeted his father and was then directed to sit next to him by his dad. As his Dad left us to our own circle of conversation, Hong [that hospitalised friend] started pouring out his woes and fill us with details.
Last Sunday, he felt a very painful stomachache around midnight. It was very painful and he had to woke up in the middle of tghe night, struggling with the pain. He began to ask his father to drive him to NUH while his father hastily tried to treat him with medications of his own. In the end, he was drove to NUH. The Doctor told him that there was an unsual high level of air outside his stomach. He then said he looks quite okay outside but what's inside him is horrible. So he began worrying [as usual].
He was operated on his stomach. What actually happened was that his stomach ulcer split and there was a small hole in his stomach. Thank God he was send early to the hospital or the unthinkable could occur. He told me when he was in the operating room, he sniff some chemicals [chloroform like substances that makes people unconscious]. The next thing he know he was back at the ward with a tube in his nose. Apparently the tube was inserted through his nose, through his throat gut and then to the stomach. He told me he felt nauseous with the tube in his throat and it is very painful when they suddenly pull the tube out. Urgh.
The doctors said that the hole was probably attributed to stress, overconsumption of alcohol, irregular meals, etc. The definite cause of this problem is uncertain. It seldom happens to kids and teenagers. So it is really unfortunate that my healthy friend ended up like this. We chatted alot and learn that he can only eat jelly and drink soup for now. He is much okay now compared to yesterday from what we heard. We told him to take care of himself and not to worry too much. Just glad that his stomach din actually burst. -____-
Take care of your health and eat regularly and promptly. Staying in hospitals ain't fun. Trust me. :)
I got a news earlier today about 1 of my friend. First he said he cannot enlist this friday. I was like "wah so late le u still haven enlist?" Then he followed it byy saying that he is now in NUH. His stomach burst.
What a news.
I asked him which ward is he in and told him i'll be visiting him after work. I was thinking how big the issue can this be. If there is a hole in the stomach, it means the digestive jucies in the stomach will leak to the other organs nearby ... so his life can be in danger. But somehow his sms lack that seriousness. He told me he can't believe he is so unlucky. So i decided not to prod him with more questions, knowing that he loves to worry and asking more makes him worry more.
I met up with Miss Zhen after work at Buona Vista MRT. We took a shuttle bus to NUH and began searching for the ward and a shop that we can buy goodies for my friend. We bought 2 packests of biscuit and 1 big bottle of green tea. Then we went to meet my friend.
He was all smiles when he met us. He doesn't really look sick. Though maybe not as jumpy as his usual self, he seems pretty normal to us. We greeted his father and was then directed to sit next to him by his dad. As his Dad left us to our own circle of conversation, Hong [that hospitalised friend] started pouring out his woes and fill us with details.
Last Sunday, he felt a very painful stomachache around midnight. It was very painful and he had to woke up in the middle of tghe night, struggling with the pain. He began to ask his father to drive him to NUH while his father hastily tried to treat him with medications of his own. In the end, he was drove to NUH. The Doctor told him that there was an unsual high level of air outside his stomach. He then said he looks quite okay outside but what's inside him is horrible. So he began worrying [as usual].
He was operated on his stomach. What actually happened was that his stomach ulcer split and there was a small hole in his stomach. Thank God he was send early to the hospital or the unthinkable could occur. He told me when he was in the operating room, he sniff some chemicals [chloroform like substances that makes people unconscious]. The next thing he know he was back at the ward with a tube in his nose. Apparently the tube was inserted through his nose, through his throat gut and then to the stomach. He told me he felt nauseous with the tube in his throat and it is very painful when they suddenly pull the tube out. Urgh.
The doctors said that the hole was probably attributed to stress, overconsumption of alcohol, irregular meals, etc. The definite cause of this problem is uncertain. It seldom happens to kids and teenagers. So it is really unfortunate that my healthy friend ended up like this. We chatted alot and learn that he can only eat jelly and drink soup for now. He is much okay now compared to yesterday from what we heard. We told him to take care of himself and not to worry too much. Just glad that his stomach din actually burst. -____-
Take care of your health and eat regularly and promptly. Staying in hospitals ain't fun. Trust me. :)
Monday, April 04, 2005
Thx Jojo
I got Naruto DVD volume 1!!!!! So elated :)
In my sudden burst of enthusiasm, i watch 2 dvd's straight and loaded 10 episodes off the 80 episode loading list in Jojo's Naruto Anime bank! Kinda regretted that i spend too much time watching today but nevertheless i still enjoy the anime. It provides scenes that are not found in the Manga i read online. Its cool in its own way and at least there is motion in the characters plus bgm, sound effects and the cute voices of the characters. I will limit myself to slowly watch like maybe 2 episodes a day ... i dun need to rush through^^
Another exciting thing i've discover is Smallville season 4 is out! This friday 8.30 will be its air time. Well basically i have to start building a time-table which i should be able to complete by tmr. Managing time is very important now. Need to allocate enough time for studies. Its quite hard to hit the studying hours per week but i have to try. Spur me on :)
Thx Pete for lending me Hillsong/Delirious? album too. Now my music collection is definitely richer !! :) Thx Jo 4 yr cd.
May this be a less boring [ that does not mean i desire more workload] and a more interesting week!
In my sudden burst of enthusiasm, i watch 2 dvd's straight and loaded 10 episodes off the 80 episode loading list in Jojo's Naruto Anime bank! Kinda regretted that i spend too much time watching today but nevertheless i still enjoy the anime. It provides scenes that are not found in the Manga i read online. Its cool in its own way and at least there is motion in the characters plus bgm, sound effects and the cute voices of the characters. I will limit myself to slowly watch like maybe 2 episodes a day ... i dun need to rush through^^
Another exciting thing i've discover is Smallville season 4 is out! This friday 8.30 will be its air time. Well basically i have to start building a time-table which i should be able to complete by tmr. Managing time is very important now. Need to allocate enough time for studies. Its quite hard to hit the studying hours per week but i have to try. Spur me on :)
Thx Pete for lending me Hillsong/Delirious? album too. Now my music collection is definitely richer !! :) Thx Jo 4 yr cd.
May this be a less boring [ that does not mean i desire more workload] and a more interesting week!
Sunday, April 03, 2005
Cell Group
Woke up. Found myself in an odd position in my Granny's bed. Very soon, i found myself making my way to Boon Lay for Cell Group. I read my regular dose of Sunday Times and found interesting news to blog on.
Death.
What an interesting and intriguing topic!
It seems i've foudn 2 sections in Lifestyle about death. One of it mentions about blogs under the read section. There it lists 3 blogs of the bloggers feeling about illnesses and death. I think it'll be nice to read them when i'm free. I've posted Grace Chow's blog before in my blog which shows quite a detailed account of some of her last days and weeks on Earth. Though fustrated and worried about her uncurable sickness [ chordoma - rare tumour ], you can see she is a fighter and not an ostrich. Their words can be disturbing but very insightful.
The wisest words are often from the ones leaving this world. Ain't it?
Their blogs.
Dorothy , No Bra Required, Tumour Diary, Dying is
Maybe i'll consider puting some of them in my links.
On the other section under reflect which i read very often, Alan John post his view about A dignified Exit.
The widely debated topic about asisted suicide has yet again resurface when the feeding tube, providing nourishment to Terri Schiavo was removed. She was brain dead and the court had sentence the feeding tube to be remove just as her husband pleaded in her case. Many questions about this act are raised. Then comes this sudden question which struck my mind. Would you want your feeding tube/ life support/ medication to be cut from you if you find yourself brain dead? Some might say yes to end the suffering of oneself and his/her loved ones. Some might choose to believe in hope. Probably there is a formulae for this. The decision for them in this would be directly proportional to their desire to live plus their hope/desire for a miracle. For me the answer is pretty simple. If i finish what i have to do and if there is no real business, i would choose to go. [But choi choi choi, pray that nothing will happen to me ^^ ha].
Cell group is great. I feel a different experience this time during worship. God's presence was so tangible. I felt myself swirling. Really nice experience :) .The message was also good. It answers some of the questions running in my head through the week. I learn of my position as a believer in Christ.
I also read through Chong's blog and i am really happy for him. Most of his experiences, i would say i have been through before. He's grown alot and is very passionate and hungry for the Lord. Here's his tribute . Just wanna say i am proud of you Chong. Keep up!!
Gee that's all i should blog. Needa pack my room and do serious work :P
Death.
What an interesting and intriguing topic!
It seems i've foudn 2 sections in Lifestyle about death. One of it mentions about blogs under the read section. There it lists 3 blogs of the bloggers feeling about illnesses and death. I think it'll be nice to read them when i'm free. I've posted Grace Chow's blog before in my blog which shows quite a detailed account of some of her last days and weeks on Earth. Though fustrated and worried about her uncurable sickness [ chordoma - rare tumour ], you can see she is a fighter and not an ostrich. Their words can be disturbing but very insightful.
The wisest words are often from the ones leaving this world. Ain't it?
Their blogs.
Dorothy , No Bra Required, Tumour Diary, Dying is
Maybe i'll consider puting some of them in my links.
On the other section under reflect which i read very often, Alan John post his view about A dignified Exit.
The widely debated topic about asisted suicide has yet again resurface when the feeding tube, providing nourishment to Terri Schiavo was removed. She was brain dead and the court had sentence the feeding tube to be remove just as her husband pleaded in her case. Many questions about this act are raised. Then comes this sudden question which struck my mind. Would you want your feeding tube/ life support/ medication to be cut from you if you find yourself brain dead? Some might say yes to end the suffering of oneself and his/her loved ones. Some might choose to believe in hope. Probably there is a formulae for this. The decision for them in this would be directly proportional to their desire to live plus their hope/desire for a miracle. For me the answer is pretty simple. If i finish what i have to do and if there is no real business, i would choose to go. [But choi choi choi, pray that nothing will happen to me ^^ ha].
Cell group is great. I feel a different experience this time during worship. God's presence was so tangible. I felt myself swirling. Really nice experience :) .The message was also good. It answers some of the questions running in my head through the week. I learn of my position as a believer in Christ.
I also read through Chong's blog and i am really happy for him. Most of his experiences, i would say i have been through before. He's grown alot and is very passionate and hungry for the Lord. Here's his tribute . Just wanna say i am proud of you Chong. Keep up!!
Gee that's all i should blog. Needa pack my room and do serious work :P
A Look back from my shoulders.
How I long for the weekends during the weekdays. And how fast its slipping away so quickly. Time waits for no men. No women. No dogs or pigs.
I've been asked yesterday by Ken : How do you feel so far as a clerk serving in the army? Sian ?
Life there as it can be seen is nothing very stressful. The only thing that can really stress you is if you kanna extra duty or work OT [overtime] for no sound reason. Basically i am just picking things up and enjoying what i can along the way, puting in mind that there are goals to be completed this time. If i screw up my year this time, i am seriously screwing up my life. All my hopes, discipline and principles are constantly being tested [ as always ] and it has to prevail.
My week has not been easy. Feeling dull and robotized every day at work, i can't help but find ways to do something more useful in the office. I always go online to read, surf and sometimes play when the superiors are not around. I got caught alot of time by my department head and its pretty embarassing. Sometimes it seems like the world is gray and there can be no one there for you when you walk the road. That's not true. But i can't help feeling that way. Most of us should know that we fighting battles everyday. Not blood-demanding physical battles. But a mental war. A mental war with ourselves. It can be something that we are sub/un-conscious about. The very choices we make are our battle moves in this battlefield we fight. Whether you are a Christian, a buddhist, a boy, a girl, a govenor, or a road-sweeper, You make choices which directs you to its choices. That's alittle small thought as i look back on my life.
I see myself not living up to the standard i set, sadly most of the time. I sometimes feel that i lack a role model in my life. But this thought deems invalid after i accepted Christ. I see how people around me grow, and often feel envious of their happy and normal life. Yah you heard me. I regarded myself as abnormal. As a kid, i wonder why i need to carry the burden of weights i do not deserve. Why am i struck with Arthritis [ an ailment/ disease whatever you call it] and have to endure swollen joints, intense pains and restriction in movements ? This makes life very hard as hyperactive kid when all you want to do is to jump, run and have fun. That plus other more are just part of my past. Then next comes with struggling with friends who are just hypocrites and backstabbers. Like what my senior JoJo has face in his JC life. Then comes the struggling for an identity and someone to look up to. Those were the hard years before i accepted Christ. Life back then is plainly nothing more but a struggle to exist. To stand and get this questions answered or if not to them out of my life. I live past them and all i can do is to get them resovled and submitted to my God. I can't say everything is resolved. But i can say when you know you overcome it with the help of good friends and with God, there will be a crack in the lock. You will find liberation.
Basically my life has been improving. Even if sometimes i stray off-course from my goals. I come to realise that unless we deal with ourselves, its very hard for us to deal the choices around us. I am a constant product of what i make myself to be. I will learn and may God be with me in my journey. I really want to be someone of a great material. Both inside and outside.
Continue to teach me! I am willing to learn more...
I've been asked yesterday by Ken : How do you feel so far as a clerk serving in the army? Sian ?
Life there as it can be seen is nothing very stressful. The only thing that can really stress you is if you kanna extra duty or work OT [overtime] for no sound reason. Basically i am just picking things up and enjoying what i can along the way, puting in mind that there are goals to be completed this time. If i screw up my year this time, i am seriously screwing up my life. All my hopes, discipline and principles are constantly being tested [ as always ] and it has to prevail.
My week has not been easy. Feeling dull and robotized every day at work, i can't help but find ways to do something more useful in the office. I always go online to read, surf and sometimes play when the superiors are not around. I got caught alot of time by my department head and its pretty embarassing. Sometimes it seems like the world is gray and there can be no one there for you when you walk the road. That's not true. But i can't help feeling that way. Most of us should know that we fighting battles everyday. Not blood-demanding physical battles. But a mental war. A mental war with ourselves. It can be something that we are sub/un-conscious about. The very choices we make are our battle moves in this battlefield we fight. Whether you are a Christian, a buddhist, a boy, a girl, a govenor, or a road-sweeper, You make choices which directs you to its choices. That's alittle small thought as i look back on my life.
I see myself not living up to the standard i set, sadly most of the time. I sometimes feel that i lack a role model in my life. But this thought deems invalid after i accepted Christ. I see how people around me grow, and often feel envious of their happy and normal life. Yah you heard me. I regarded myself as abnormal. As a kid, i wonder why i need to carry the burden of weights i do not deserve. Why am i struck with Arthritis [ an ailment/ disease whatever you call it] and have to endure swollen joints, intense pains and restriction in movements ? This makes life very hard as hyperactive kid when all you want to do is to jump, run and have fun. That plus other more are just part of my past. Then next comes with struggling with friends who are just hypocrites and backstabbers. Like what my senior JoJo has face in his JC life. Then comes the struggling for an identity and someone to look up to. Those were the hard years before i accepted Christ. Life back then is plainly nothing more but a struggle to exist. To stand and get this questions answered or if not to them out of my life. I live past them and all i can do is to get them resovled and submitted to my God. I can't say everything is resolved. But i can say when you know you overcome it with the help of good friends and with God, there will be a crack in the lock. You will find liberation.
Basically my life has been improving. Even if sometimes i stray off-course from my goals. I come to realise that unless we deal with ourselves, its very hard for us to deal the choices around us. I am a constant product of what i make myself to be. I will learn and may God be with me in my journey. I really want to be someone of a great material. Both inside and outside.
Continue to teach me! I am willing to learn more...
Saturday, April 02, 2005
Tired but blessed
Very tired. So tired that i think that's all i should say :)
Nah. I shall rattle more... Today i went back to the office to find documents in the file to check for error and raze [ short term for raising cases in the system ]. I left alittle later because of unfinish work and hence met ken 1 hr late. We went to the hawker centre to eat and chat. He seems very excited to share with me his experience and the SAF number 1 rule : Do what you want. Just don't get caught. I got caught again by mdm sundri for surfing net. The next time i get caught, i'll be doing extra guard duty. Very sian.
Service was very good because i really feel lifted up. I feel kinda tired through-out the day due to 5 hrs of sleep almost everyday... just reminds me of my school days. After doing TM and eating dinner, it was about 10. A vey tiring day. Haiz lost all mood to type...
Shall do a good QT and rest early -___-
Nah. I shall rattle more... Today i went back to the office to find documents in the file to check for error and raze [ short term for raising cases in the system ]. I left alittle later because of unfinish work and hence met ken 1 hr late. We went to the hawker centre to eat and chat. He seems very excited to share with me his experience and the SAF number 1 rule : Do what you want. Just don't get caught. I got caught again by mdm sundri for surfing net. The next time i get caught, i'll be doing extra guard duty. Very sian.
Service was very good because i really feel lifted up. I feel kinda tired through-out the day due to 5 hrs of sleep almost everyday... just reminds me of my school days. After doing TM and eating dinner, it was about 10. A vey tiring day. Haiz lost all mood to type...
Shall do a good QT and rest early -___-
Tansparent Monitor?
Mr Brown's April Fool Email joke yestterday ...
haa pretty cool. Makes it kinda stylish...
More info here
haa pretty cool. Makes it kinda stylish...
More info here
Friday, April 01, 2005
Spanglish
Director : James L. Brooks
Main Cast : Adam Sandler, Paz Vega, Tea Leoni
Duration : 130 minutes.
Type : Romantic Comedy
Review in Fullness:
Gee Its my first time doing a movie review of such standard :)
This show really amazes me. My first thought was it should be just a regular nice romantic comedy with good [ and i mean good ] laughs with occasional oohs-and-ahhs-and-awwww ... Goosebumps. Just like 50 First date. Adam Sandler acts in it too :)
No it isn't that simple. And that's why this show deserves its full credit! Men the previous romantic comedy [ I Do I Do ] really makes me wanna puke. I get the wrong kind of goosebumps. [ you know ... the kind when people tell you horrible cold jokes :P]. This show scores a high point because its more than just a romantic comedy. There is warmness in this show. Really. Because the character development in this show is awesome. You can really see the different personality of the characters in this show. Don't worry my reviews will not contain much spoilers. [^^ maybe alittle ]. Just plain opinions from me. :)
This show isn't about BGR. Its not simply about boy meet girl. Boy woo girl. Boy gets girl. Boy that's so routine. Basically the story starts with a little girl's compo about her mom. Then it takes on from there to show you alittle world of family and relationships. The mom works as a housekeeper for an American family. The fun part about this is the mom speaks spanish and doesn't know English. So the communication between the 2 sides becomes really funny and interesting. What makes this show good is that it shows how people handle relationships. Whether you'll learn to deal with it, or let the relationship deal with you. And that's how it is in the world today. We are slowly forgetting that we have the power over ourselves and over certain situations within our control. When lust come into play ... would you choose to let it run over you or be a master over it? You'll understand what i mean after you watch the show. Its not just enriching, but it actually mirrors the reality of this world. It is a very heartwarming show because eventually ... the show evolved from the sweet scents of temporal lust ... to the overpowering love of a family. And men i tell you that moves you ...
Final Verdict [By me!] : 9/10.
Go catch it. Its worth that deal of money from the experience you get from it.
Best to watch it with your loved ones cuddled beside you at night ^^
i cuddled my bag :P
Well that's the highlight of the day...
Tomorrow i have to go back to work. I wonder if that order is a violation of SAF rule. Becauase currently its suppose to be a 5 day week and if we are called back unnecessarily, we should be given free offs. Currently it doesn't work that way here because we are clerks. We are called to clear up mountain of record errors which means i have to cancel my plans tomorrow to meet up with my 1st 3 months ex-03s53 dudes [ to send vivi off]. What a spoiler. Guess it's the reality of life. Plans sometimes don't always go in motion...
Deal with it.
Main Cast : Adam Sandler, Paz Vega, Tea Leoni
Duration : 130 minutes.
Type : Romantic Comedy
Review in Fullness:
Gee Its my first time doing a movie review of such standard :)
This show really amazes me. My first thought was it should be just a regular nice romantic comedy with good [ and i mean good ] laughs with occasional oohs-and-ahhs-and-awwww ... Goosebumps. Just like 50 First date. Adam Sandler acts in it too :)
No it isn't that simple. And that's why this show deserves its full credit! Men the previous romantic comedy [ I Do I Do ] really makes me wanna puke. I get the wrong kind of goosebumps. [ you know ... the kind when people tell you horrible cold jokes :P]. This show scores a high point because its more than just a romantic comedy. There is warmness in this show. Really. Because the character development in this show is awesome. You can really see the different personality of the characters in this show. Don't worry my reviews will not contain much spoilers. [^^ maybe alittle ]. Just plain opinions from me. :)
This show isn't about BGR. Its not simply about boy meet girl. Boy woo girl. Boy gets girl. Boy that's so routine. Basically the story starts with a little girl's compo about her mom. Then it takes on from there to show you alittle world of family and relationships. The mom works as a housekeeper for an American family. The fun part about this is the mom speaks spanish and doesn't know English. So the communication between the 2 sides becomes really funny and interesting. What makes this show good is that it shows how people handle relationships. Whether you'll learn to deal with it, or let the relationship deal with you. And that's how it is in the world today. We are slowly forgetting that we have the power over ourselves and over certain situations within our control. When lust come into play ... would you choose to let it run over you or be a master over it? You'll understand what i mean after you watch the show. Its not just enriching, but it actually mirrors the reality of this world. It is a very heartwarming show because eventually ... the show evolved from the sweet scents of temporal lust ... to the overpowering love of a family. And men i tell you that moves you ...
Final Verdict [By me!] : 9/10.
Go catch it. Its worth that deal of money from the experience you get from it.
Best to watch it with your loved ones cuddled beside you at night ^^
i cuddled my bag :P
Well that's the highlight of the day...
Tomorrow i have to go back to work. I wonder if that order is a violation of SAF rule. Becauase currently its suppose to be a 5 day week and if we are called back unnecessarily, we should be given free offs. Currently it doesn't work that way here because we are clerks. We are called to clear up mountain of record errors which means i have to cancel my plans tomorrow to meet up with my 1st 3 months ex-03s53 dudes [ to send vivi off]. What a spoiler. Guess it's the reality of life. Plans sometimes don't always go in motion...
Deal with it.
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