World through Your eyes

I just watch a show on Discovery Channel while ironing clothes. I don't know what's the title (i bum into the show midway). But i was quite surprised that they portray it like a scary movie. I mean a documentary that looks like " I know what you did last summer! " ... that surely caught my interest. The show is about an interview with a family who had a bad experience in 1 of their apartments. It wasn't an ordinary bad experience. It has to do with spirits. From the onset i watched, they recounted the events that take place in that house. First, it was the voices they heard in the daughter's bedroom. The young girl in her teens began to complain about the strange noises she heard and that the house is weird. The mother confessed too that there is a heaviness in the air ... and she heard voices too. She began to share with her husband but he wouldn't listen as he never witness any of that. He sticks to science and brushes everything off with a simple "...

Its just a day before emerge. Cant say i was very excited. Cant say i am burning with passion. Urg its weird. But i want to catch something tomorrow. Something in life that i'll never forget. Think as i type now, the ushers should be packing up. My CG mates and other church mates busily preparing and praying for success in tomorrow's POS. What a day it will be tomorrow! Must sleep early! I went to Fuji Xerox towers just now for a job interview with Prudential. Apparently someone gave my name their company to do a character analysis. The company is expanding their workforce and recruiting new Prudential Advisers .... hence they are looking through contacts of people to recruit people. The interview is simple but quite unique. She mentioned about the pros of commission based job with them .... and how i can rise based on my hard work. But of course their work leans on selling "schemes" or plans for people. And certain people have a better edge because of their personal...

GDOP stands for Global day of prayer. Wonder if everyone was praying all around the world on the same day we gathered at National Stadium.. It was a pretty interesting event .... well at least its something u dun get to see every week at expo. It was a pretty slow-paced event ... but it was good. Ushered with Jarrett through the meeting. The event wasn't as packed as i thought. But well, i think everyone enjoyed praying together that day. A praying nation is hmmmm... i dunno. A mighty nation!!! A hot day followed by a breezy night. we are far far far away from stage.... prayer partner.

hmm.. I could be a bird in the sky.... and ride the thermal drifts to the horizon. I could be a fish in the sea... and enjoy the splendors of the deep. I could be an ignorant ant... that works and works day by day. Or I could be just me. A spectator in the wonders of your creation. That knows the true value of life itself is in you. Thank God for making me, me. Your faith in me taught me to believe.. My granny nags again. Early morning nagging is not good for your brain. She tells me if i do not want to study, go get a job. Ahh but i'm already doing it. It's just that i have not told her yet. Thinking about all of it all .... i somehow dwell back into the past where those hurtful words were said to me. I can still remember those words! It's hard to let go.... but to hold on to spiteful emotions is harder. Because the damage it does to my heart is immeasurable. Forgiving is also an art to master. Jobs jobs jobs ........ i need a job.

I went to search for a job today .... and ironically .... i do not know the name of the company ... or the exact location of the venue.... but i just went and followed the lead of my contact... Turns out to be a sales job with this company - DW Group. Throughout the intro and interview (round1), thoughts of " Is this another MLM conspiracy ??? or would this be another NTI experience" keep running through the back of my mind.... i feel alittle paranoid there but as he explained more about the job.... i realised is another job with Sales. Great! I don't like sales job. The last time a seemingly nice com-guy con me into this job of selling computers .... with promises that we will sell at least 20 over plus computers.. wow! and guess what ... our top owner sold only 11 computers. I sold 5 coms thru the whole com-fair and well ... bygones bygones... i forgive the guy .... and sales probably is not my cup of tea. I don't know.... but i really wanna get a job .... a good pa...

Oh God..... Who can stand righteous before you o Lord? Who can share the intimate (secret) things of God ....?? O Lord i have sin against you. and against you only have i sinned.I know that many are called but few are chosen. It is so hard to walk in the path i need to walk Lord. But God can i experience you even more intimately than before? Despite what my caretakers say, i have forgo it all to follow you... And yet i do not want to disappoint yet another person.. my loved ones. And i know i have constantly upset you with my sins and pride. But God you say you are forgiving and just.... and it will take time to forge back our friendship of trust. Lord i will perservere for the upward call of God... seeking Jesus, my author and finisher of faith... with the help of the Holy spirit my advocate, I will wanna see blue skies with that rainbow u made for Noah..and the love you gave to all your dearest beloved children abba Father.. Do not forsake me again for i am alone in this spiritual ba...

I need finances......... thank God for the job that came by last week... the details are quite sketchy though.. -_- and its only 1 hour per day! And if they are going to pay me around $5 per hr .... i cant imagine further. Oh well i need to pay my BF badly... I begin to ponder about a few things recently.... one aspect is about financial breakthrough. I do not have any big financial breakthroughs so far ...... and frankly ... i am wondering the offering messages that i gave ... all those promises... will it come to past? I realise something that any educated 3 - year old kid can tell me ... No work = no pay = no luxuries = no giving to the Lord = no giving to friends. As much as i would like to bless others in their birthday ... the main problem now is that i am spending too much time at home .. either playing games ... surfing the net or reading manga(s) .. than getting a proper job to equip myself with experience and cash! Its just my old lazy bones... and my old habit of procastinat...

I had a great week last week. And after the BS lessons, the books and the infilling of God's word in my life... suddenly there seems to be a light upon my path. God has spoken many times in my life... but it was a pity i did not treasure those times i spent with him. He has a great vision for me ... and probably the mantle might have been given to another faithful one. However, i know he always has plans for every single one of us. A calling. And even as i try to draw close to him.... i get to understand that most of the time i will not be able to feel God's presence. If it God is so real, and if he long to have such a communion with us ... why is it so hard to seek God. Qi Hui told me last week that she had a revelation of that during our zone prayer meeting. Well the revelation she had is amazing. She mentioned that to know God more, just like knowing any ordinary friend ... you'll need to spend more time ... more effort ... sometimes necessary sacrifices to understand th...

I haven't been doing my PDL series so regularly because ..... 1) I play too much games ....... just too much. 2) reading other books.... 3) not praying well too. You know in christianity .... all the woo-ahs about God and religion .... can be brought down to such a simple level. Ps CK showed me yesterday. And i have not witnessed the love of God and His presence in such a tangible manner like it was in yesterday's meeting. I mean it is different from our regular service .. where we have the lights and great sound and preacher. Those are good. But the fire among the people isn't there. Yesterday the HS just moved so freely among us. I mean its different from Ps Benny Hinn's meeting where the whole stadium is electrified .... but in another sense ... i get to know how God moves among the hungry .... and the meek . All around me ... people were weeping .... but i didn't. But i feel blankets after blankets .... wave after waves of water pouring on me..... and a message ...

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i feel refreshed today after a good prayer wif cell group. i have been pondering about the sermon of Mounts message and my late readings by John Bevere ... and of course my BS lessons. About my lifestyle .. and attitude.... i just cant develop that happy healthy me again. I know God is working very much on my inside now .. and that's why he brought me to where i was. And even though there are times i neglected him, he still calls out to me in very different ways. Like through books... through the things i do... (they would just suddenly feel meaningless). He wants my attention.... but on my part ... i will sometimes just do the things i want to do. How do i die to myself everyday? How do i praise God even at my most unconvenient time? This is like Basic Christianity 101. This is what probably what David calls sacrifice of praise. I want to die to my old self ... and develop that hunger again. For that special secret mana he reserve for those who seeks him earnestly... I realise som...

my blog has problems. everything seems to be in haywire... cant post properly. hai. Anyway praise the lord... i love this week's message. I can see now all that he's doing in my life... up till now.

I recently told my new cgl that i want to be a helper again. Lots of conviction burn in my heart... I mean i really do not like to lead. I guess you can call me the "serving" type rather than leading type. But i really feel God calling me to walk out from my comfort zone to do his works again.... To feed his lamb, tend his sheep... and feed his sheeps. I'm so confused today. On my way back... i was really tired. I can't say that i did alot of work ... but maybe because of the lack of exercise ... i grew easily exhausted after all the chair carrying and shifting in Expo. But yea .. on the way back ... i became quite irritated with the gang i was with. My cg mates. It's like i don't belong there at all... The things they say ... the lame joke they crack ... yea they are ok. But I am not particularly keen to participate and talk. Sure in the past i will just go ahead and chat wif them to my very very best. But now it's different. I do want to fellowship.. but...