reflections

its so funny. stepping from one foundation to another foundation. a stepping stone to another stepping stone. everything in life seems to be a breeze once. but after i found a greater cause... things really changed. (and yea it's for the better of cos)



many times i feel angry with God. i am an angry man. i am angry with alot of things sometimes. pls allow me to be humane for this post. if not u can just click the 'x' button at the top right hand side of screen.


i feel angry with God. earlier this week... i felt resentful to God for so many things. like i feel inpatient with colleagues. sometimes i feel that my love life wasn't as much as i expect it to be. i feel i am not fit to be a leader of any sort. i have no skills. i heard that i have no good humour. i am too long-winded. i cant engage new frens.there are so many things in life that tells me .. i shouldn't be here.

but yet i am here. i am doing what i need to do. serving what i need to serve. but most importantly .. building my life and character. and learning to rely more and more on Jesus. i feel fustrated when i dun see results. i was betrayed sometimes by frens. i feel disappointed when frens i knew for long behave so 'different'. it's like i never knew them anymore.


Pastor Kong shared something that lifted me up. it's ok to be human. that's also precisely we need God. we just have to continue to make the right decisions .. meditate or ponder abt positive - edifying words that encourages.. rather than condemns. love rather than hate.


as i went deeper with you. the hole that i dug seems more pitch black then before. it seems really yucky. but i know soon... i can see the real jewels and seeds of great great stuff being driven deep in that soil. and out of it will come all my favourite fruits of love.. peace.. joy.. longsuffering... kindness.. goodness.. simply just nice fruits.


i said this today to my bs student.
sow a thot, reap an act
sow an act, reap a habit
sow a habit, reap a character
sow a character, reap a destiny.

world-shakers and history makers aren't forged overnight. our faith is perfected thru fire and flames. patience.

endure

frustrated!


but got to endure it thru!


God makes all things new!

blessed.

thanks for being there on 8 october for my bday!


in sms.. or in facebook.. or twitter.. or in real life. ya kindness and generosity is awesome!



wasn't feeling very well this week. every year.. and even more this year.... i was excited for my birthday. but just as the days draw nearer and nearer... i began to dread! :( most of it is because of my bad experience in my previous birthday celebs. makes me feel that bday celeb is so cliche.. pple are there just for the sake of being there.


but this year.. yea my mind was brought back to reneweal. dear tell me how much the pple love me. my leader tells me how much she appreciate me. my seniors told me how encouraged she felt when i stand in the gap to do things... it's a great affirmation to me.



Thank God this year.. im another year mature.. and another year in love with God.. had a women in my life who always feed my tummy... and a great group of perservering frens in a family. i certainly hope i can draw back the bridge with my own flesh and blood family this year. i hate to be there listening to naggings. but i am a no longer a child. time to move to a realm of receiving the annointing and releasing it!! :)


Thanks for the branded wallet... the vouchers, cash, cards... and affirmations.:)

wrong

when all things feel wrong! and you feel stuck! what do you do?!?!?!?!??!



i feel like yelling.




i want to KICK the door!




sigh.




but God is good. i dunno why i always struggle with this. but God is good. His goodness overwhelms all the weird things in my life.




this is the breaking point! here cometh thy breakthru!

and one great thing happen today. a friend accepted Christ in cg :):) awesome!

Birthday Wish

time really past.....



but i am getting really excited !! :)



cos my birthday is coming!




This year i wish that...






























There ish world peace!



haha nah


my wishlist:

1) W116 Grow in maturity to be a family that is hungry for God and meeting the needs of people, winning the souls of the world.

2) My studies result gets better. have study partners to pace myself thru the year.

3) okok! i want nice shirts (small size for american brands) from springfield or Espirit! my 2 fav shops introduced by dear dear. zara also can... =D

4) a nice leather jacket. (hmmm most prob getting that in HK)

5) working attires.

6) a new smartphone deal! its expensive so think i am hunting for cheap 2nd hand deals! :P ideally HTC? if not iphone :)

7) a nice group of friends that celebrate with me :) keke