Serving Blues



dear frens .... i felt im sliding away from excellence...











and when i look back and see how i perform through the week... it is quite discouraging :(









yea i lost the fire.. i was anxious. I was overwhelmed by fear... again.










I'm tired of making same mistakes. And being a less detailed and forgetful person.. i needa put in more effort to plan. more effort to learn. more effort to pray. more effort to 'recover' from all this setbacks. What doesn't kill me makes me stronger! i am ironman!!!!!!!!!




Well when the ACU shouted over the comm set over our performance as Stage1, 2 ... i was kinda really sad again. but after a momental period of griefing .. i got back and continue my fight again.






i must really start thinking on how to serve with a spirit of excellence and without being gripped with anxiety or fear. I have to step up or i will really get kicked out ... which will be very very bad.......... hai.





After reflecting our duty with my stage 2, s-understudy, simon and T2 today... felt much better. I really feel we can work together more as one.. mom used to tell me the leaders will flow as one together in leadership. And it makes sense.... sometimes in doin a specialised task... the body works together as one. it should flow as one... and yea that flow is lead by the holy spirit :)




i am just thankful for de pple who prayed for me, who prayed wif me.. and who encourage me after this duty. I will serve better. and yea whatdoesn'tkillumakesustronger:)


orangeman.powers.up!





Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.


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