had a round table chat with Elaine and the rest of the CGC (connect grp coordinators) yesterday. It was pretty long discipleship session... and yep it wasn't really pleasant to hear the things we hear. But this is what a good trained armour-bearer should be. To be able to bear the burden and shoulder the cross everytime a call comes. Easter may be tiring... but my God is faithful!
Well sometimes i also feel there is still so much gap ..... so much before i can rise up to the right standard of a leader. Seeing my ushers grow makes me happy. Seeing them moving away from me fustrates me. At times i felt discourage and weary on this. But thank God that there are friends around me that i can share my burden with. I pray that my CG people and ushers will be more united ... loving than ever before.
Even though during this period where i get tired and careless, i really hope that i can really rise up more to be a Man of God. Despite my struggles in my life with my family and friends ... i hope i will find strength in it all to deal with it rightly and appropriately.
I like what one of my friend says : God is good. He make beautiful skies. And when i look at the magnificent sky and its clouds, all my problems seems so small. That's my God.
Yea that's my God.
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Cheers.
3 cheers to God.
He is really a God that makes things work!
Today i really feel very 'in-control' asa Stage 2 usher. And nope it's not because of my countless experience i did as a Stage 2 ( though i had painful-memorable times that i learnt as a Stage 1/2). But i think it's largely because how much the Holy Spirit has helped me! For example ... i struggled alot in hearing my comm set but today... man i can hear the words really well and.. even if the message can be quite muffled, i will still be able to make-out somewhat what was communicated :)
And yesterday... well honestly that are some critical things i overlook. e.g first-aider. but i really thank God yesterday was an accident-free day! ok think some of them got greased on their legs and bruises... but other than that.. all's good. And yea it rained everyday from Mon to Thurs! and guess what fri and Sat was sunny!! :) So everything just really worked out!
Aside from this.... i am still struggling with a certain 'weakness'. But Pastor Phil's message really spirred me to trust God and learn to rely on the Holy Spirit. When everything around u fails, u can really rely on God's strength and provision. I rememebr someone once said that God's provision comes when our human's wisdom falls. When we start surrendering ourselves to God, He will undoubtly provide you with the grace and the 'help' to see it through.
Also, its really important to live a righteous life for God. Be true to yourself . Be true to God. Ultimately, at end of days .. God will not look at your achievements.. He will look at your heart and see it 1st. Because a good tree always bear good fruits.
It's all about Him.
He is really a God that makes things work!
Today i really feel very 'in-control' asa Stage 2 usher. And nope it's not because of my countless experience i did as a Stage 2 ( though i had painful-memorable times that i learnt as a Stage 1/2). But i think it's largely because how much the Holy Spirit has helped me! For example ... i struggled alot in hearing my comm set but today... man i can hear the words really well and.. even if the message can be quite muffled, i will still be able to make-out somewhat what was communicated :)
And yesterday... well honestly that are some critical things i overlook. e.g first-aider. but i really thank God yesterday was an accident-free day! ok think some of them got greased on their legs and bruises... but other than that.. all's good. And yea it rained everyday from Mon to Thurs! and guess what fri and Sat was sunny!! :) So everything just really worked out!
Aside from this.... i am still struggling with a certain 'weakness'. But Pastor Phil's message really spirred me to trust God and learn to rely on the Holy Spirit. When everything around u fails, u can really rely on God's strength and provision. I rememebr someone once said that God's provision comes when our human's wisdom falls. When we start surrendering ourselves to God, He will undoubtly provide you with the grace and the 'help' to see it through.
Also, its really important to live a righteous life for God. Be true to yourself . Be true to God. Ultimately, at end of days .. God will not look at your achievements.. He will look at your heart and see it 1st. Because a good tree always bear good fruits.
It's all about Him.
Friday, March 14, 2008
No T !
No temptation has overtaken you except such as is common to man; but God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will also make the way of escape, that you may be able to bear it.
1Cor 10:13
Yea. I will survive.
1Cor 10:13
Yea. I will survive.
Warfare
For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal but mighty in God for pulling down strongholds, casting down arguments and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ..
1 Cor 19:4-5
I feel very funny this week. Its like there are alot of unhealthy thoughts swimming in my mind and heart.... and its really irritating. However, thank God for the word of God! Its a weapon to attack and pull down every attempt of dismal the devil throws at us. Ps Kong always said on one side the Word attacks the devil. On the other side it builds up our faith... and guess what... the next useful armour in the christian's armory is our shield of Faith!
above all, taking the shield of faith with which you will be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked one (Eph6:16)
speaking of which... i just gave the longest bible study session i've ever gave to one member about the word of God. Record timing of 1h 45mins. tongue very dry after BS. and i really thank God for the patience of my member. Anyway its not totally my fault it drags so long... we moved around cos the area we used was filled with Drama ministry members ... and they were really hyped up that day. Cant conduct a good BS in a "marketplace" rite ?
Tomorrow just receive news im doing Stage 2. Partly excited. partly afraid. partly un-peaceful. But the answer now can only be one. Pray. Pray. And wield the sword like how David wield his stones against Goliath. And at the end of the day .. one will fall.
And it'll defintely not be me.
because my Commander in chief had his victory!
Please pray for a good weather on Saturday. Gonna cycle in Pulau Ubin :)
Thursday, March 13, 2008
Heart for Christ
Yesterday my cgl spoke to me over lunch.
She mentioned quite alot of things pertaining the hearts of many christians in city harvest. And i was one of those that she feels 'burdened' about. We have become 'dormant' during this season ... and the Pastors are very worried.
Basically, she shared about the number of people responding to the altar call to rise up to be full-time preachers over the next few years : the number who responded is only over 20 out of near 2k congregation. The number of souls willing to rise up to preach the word is significantly lower. I explain to Elaine tha my passion was to be a worship leader. And also that i am not very sure if i can be a full-time preacher. But what she said really makes me think about my own Spiritual connectedness with God...
Are the young people today as willing to serve God, to lay down their lives to preach the word of God ?
In the end of days, we will not be doing so much of what we do today. The anti-christ will rise up. Will we still continue to love God and stand up for the word?
Are we leaders discipling the members well enough to take up the Cross and do the works of kingdom of God?
Are the Men showing Manhood this days?
Those weren't her exact words btw. But those were more or less her main points. I was quite convicted inside. With my current lifestyle, i am not really living my life fully for God. Of course i know in everything that we do, there must be a balance. But i understand she is not refering about our the way we live. Its on our heart. our attitude.
ok... i got to set things right. This easter shall be a season of harvest!!! I shall have a heart for God's kingdom! :)
She mentioned quite alot of things pertaining the hearts of many christians in city harvest. And i was one of those that she feels 'burdened' about. We have become 'dormant' during this season ... and the Pastors are very worried.
Basically, she shared about the number of people responding to the altar call to rise up to be full-time preachers over the next few years : the number who responded is only over 20 out of near 2k congregation. The number of souls willing to rise up to preach the word is significantly lower. I explain to Elaine tha my passion was to be a worship leader. And also that i am not very sure if i can be a full-time preacher. But what she said really makes me think about my own Spiritual connectedness with God...
Are the young people today as willing to serve God, to lay down their lives to preach the word of God ?
In the end of days, we will not be doing so much of what we do today. The anti-christ will rise up. Will we still continue to love God and stand up for the word?
Are we leaders discipling the members well enough to take up the Cross and do the works of kingdom of God?
Are the Men showing Manhood this days?
Those weren't her exact words btw. But those were more or less her main points. I was quite convicted inside. With my current lifestyle, i am not really living my life fully for God. Of course i know in everything that we do, there must be a balance. But i understand she is not refering about our the way we live. Its on our heart. our attitude.
ok... i got to set things right. This easter shall be a season of harvest!!! I shall have a heart for God's kingdom! :)
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