a tumble....

[ personal ramblings ]




Everyone has a tumble in life.





I just received one earlier this week.





One that deals with my academic performance.





Thinking back, I used to share about my glorious days :)





like how i ace my Maths and Science .. and many others except my language papers.






how ugly it must have been. for me to end up like this.






I tumbled. i fell and bruised myself.






in my first few tumbles, it make me cry. I will lose hope. i'll feel incapable.






but i got up real quickly this time ; stayed less in my sorrowful state





it's great to embrace something greater!!





i got up with His hands. He pulled me up from the fall.






"oh look there he falls again."






That my enemies say. part of the devil's play.






but that doesn't matter. its the future i seek!





its only through tumbles that i discover something greater in life.





something more than a slip of paper can say. something that brings much rejoicing.





the love of God can never be replaced.

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The service this week was great. Ushering was really heavy this week. But i know it's only through this serving that i'll even draw closer to God. I'll be a better man.



what is really captivating this week is our CHC drama. It is said this was a true story in our church. A story of how a family came to know God by the pure love shown by Christians. And like some of my usher mates shared .. it's tear-jerking. Because it really shows the love as expressed in 1 Cor 13. Love is patient. Love is kind ........ and Love never fails.




I believe as much as what Pastor has always shared. People do not care how much you know, until they know how much you care. I got this mentality - that it's vitally important to share the gospel. So much so that sometimes i forget our true motivation in sharing it. It's really all about love in the first place. And that love brings patience. It brings kindness to even those that we feel do not deserve. The basis of our belief can be so true because of it's reality in our lives. I still remembered how i came to City Harvest :). I was a pretty open guy. A sort-of shaky Christian before i came. But i have no true encounter with God. Christianity was just like any religion to me. I had no true revelation of Jesus or the identity of what it means to be a Christian.




But i very well remembered how my friends stood by me when i was really in need. How they bless me. How they continually minister to me the way Jesus would. That really touches my heart. Never have i had such friends in my life. So i stayed on even when challenges arises.




Seeing the drama and thinking back, i get different perspectives. I saw myself in Brandon's shoes ( receiving the love and accepting Christ ). Then i saw myself in John's shoes ( showing that love and ministering directly to others ). And i saw myself as the cell group member of John ( having no direct relation with Brandon; nevertheless we pray and bless him ). It's really amazing :).




I really hope one day, in all areas of my life... People could see the Jesus in me!





I'm really praying for directions now. Because right now, i am really not sure what i would like to do after i get my career in the future. I am not sure how God is going to use me. I am not sure how i am going to take care of my parents, granny and have a family. There's just so much uncertainty i have to deal with.



But i know.... i shall live by Faith and not by sight.



I'll need to plan and trust God with the rest. So please do pray for me to make the right decisions...






Thank God for weekends..


Mamamia Shephard's Pie :)




The owners of this great recipe. Thanks Jessica and John! :)




Fellowship before Cell Group.




Group 2 Section 3 Ushers!