[ personal ramblings ]
wad a year it has been. 2005 ..
i just felt alittle sad over myself over some few things.
after exams ... i was left in a sort of emptiness ya know. I wanted to do so many things. I am really so excited! But this week ... that momentum broke. I felt that i wasn't flowing well ... in my team in NSSC... wif my friends whom i used to share my joy n tears. It's like i feel so distant from everyone suddenly ... makes me feel so much like an alien.
odd.
Well ... my team IC wasn't really a joy to see when i come back to work. She totally shuts me off .. and so do i to her too. Hmm i really dun wanna say much abt her. She's a nice lady. but ... i guess i leave it all to God. Regardless of what she says to people abt me, I know it'll all work out ...
i do pray that God really do make me a better person! I am truly not proud of myself this year over some of the things i do and say. I ain't perfect ... but i definitely can do better than my current state.
i still like the quote on my study room wall " Tough time Don't Last, Tough people do ! "
Changed :)
3 comments:
Hey Jason,how are you man?I'm back to "POSTING COMMENTS" in your blog after a very long time.It's been a while,I guess.Do not worry,I'll be posting more comments as time flies.I'm also back to tagging in your blog after some time.I just read this latest posting in your blog.I am very touched on seeing this message.You are not the only one encountering this problem.I am sure it is also the same for most people,especially when it's just four weeks from the end of this year and when we look back at how 2005 has been for us.I am also in the same boat as you,my friend.
I wished and hoped to do lots of things this past year too,but failed to do them.I wanted to be more closer to God,but things did not seem to work out the way I wanted.I also planned to set a timetable where I could do some things everyday in the week to keep myself occupied.But,I was too lazy to adhere to what I desired to do.The list can just go on and so forth.
But,for you;I think you have been through lots of trials and tribulations this past year.I can see,especially after knowing you and being your best friend for almost 9 months now.You were stuck between studies,work,church,cell group,outings,family and personal problems,problems and arguments with friends not forgetting the Quarrel and anger I had with you and you had with me respectively earlier this year.Am I right?Did I miss out anything in the list I stated??
Yes,I know your Team IC is against you.I have told you before...She has washed her hands totally off you.I do not get what she is trying to say,but I think it simply means to "probably cannot wait to push you to some other section,team,or even branch".I know you wanted to do a lot of things this past week,but it all failed.You were all set and ready to go this week.Remember you told me your whole week is very tight,busy,occupied and hectic earlier this week on Monday when I asked you when you were free to go out with me??You are aware of the reason/s,right?It's a secret,only between both of us.Do not leak it out,please.Thanks.
You were all ready,enthusiastic,prepared and excited to commence your "enjoyment" this week,according to the message in the post you mentioned last Sunday.Just backtrack and see if you can recall what you typed there.How are you going to fulfill your plans for this month??
What are your comments about my current MSN Nickname??You will only see me talking much here in your tagboard,posts in your blog,through e-mail and maybe by SMS or by phone only.It's simply because I will not be getting the opportunity to communicate much with you in office for the next fortnight at least,I believe.
I think my life has taken a major twist and changed drastically after telling you my "decision" 2 days ago.I hope you know what I am referring to...I can see that you are slowly drifting away from me in office for this few days.It's so obvious coz it may not seem this way for you,maybe.But,it has for me greatly.I have eyes to see,ears to hear and senses to feel and touch.But,I just simply ignored and pretended that nothing had occurred.
Take care and God Bless You.Enjoy your weekend and have fun.Do not worry too much...
yea... haa Prem ... we've been thru quite alot .. and we both learn lessons thru all these challenges.
But well.. dun feel like i'm drawing away. :) Cos we are great frens..
thx 4 droppin by
No problem,man.You are most welcome.Thank you so much,Jason.Your message really touches me.I am so lonely,man.Me,my mum and my dad only at home.Just sent my brother,my uncle,my aunty and my two cousins off to Australia.5 of them in total.I wished and was supposed to follow them,but I have my own reasons.Guess it is best to leave it to fate and the rest up to God.He won't be around until 16/12/2005.
Anyway,another e-mail is coming up from me.Do expect it from me,but I need time to type and send it over to you.Take care and God Bless You.Enjoy your day,man.Sweet dreams and goodnight.
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