World through Your eyes

[ The 7th installment thus far for Purpose Driven Life. ] Point to ponder: It's all for him Romans 11:36b (LB) For everything comes from God alone. Everything lives by His power, and everything is for His glory. It's all for him. Everything around me worships Him. Have you ever thought what does the birds in the sky, the sand, sea and clouds ... the little ants that crawl towards your food ... the little cute puppy you got as a pet .. what's all this to you? Why are they here on earth ? I mean we know the role they play very well. Birds chirp, fly around and hunt for food. They learn the dangers of their environment and are always alert lest they become a part of someone's food chain. Collectively, it can be said they are all for one purpose. That purpose is the same for all of them. That is to glorify God. I read a book by Lee Strobel that argues many theories of our time on faith, science and religion. What intrigues me is that the readily build up arguments against G...

Points to ponder : This earth is not my home "So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal." 2 Cor 4:18 (NIV) King David once prayed, "Lord, remind me how brief my time on earth will be. Remind me that my days are numbered, and that my life is fleeing away." (Ps 39:4) It is quite sad to know that time flies by so fast. I mean i am an adult now. Like it or not i have to accept my new found responsibilities. Work, make a living, and before you know it, i'll have to pass the baton to yet another younger generation. I read alittle of Ecc on how time can past away so quickly. And the wise and the fool all have the ultimate fate of death. But christians know that death is yet but another new beginning. And that's when our everlasting journey starts. Then what shall we make of our time on this earth? Isn't it like what King Solomon likes to describe, " chasing after the wind? Co...

Peace Is Not The Absence Of Turmoil; It Is The Acknowledgement Of God’s Presence. by Ps Robb Thompson. These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.” (John 16:33) Not only was there a bitter herb set upon the Passover table, but there was also a sweet, delicate herb. Parsley is that customary herb, used to remind Jews of the sweet, peaceful incidents that no doubt occurred during their long journey to the land God prepared for them. But God cares far more about your faith than He does about your comfort. We read in 1 Peter 1:7 that trials are only tests of our faith, to show that it is strong and pure. In Job 23:8-9, Job records his search for God, “I go east, but He is not there. I go west, but I cannot find Him. I do not see Him in the north, for He is hidden. I turn to the south, but I cannot find Him.” It could have appeared to Job that God had entirely abandoned him. All ...

I have been thinking. After opening up this blog to 3 leaders... it is alittle much less personal now. But that's okay since they are my leaders. They are my covering. That is why i understant my need to account. For now i am under another leader - Xiu wen. She wants to get into my life ... but i am not letting her in. She said its ok and she will not compel me. And she will wait for me to respond to her again. Why am i doing this ? What am i becoming? I don't want to shut her off. I mean she has been a great partner when we were helpers in the past. We shared alot of our burdens together. We prayed alot together... After she left w143, i was very upset. But weeks later, i realise she is different. She tells me that i can confide with her. I told her i am different from her. She asked me twice on seperate occasion what's the difference.... and i did not reply her. I guess this is one part no one will understand. I am different from others. It goes beyond our personality, in...

Just went for pm today.... and i realise our church members are in the Miss Singapore Universe (MSU).... So i went to have a look at the show..... and i come into some conclusions. Intelligence can be sexy. So girls might want to consider spending an equal amount of time in libaries as they spend in salons... As the saying go ... smile a mile. The bigger the better. You have reach your mark if your megawatt smile can light up the city district. Chris Daughtry's song Home was sang by Jonathan Leong on that show too.. A very nice imho. The 1st time i heard Chris's song ... i thought "since when did Jon's singing got so good ?" They share a pretty similar style of singing... except Chris's voice is much more exceedingly powerful and sexy. Like the tone of his songs :) The day went pretty well. Had some misunderstanding earlier but thank God it was resolved. I really treasure this friend of mine and i think by far ... she is the only one i can connect very well th...

i got to bath just 15 mins ago.. quite exhausted so i shall rant very very fast. I just realise today how important electricity is. I mean its like a neglected, overlooked force in our everyday lives but in a urban city like Singapore, how many people are able to survive without electricity? Technically speaking, of course we can! But we will miss all its splendor and goodness if it is missing. Caveman lives are sure not fun to experience. That's how i felt waiting 2 hours ago, waiting for the electrical current to flow again back again to power my appliances. I don't want to bath without the heat. Or sleep in my stuffy room without my trusty-o-fan. The ugly truth is is that i am really quite dependent on all my electrical appliances to meet my needs (or wants if you prefer to call it). It brings to think the world before electricity was born. Things are done probably in a more hectic way back then. I mean they don't get air-con. Don't talk about even smsing or computer...

I'm quite tired now -_-. Woke up early to do some work and before i know it ... i will be going out soon. Really have to pray for strength since i will be ushering again after a long while. I will be a normal usher again this time. I do hope i am able to relate back to my fellow ushers again. Holy spirit please guide me... Today's PDL is quite good. It talks about viewing life from God's perspective. The way we see our lives shape our lives. Rick mentions about how we see our life and our understanding of our life. I will come home later to blog more :) i need to prepare myself for my day later sooooooo ..... i shall think about it more later. I am back home from church!! Survived the blackout and now i shall continue...... Before pondering about the PDL message, i want to share about today. Ushering was pretty good today. Though i tend to forget some little details during my ushering ... i thank God that he is able to help me flow and really usher into people to the zone. ...

Point to ponder : There is more to life than just here and now. 1 John 2:17 (NLT) This world is fading away, along with everything it craves. But if you do the will of God, you will live forever. Another entry for PDL. I need to be more consistent in the things i commit to do. I spend alot of my time this week playing games, watching shows ... and hardly any time in reading the word of God or praying. I mean i did pray but on some days .... my prayers are like nothing .... really like routine. I will put other things 1st ... like having fun etc.. before settling my heart down for God. Really bad for a mature believer. This does have certain consequence in my spiritual walk... i mean i just had a great meeting with Ps Benny Hinn last week and i am still very hungry for spiritual blessing. But i think i gave it up too easily to seek the worldly entertainment 1st and putting God behind it. As a result, this week's pretty horrible week. I lack the peace of God ... and i had more tempta...

[ mood : ] Cheryl had a conference call today to tell us we will be under another cgl again. Well it is cool in a certain sense since we get to meet new people. She assure us she is a very powerful and annointed leader ... who is like Pastor's very own right hand woman . She is successful both in her career and her spiritual walk.... and she will soon be a mother-to-be :). Well, years ago i use to struggle with the fact that as i change cg ... i will lose contact with people i hang about most ... but then again that is life. You social circle changes constantly ... but only a selected few will remain inside as your close ones. As i thought about it ... i suddenly remembered about the past few weeks ...and i think i understand a little of what's in my mind now. And probably a good thing too since this helps me better plan my steps in life. In the past few weeks , i struggled alot with myself. And my leaders kept on telling me that i am 21 and i need to be mature. My true value ...

[ mood : ] alright .. i cant do my PDL update today (or actually yesterday - Fri ) cos its quite late and i need to do something really important later. But i wanna blog this memory down cos i just had an extraodinary experience. I just went for the first Benny Hinn's Healing Crusade in SIS.... and i was really blown away from the experience. All the early queueing .... all the waiting .... it was all worth it. I never felt such presence for so long ... i feel like God was just next to me today. Actually, i have many things to say prior to the healing and the flow of the presence in the stadium. JJ, Joel, Yuwei ( i think that's what's his name) and me were queuein at the North entrance since about 3 pm. Well the amazing thing is there wasn't anyone queueing there!!! :) Praise the Lord ... and JJ arrived first there to 'chope' (reserve) the place. Then we had a picnic there and played some games to kill some time. Eventually the door opened around 5.45 pm and we...

[ mood : ] Isaiah 26:3 (TEV) You, Lord give perfect purpose to those who keep their purpose firm and put their trust in you. In this episode, Rick examines various 'drives' in a person's life. There can be many possible drives in a person's life. They can be motivated by circumstances ... eg: a child living in poverty may aspire to be a rich, wealthy man. Or they can be inspired from people around them. Or it can simply be drive from their emotions. Nevertheless, any idea, passion or belief can motivate people and push them in a given direction. Most dictionary defines "drive" as to guide, propell, to control or direct. Rick starts to mention the 5 most common drives in our lives. 1) Many people are driven by guilt. They spend their entire lives running from regrets or hiding their shame. These people according to Rick are tormented by their past memories. We might be products of the past, but we don't have to be prisoners of it. God is a God who loves to...

[ mood : ] Well there will be no PDL entry today. Maybe i'll do two tmr. But today's a pretty good day. Except that i feel quite dirty ... I have a kid .... a tuition kid to be exact and he is Brandon. He loves ninja turtle alot. and teaching him sometimes makes me want to jump off the window of his apartment. Well sometimes, i got to give and take. I let him do alittle of what he wants.... and then i have to steer him back to his books. Quite a tedious thing to do. Nevertheless, i still love kids. He has a cute sister too. And they look very happy to me. Even when they quarrel. Brandon is smart ... and i guess smarter than me than when i was a kid. or maybe i am just too good a teacher :). Either way i hope he does exceedingly well under my care. Its good to teach! But i need more income... i cant cut my expences and save forever... I need a breakthrough!

[ mood : ] Day 2 - You're not here by accident. Isaiah 44:2 I am Your Creator. You were in my care even before you were born. God doesn't play dice - Albet Einstein. No one's here by chance . That was our school motto back at my College days. I wasn't created by accident. Or so much i would like to believe that way. I mean look at the world.... it speaks otherwise. We have parents that forsake their kids. We have kids born differently and suffer under the eyes of criticism of others. Kids born in warzone. In poverty and uncertainity. Something that i know my human eyes and wisdom cannot fathom. I don't understand God. And just as Ps Sy puts it once .... " How can you God allow your precious creation to fall that way ? " Have you no mercy or love for these people? How much can we say or stand for them? It's easy to say all these words and put the blame on God. But i know better not to. Ps Sy mentioned before that Faith is trusting God when the worl...

[ mood : ] I am quite confuse and sad now. My granny asked me again today about what i wanna do. I really don't know. The way she says .... it fustrates me. and a part of me ... i don't know is still shut down i think. I am afraid to tell her what i want to do. It's her nature to nag.... to reprimand me to do the things she wants me to do. She will nag about almost everything ... from sleeping late ... to my academics. to me going out too often. Well i know. I know her intentions are good. But somehow it puts me off real bad. I don't know why but i find it hard to converse with her. Maybe it's her nagging ? Maybe is her selfish desires or her uncaring attitude to me in the past? I really don't know. But whenever people ask me about what i want to do ... i cringe. What can i do ? What should i do? What's the next best move ? I don't know..... i really don't know. i am just afraid... i saw wen today unexpectedly in the National Library @ bugis. I don...

[ mood : ] I have just purchased Rick Warren's The Purpose Driven Life . (PDL in short.) Seeing how much it's on demand.. i read one or two chapters in it once before i gave it away to a friend as a birthday gift. Turns out it is a simple but yet thought provoking book. A book that i very needed. Well in its intro - it encourages me to engage with the book ... and to write my daily reflections of the chapter in a diary. So it starts today. Day 1 in discovering my purpose with God. Part One - What on Earth Am I Here For. Day 1 - It all Starts with God Col 1:16 For everything, absolutely everything above and below, visible and invisible, ... Everything got started with him and finds its purpose in Him. As the title speaks for itself, it starts with God. Many famous atheist around the world has agreed that there is no doubt a God out there. Explanations of why and so can still be controversial and therefore widely disputed. There comes many times in the my walk with God where ...

[ mood : ] Well it is my late entries are all quite groomy lately... and well the less motivation these days leads to the lack of updates. it is almost a month since i ORD and it sure is different feeling to be this free after 2 years in NSSC. And well i guess i need to pen down some thoughts of reflection once in a while. Last few weeks has been alittle crazy. I can't explain it well but i move away from all de ones i care about for quite a period of time. I just want to stay alone for awhile. To think. To make sense of my life and what i should be doing in the future. And well it isn't as good as it sounds of course. I was struggling very much on the inside. and many times i doubt the revelance of having relationships and ties. I doubt on success. I doubt on my capacity. I doubt on my friends. and worst of all .. i doubt on God. I can't make sense of my continual existence here when everything seems so meaningless for a while. kinda foolish huh ? Someday i hope to look b...

[ mood : ] Its a day after Easter. And well i think his year's Easter was badly spent... by me of course. I have given little appreciation to Him who has saved me .... and many times again.... Through my stubborn rebellious nature .. i ran away. But He is ever faithful. Cos that who He is.. He is the greatest person yet lived. Thank You Jesus for everything. I am unsure of myself... but yet in all distraught ... i still remebered of the cross that beared my scarlet sins. And now i am able rest in your arms..

[ mood : ] Its been a while since i blog. and well i did some changes to my blog address now so that the people who might happen to visit this santuary of mine will see my blog no more. i wanna make it private now.. at least for a long while. ( and ya some gundu take over my old blog address quickly... sheesh.) friendship is fickle ... or maybe now i guess it isn't my cup of tea. it is so troublesome to think about this sometimes. it really feels like i am going thru the old motion ... of what some of my friends went thru so long ago.. that winnowing process ... and bit and pieces of fustration. i just wanna be alone now. and on my own now. i do not need anybody... or depend on anyone.