its funny
its been a long day. tiring. but get to spend time w friends, im thankful. think its been awhile i blog. i feel quite twisted on the inside. like something is twisting my heart around. i cant fathom why. it is depressing me. yea. be a man. thicken it out. why cant i just get this feeling out of me. :( or is hardening my heart the way ? God.... :( when is shower. i thought about today being Father's day. today being the day we thank our Father for all that he has done.... or just simply letting know we love him. i began to think about what i remember about fatherhood.... i really dont think i can remember anything. i have many foster parents i guess. my grandma's children ( or my dad's unmarried brothers and sisters) stayed with me when i was young. i guess i was at the centre of the attention among them. they cane me. fed me. clothed me. and sometimes i wonder why i was born in such a messy place. i think alot when i was young. i thouight of how many times i am to plan my ...