World through Your eyes

"It is not the critic who counts: not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles or where the doer of deeds could have done better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood, who strives valiantly, who errs and comes up short again and again, because there is no effort without error or shortcoming, but who knows the great enthusiasms, the great devotions, who spends himself for a worthy cause; who, at the best, knows, in the end, the triumph of high achievement, and who, at the worst, if he fails, at least he fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who knew neither victory nor defeat." -Theodore Roosevelt 26th President of USA. Man who make a decision to step up make a difference. Today as Pastor shared this statement and it reminded how much a value of a dream can be. i remember how my dear ones have to suffer under a negative spotlight for a period...

I can't believe I allow myself to behave like this again. Seriously.. What's wrong with me? Is there no hope??? Can I please have a breakthrough Lord. My heart aches..... Ng, sent via iphone � [Godliness with contentment is great gain]

9-10 Jabez was a better man than his brothers, a man of honor. His mother had named him Jabez (Oh, the pain!), saying, "A painful birth! I bore him in great pain!" Jabez prayed to the God of Israel: "Bless me, O bless me! Give me land, large tracts of land. And provide your personal protection—don't let evil hurt me." God gave him what he asked. Dear God... i have forgotten this pain. this pain caused by rheumatamoid arthritis. the pain that stills away your locomotions. everything i do just takes double or triple the time. and the pain falls on my right wrist... means everything i do has to be done on my left hand. brushing of teeth, cooking my noodles, bsthing .. even typing. i used to feel alot of self pity.. now i just am so irritated by this. cooking a bowl of noodles takes so much more time now... and guess what.. my left hand slip and everything fell over. God i cant help but think is there a future for me... how can i take care of people whe...

God... i am going to do abit of homework today. to create a list of the unhealthy habits and thought life. i notice a certain pattern of childish intepretations of what others are doing that makes me feel lousy.. or possibly angry with myself. 1) When talking to a person - if she looks around halfway and look at something more interesting that what i am talking.... i will feel that my words are boring. my conversation is not engaging. result: i will feel frustrated w myself. and angry at the other party not paying attention. verdict: i think its silly. i am used to being the centre of attention when i am young in primary school. when i mature... suddenly all that attention is lost... as my uncles and auntie move house. i began to feel insecure cos i am not making connections with people the way i used to do. now how do i go about solving this? rewiring my mind helps? i need a word from the bible. 2) when i speak to someone... and the person doesnt reply. it...

Dear God.. my heart is exeedingly sorrowful. i just feel i really need a breakthrough in my life. I really love this person alot. can you imagine that time and time again you keep hurting the same person u love .. the person that love you. i just really feel like a jerk i just read through an email she wrote when we were first really getting to know each other. on 3 August.. she wrote this statement "yea, so like what i was sharing, i really hope to have a man in my life, who can really take care of me. who loves me and supports me, and understanding towards how i feel and make me feel fulfilled as a woman. where my life is really maximised. where being in a relationship is really a blessing to each other and not a pain or agony. i know there are no perfect relationships, but, it's like, on a whole, the relationship will feel more blissful than painful... you know what i mean? really hope to have a guy who really has a heart for God. who loves God, who serves...

Dear God, Sometimes I feel like a mouse in this big big world. Im not sure if I am schizophrenic. Or I have another spirit that lives in me. I constantly feel I am useless.. And people don't deserve my time. When an attempt to strike conversation w someone failed.. And my colleagues can enjoy heart to conversation.. I will think there must be something wrong w me When my frens graduate from their studies.. And I'm still studying,. I Will think there is something wrong with me. With the recent episode w vic. And sometimes when members tell me me can't serve. They can't come Cg or service.. Cos they are doing assignment... I will think is it because there is something wrong w cell group or service? Or am I thinking too much. I fell sick twice in these 2 weeks. Body is weak. I feel so weak. God look at me. I have nothing to lead the people. No credentials. I am not a role model. Whats good in me? What's my strength? I feel so helpless now. Hopeless. And I don't kow...

A biannual review. Citi has this culture where we need to do some goal plotting. But this time it's different. The boss will seat w every staff and discuss about our goals.. Our areas to work on. Or on any feedback. She said our big boss is happy that I'm more lively .. Seldom doze off in work when I change my seat to seat near my department colleagues (previously I seat far away from my dept due to com shortage) Hearing this makes me happy.. But yet.. I can't help thinking inhale a weak body. I tried to sleep earlier but I still feel so tired at work. Sometimes I really don't know why. Just so tired. When I'm out w frens.. I will get tired easily..... :( and they are all upset of me because of that I'm really frustrated over all these things... Frustrated that I'm not being the head ... But Im being the tail. Something is really wrong huh Then my boss says I always give an image that I look blur or loss hen communicating w people. She knows I'm not.. B...