World through Your eyes

its so funny. stepping from one foundation to another foundation. a stepping stone to another stepping stone. everything in life seems to be a breeze once. but after i found a greater cause... things really changed. (and yea it's for the better of cos) many times i feel angry with God. i am an angry man. i am angry with alot of things sometimes. pls allow me to be humane for this post. if not u can just click the 'x' button at the top right hand side of screen. i feel angry with God. earlier this week... i felt resentful to God for so many things. like i feel inpatient with colleagues. sometimes i feel that my love life wasn't as much as i expect it to be. i feel i am not fit to be a leader of any sort. i have no skills. i heard that i have no good humour. i am too long-winded. i cant engage new frens.there are so many things in life that tells me .. i shouldn't be here. but yet i am here. i am doing what i need to do. serving what i need to serve. but most importa...

frustrated! but got to endure it thru! God makes all things new!

thanks for being there on 8 october for my bday! in sms.. or in facebook.. or twitter.. or in real life. ya kindness and generosity is awesome! wasn't feeling very well this week. every year.. and even more this year.... i was excited for my birthday. but just as the days draw nearer and nearer... i began to dread! :( most of it is because of my bad experience in my previous birthday celebs. makes me feel that bday celeb is so cliche.. pple are there just for the sake of being there. but this year.. yea my mind was brought back to reneweal. dear tell me how much the pple love me. my leader tells me how much she appreciate me. my seniors told me how encouraged she felt when i stand in the gap to do things... it's a great affirmation to me. Thank God this year.. im another year mature.. and another year in love with God.. had a women in my life who always feed my tummy... and a great group of perservering frens in a family. i certainly hope i can draw back the bridge with my own ...

time really past..... but i am getting really excited !! :) cos my birthday is coming! This year i wish that... There ish world peace! haha nah my wishlist: 1) W116 Grow in maturity to be a family that is hungry for God and meeting the needs of people, winning the souls of the world. 2) My studies result gets better. have study partners to pace myself thru the year. 3) okok! i want nice shirts (small size for american brands) from springfield or Espirit! my 2 fav shops introduced by dear dear. zara also can... =D 4) a nice leather jacket. (hmmm most prob getting that in HK) 5) working attires. 6) a new smartphone deal! its expensive so think i am hunting for cheap 2nd hand deals! :P ideally HTC? if not iphone :) 7) a nice group of friends that celebrate with me :) keke

everyone shld have a group of trusties! like someone u can count your back on. it's a relationship principle i feel. Trusties are there no matter what happen they will always back you up. and support your dream. and likewise if trusties fall, we help them up. i feel happy to know i felt a group of trusties beside me. it's more than just a relationship or friendship you know. to me i define trusties as : a man or woman who lay down their lives to hold up their friends/companions/loved ones so that they can fulfill their life's calling. and bring their dream to completion. i think im getting to know really good trusties. i am not sure sometimes. but to all those trusties... i am willing to lay down mine for u too! hav ya found a trusty yet?

i think the word grace is something special. it comes when u weren't very good at job... the economy is bad.. but u received an unexpected 'leap' in performance. the boss praised you. when you thought you weren't good enough.. someone taps u in the back and say .. ya doing great! when u desperately tried many times to get a job with a minimum fixed salary and failed... but the next thing you know a job exactly u want lands at ya feet. when u walk down the streets of ya hometown.. pple are sleepin @ the streets. (and their old pple) and u have a bed and warm blanket to lie on. when u find a special someone in ya life... that even thru stormy days.. she will shine. when ya work becomes a battlefield ... politics reign.. but in the same env the little things around u encourages you in the office. when u feel like u cant do it... they say actually u've done a great job. different snippets of life. same God we serve. it's by God's ace we are found. Thank God for...

Thank God! every single day,, me and a group of temps are busy clearing our work of enrolling customers for some electronic service! the backlog we have to clear is 3000++ of paperwork! well each 'case' can be cleared very fast.. but with the high amount of work flowing in everyday (500-600) .. work can be tiring! thank God! that with the help of th rest of my temp colleagues.. we manage to clear the backlog from 3000++ to now 2046! so its a big big jump within a week! :D Boss praise us for our good work. but still we are in hot soup because 2000 of overdued paper work is still alot. hehe.... But God! will see us through this! just had cell group. and well i felt dishearted at the start. i lack practise on my guitar... suddenly felt so rusty.... but i am thankful the presence of God was there... and i am longing to have more powerful meetings... where .. when we worship... we have open heaven : and we simultaneously see the vision of God for our cell group! i heard from xiuwen ...

i saw my neighbour sleeping on the sidewalk at my level.... i asked him why he slept there.. he said he doesn't want to quarrel with his family. after i helped him to his house... he refused to go in. i wondered what happened to his famuly. quarrels often echoed out of their house. sometimes shoutings and screamings. well in the past .. my house is often filled with shoutings too.. but for them right now.. their aged father sleeps outside. i feel kinda bad for him. i met him occasionally day by day. but i hardly knew him. and everyday... i see many people sleeping in the streets of chinatown. is there anything that can be done?

im tired today! but thank God.. i m refreshed! tired outside.. but rrrrreeerfresh inside. this few days... ive been feeling alittle clumsy and blur. i lost some of my personal stuff.. which i really deem as important. :( and work-wise.. seems i keep meeting problems! hmmm am i feeling like this cos of lack of sleep? hmm.. anyway.. been blessed by today's meeting. When christian takes Holy communion.. it goes more than just renouncing your sins. we partake the power of God... and the life of Jesus with us. Amd i felt God speaking to me.. remember those things you felt ashame of? it's all covered up. When our lives get busy... it's easy to set our eyes on the cares of the world. but the real hope comes from knowing Jesus is the centre of our lives again. Jesus is. and forever is. our best friend.

cell group ended. im tired. but im glad to see the people.. rejoicing.. and building their altar before God. i am not perfect.. but i shall continue to stand in the gap. to be a man of God. test tomorrow!!!

Here are 2 videos study the nature of human to submit to peer pressure. and conform to your group! This is the power of group influence! These are some of the videos shown in my ESAP (elements of sociology and psychology) class. it's pretty interesting. but yet sometimes i struggle to stay awake in class! Indeed - whether we like it or not.. we provide certain form of impact or influence to people around us. and a place of a agreement is a place of power!

i am proud of my CG!! :) cos i know they are trying their best to be pillars of the group. but more importantly .. they are great people with great attitude.. there are certain days i feel like carrying big hammers to knock at people's head.. there are days i feel like burying my head underwater (sand alil too hot) .. cos of my blunders and mistakes.. there are days where i feel that God... if you don't come through.. i don't know what to do!! these are e days of cell group leadership. in usher .. i had my experience. welcome to cg ministry again Jason. it's so different... but it's great! I am so excited :D :D :D You've been a good apprentice to me, a part of my teaching, my manner of life, direction, faith, steadiness, love, patience, troubles,sufferings—suffering along with me in all the grief I had to put up with in Antioch, Iconium, and Lystra. And you also well know that God rescued me! Anyone who wants to live all out for Christ is in for a lot of trouble...

Does knowing more of something makes you a better Christian ? What is professional Christianity? And what is Christianity about ? i think through time... we (that includes me) lose the focus of God .. the focus of where to go in our lives.. and we are unseemingly 'suck' into the roller coaster of life. Is Christianity that dead ?? Sometimes we talk about faith as if there is nothing we can expect from the supernatural... from God. We talk about faith as a formula. its a substance of things hoped for. it is .... trust in God. it is .... what is faith ? why do you even bother coming to church ? or attend CG ? cos the CGL ask you to ? Why do you serve God ? What is the meaning of cell group and the body of Christ to you ? what is a high-flyer Christian ? a very succesful man that won praises ? topics like this seems to flood my mind now and then. Are we getting the right focus? Jesus said 2 words. " Follow me." then he followed and say - I will make you fishers of men. F...

Despite all that happens.. could you give thanks in everything ?? it's a wow thing cos it's not easy. but yet this is what the word of God reveals. In thanksgiving.. we acknowledge God and his power. Pastor says that dilligence is produced through thanksgiving. joy runneth over. and you are flooded with a covering of Grace like never before. Giving thanks despite you feel life is like a vacuum cleaner. when ya down on the pit. when you meet people who u feel like sticking 2 fingers in their eyes. Give thanks!! cos God is good. and He will forever be.

I had the priviledge to seat down together with the other cgls and Pastor Chee Kiang for a heart to heart talk on Tuesday! it was quite different atmosphere cos we are all seated in a small room ... pack together ard the table infront of Pastor! so it's literally meeting Him face to face to talk! The great thing is .. admist his busy schedule .. he still makes time for us... and he wants us to really get back to know Jesus more. because many time we serve and serve.. but we forgot Who we are serving... or Why we were here in the 1st place.. He posed mind provoking questions to us too... like did God created Sin ? The bible states God created all things... and all things as we know means all things. If that is the case.. that that means Sin is also in God's mind... and therefore... God could have 'made' sin .. (or not?) It's interesting food for thot. Some of us said some funnny things... like God created Adam.. and Adam is told to multiply and fill the earth with ea...

Great Leadership comes with a price. There's more work to be done... But the works flows from You! Ultimately .. it's about You! When no one's there .. You were there. When i work in despair.. You were there. When people needs to know You more.. You were there (with us) I've been riding on her annointing for a long time... (and the church) i've got to get my own mana and feed my sheeps.. Now : It takes 6 times more firepower to obtain a new ground than to stay at a old ground. Help me o Lord to be the Man. No more running wild.

This week was indeed a refreshing week! :) 1st i ate shokudo, . yums! So long never eat there.... so refreshing! . . . 2nd Elaine's Back !!! i feel stress but yet i feel i wanna talk to her more... but she's really busy! i realise after she's back.. it's like everyone's different. we are more relax and happy. wow... it's like the good o days in our family fellowship again.. 3rd Rev Dr. A.R. Bernard was here! I mean i am chewing on so much green pasture... i really need time to digest the great word. Most impt .. i needa get my own rhema every week 4th Overnight Prayer Meeting [OPM] with Ps Chee Kiang was great! He talked about how sometimes we loose track of Jesus in our lives when we are caught up with the ministry.. the people.. the struggle... the pain... that the reality of God is missing. Actually to talk on that... i just chatted with one member on the issue of feeling the presence of God. many people on stage in the past few weeks have been talking...

how your words have called me back to my first love... and helped me understand the purpose of 1st works.. thanks for Your reminder... Thank you abba Father.

Change new blogskin! yes fresh new look :) neater and cooler! but still has unfinshed.... sigh changing blogskin for me is really a big pain(t) job. i need a new com! played L4D with the bros like (so many so many so many) times with the bros. the fulfillment of killing zombies and working as a team to slay the evil forces has reached a whole new level of fun! but certain times it feels like strangling your team-mates.. i guess this is how you grow in teamwork and relationship. more than that... played table tennis few weeks back. sigh wanna do more sports... but school is starting so soon. exams coming out soon. it's really scary. but i know more things are waiting for me to be done. gotta go all out. anyway i hope my little brother in my cg can think things thru and consider well his directions. don't make decision of a lifetime by impulse. cos a family is not formed thru sweet good times. it's formed by sticking together and making it thru tog as one. :) alrighto

All the time! :) ole!