World through Your eyes

i su*k at memory work.... seriously ... i feel quite lousy about myself sometimes because of that. but its ok.. i shall remain positive. i am probably not remembering things the right way... Well today..... i looked through my past emails with bb before we dated. we spend really alot of time talking to one another. the conversations.. half the time are silly.... half the time are serious... but reading it brings smiles to my face... i re-read a description that i made of her to someone in an email - " Even tho I din go thru the same thing… but I just feel painful seeing her like that. For me .. it even became very hard to sing a praise song for God… but thank God… I got to talk to her. So we spent awhile talking… and I am really encouraged by her even thru the conversation. She showed such deep level of empathy for people… and this part of her reminds me of Sun. I told her I believe God will make her stronger through this period and this ‘emotions’ she goes thru .. to me… is a ...

wow... today went to many places!! from bb plc -> wedding -> bb plc -> attributes bk store -> CHC svc :) -> ion orchard -> changi chalet... and im back home! literally i think i went with bb from one end to the other. i think at the earlier part of the day... i was alittle >:O ... but till the end .. i am more :) and :P that means: it's a day well spent! thank God for today.

What I take home tonight: putting the word of God at the highest priority. Today we had fellowship Cg. Well half the time I weirdly felt out of place. It's a sick weird feeling that lingers in me.. A fear that I will make conversation and people will look at you and say .. Huh... what are u talking about? You are so weird. Back in camp .. These 2 weeks.. Honestly such stigma exist. I will prefer to hide in my own shell.. And not let someone know who I am really like.. Lest they jeer and make fun of me... Yet I know in my heart.. All this is cool. This is how we make friends.. We lighten things up.. And in that we enjoy each other... Strangely.. I haven't felt that in awhile. And when I can successfully enter into a conversation where people accepts the things I say.. I feel accepted in the group. (Goffman's theory in social psychology) Well... Back to where I was saying.. Today's fellowship is great. Laughters. Great food. Abit disappointed in the lack of participation ...

havent been blogging for quite awhile. just want to say... Praise the lord :) ... with my new laptop.. typing is made so much easier.... i can also resume blogging!! :) yes! Today i was released early from camp! actually it's really by the grace of God... coming to this ICT... i not only can take a break from my work.... i get allowance.. and my company still pays me..... my reservist is like an unofficial break from normal work - study routine. And i get to go home early on certain days :) how sweet is that?? Thank God for it really! Today ... I was hunting for a MSG bible for my friend "VT" ... from this shop in peopls park near my estate... Trust bookstore. I must say i am beginning to appreciate the shop owner more and more. He always leave me with a very 'welcome' feeling when i enter his shop. And one thing about him that every patrons will experience... His very explicit display for his love of God! He talk about Jesus likes his best friend next door. Alway...