Gosh

This time of the year it's all about wrapping gifts and appreciating members..

So tired wrapping presents. Thank God for the help of bb that I am able to complete alot of the task.

Recently been feeling weird in my heart. I got to reject these thots and feelings cos it's negative!

Sigh but I really could use some rest. I really feel like going on a getaway. To be alone. Just feeling too much right now with school and work. Its not that bad when I think about it. But I feel so breathless. It's like one thing to do after another...

:) still I remain thankful. Everything is according to Your plan

Ng, sent via iphone �
[Godliness with contentment is great gain]

Thanksgiving night

I have just attended City Harvest thanksgiving night. My first impression... Every one is LIKE A GIANT. I dunno why but I feel I'm in the atmosphere of giant slayers.. And ita no wonder- I'm in the midst of man and woman who have battle scars all over them. Arrows shot straight at their heart leaves them tougher.. More resilient.. Hence the ginormous aura of a champion.

I feel seriously dwarfed. :( but hey .. I have my own battle scars. I once heard of a leader that only trained man or woman who have fell and have risen to be future leaders.. I don't understand what's so great abt falling and rising up again.. can't a pure and willing heart do the trick.

I still don't understand .. But I guess I'm still learning myself how God used different people to do different things. And how God can make me a part of His jigsaw puzzle consortium.

I looked at teary eyed leaders. and I wonder what's all their story. Today I heard stories of modern heroes of faith from the book if Acts- well chc's own version. They are really amazing. A heart of gold. The love of Christ shone in their every face.

God I want to be a man like that. Imperfect servant I may be. Sins and foolish things I commit.. But still I will humble myself and serve. I want to impact people in my simple ways. Buying that breakfast. Walking up to them to offer help. Listen to the complains and dissolving their unhappiness. An refilling their cup w edification and a golden smile.

It's gg to be a commitment. Not easy. But thru Your grace. I forgot and I remembered.I'm not ashamed of the gospel of God. It's your power and love that saved my soul. And my family and friends shall be
Saved. Amen

Ng, sent via iphone �
[Godliness with contentment is great gain]

Awesome grp

Well :) I have been leading Cg for abt a year plus... There are happy moments and also definitely discouraging times.

Still I constantly ask myself if I should be in cell group ministry.. I have no special talents. No fancy speech. No interesting humor. I make foolish mistakes. Too happy go lucky a person . I can be led carnally by my flesh.

Despite all these struggles in my thoughts.. I am glad I thought about all these. It all points down to this... God spoke to me through fri's elder he's sermon. Are you willing to serve. Sure
You don't exactly fit the bill. Others have much to say about you. But are you willing to serve? You may do things that breaks all the norms that Cgl will nt do. But are you still willing o serve?

Am I still willing to serve? What if I am not helping them? And they pin their hopes on e wrong leadership?

Still... I don't really get it.

At the end it's by your grace right?
Then give me the overflow. I want to be the best Cgl there is.

Ng, sent via iphone �
[Godliness with contentment is great gain]