World through Your eyes

This time of the year it's all about wrapping gifts and appreciating members.. So tired wrapping presents. Thank God for the help of bb that I am able to complete alot of the task. Recently been feeling weird in my heart. I got to reject these thots and feelings cos it's negative! Sigh but I really could use some rest. I really feel like going on a getaway. To be alone. Just feeling too much right now with school and work. Its not that bad when I think about it. But I feel so breathless. It's like one thing to do after another... :) still I remain thankful. Everything is according to Your plan Ng, sent via iphone � [Godliness with contentment is great gain]

I have just attended City Harvest thanksgiving night. My first impression... Every one is LIKE A GIANT. I dunno why but I feel I'm in the atmosphere of giant slayers.. And ita no wonder- I'm in the midst of man and woman who have battle scars all over them. Arrows shot straight at their heart leaves them tougher.. More resilient.. Hence the ginormous aura of a champion. I feel seriously dwarfed. :( but hey .. I have my own battle scars. I once heard of a leader that only trained man or woman who have fell and have risen to be future leaders.. I don't understand what's so great abt falling and rising up again.. can't a pure and willing heart do the trick. I still don't understand .. But I guess I'm still learning myself how God used different people to do different things. And how God can make me a part of His jigsaw puzzle consortium. I looked at teary eyed leaders. and I wonder what's all their story. Today I heard stories of modern heroes of faith from...

Well :) I have been leading Cg for abt a year plus... There are happy moments and also definitely discouraging times. Still I constantly ask myself if I should be in cell group ministry.. I have no special talents. No fancy speech. No interesting humor. I make foolish mistakes. Too happy go lucky a person . I can be led carnally by my flesh. Despite all these struggles in my thoughts.. I am glad I thought about all these. It all points down to this... God spoke to me through fri's elder he's sermon. Are you willing to serve. Sure You don't exactly fit the bill. Others have much to say about you. But are you willing to serve? You may do things that breaks all the norms that Cgl will nt do. But are you still willing o serve? Am I still willing to serve? What if I am not helping them? And they pin their hopes on e wrong leadership? Still... I don't really get it. At the end it's by your grace right? Then give me the overflow. I want to be the best Cgl there is. Ng, se...