World through Your eyes

[ mood : ] Well the last few days were pretty eventful! Spent most of my Christmas weekend in Church serving as usher and watched the play 5 times over. Well it just comes to a point their scripts autoplay in my mind ... The good news is my Dad and 2 bros accepted Christ!!! yea. I also brought rad and cool dude along and he wants me to bring him along next year again! looks like he enjoyed too.. The last few days of 2006 couldn't be worse. I felt knock-out of my journey. and its scary because the faith that i had hold on too every single day.. i just suddenly felt like giving it all up. My cg leaders says i am tired. My usher IC diagnosed me as of having depression. Well they are all very much right. The thing is - i don't really know what's the true problem. In my army camp, i felt like a single island in the pacific ocean. It's hard to get around when the gates of people around shuts down on you. At home, all is calm and good. my granny and I hardly talks. And some...

[ mood : ] This period .. i'm just feelin so fustrated you know. I just don't get what God is leading me now in this period. I feel God ... yet He seems quiet in my life nowadays. No Visions. No Revelations. It's pretty like winter now on the inside of me. :( cold. dead. Dad spoke to me yesterday during the Women's meeting ( i was there helping as the guitarist ). I wasn't getting much of what he's saying... But something struck me on the inside ... where is Jesus's place in my heart? Is it above my ministry? Above my friends? my personal needs? No it isn't. Dad told me to get a break.. a break from everything that runs in my life. a break spent at the beach. I like that idea. The plans that i had to rise up has to start from God. I'm sorry but i promise to spend more time with you from today on. :) Anyway guys... going to be water baptised this Sunday - 2p.m. ( yay finally a confirmed date. ) Hope my aunts and uncles and friends can be there to s...

This week is a pretty TIRING week!! With all the admin work .. follow-ups and call-ups (to those who actually answered my call) .. and meetins with my leaders.. sometimes it can grow really weary! But i think it's all's great. I never felt so stretched.. so tired. Balancing my army work life in the day and making sure everything runs well in my cg and ministry by night is building up on my capacity and strength. And this i know very well prepares me for greater works in the future. Things that i know i will not break a sweat after my breakthrough :) Tiredness aside .. there are some other thing that disturbs me this week that i've shared with 'Dad'. All through the week.. i feel funny around people. Well it's hard to explain this but .. I can't say the things that i wanna say to my friends. My mind goes blank at times when i work ... and .. even at times i get into the habit of mumbling my words out. or tongue-tied. it makes me feel like i'm going mad. t...